Latest Posts by adormida - Page 3

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* sparkling girl, sparkling soul

being mysterious is overrated, time to trauma dump

I sometimes love her and I sometimes hate her. Am I a bad daughter? Or is she a bad mom? Or are we just people?

Everybody leaves me, I'm really such an undesirable person? My classmates say I'm kind, so why nobody want my company?

sometimes what a girl needs is to have a silly pretty apartment to rot, dance, make art, cry and eat peaches while topless

everything I feel, think or do is bad when I'm with my mom

I hate knowing I have a problem but not having a diagnosis by my therapist because then it's so hard to explain what happens to you and you're less understood, you cannot say anything because you don't have a diagnosis yet

Does anyone else feel lonesome?

Not lonely. Not alone. Just... lonesome. Like you don't feel connected to anyone. Like you never feel that you will find anyone that understands you, that will see you truly, let alone someone who will even like you. You see friends everywhere, but you don't see yourself in their place, like that is not for you, like you're not made for that and that's not made for you. You see people having fun and laughing and dancing and getting drunk and falling in love and you just... don't feel that for yourself. Like you're not supposed to have that, like you can't because it's not for you and you're not for it.

Like you're supposed to be seeing all these beautiful things in the world but not experience them yourself. Like you want to experience so much, experience everything, but be overwhelmed by it so you don't do any of it.

Like you want to be everywhere and do everything, but you don't belong anywhere and can't do anything. Like you're not supposed to be here. Not in a self-deprecating way but in an incongruous way. You want to live you want to be alive, but you feel you're not supposed to be. Not here at least, not like this. Just a presence in the world, not an active member of it. Even your body doesn't feel like home, your face isn't a face you recognise, like you're not supposed to have either. Like you're just supposed to be.

Like you're supposed to observe, but not experience.

I try to friendly, kind and not exclude anyone but, at the of the day, I'm the excluded and lonely girl, it's sometimes so hard to be there and not to be there

tips to glow up?

sometimes I don't care about being considered weird by classmates, other days I want to be loved

why cant i fall deeply in love?

save george mackay of playing a soldier again (not actually, i love seeing him)

new crush desblocked: George Mackay

I love to write silly things in my journal like going insane, it's soo cute

people sometimes forget I'm a teenage girl who wants to do tenenage girl stuff

i want to be mysterious but i fucking love to overshare

i love suki waterhouse vibes

why people don't understand how sad girl lana del rey shes thunderstorms arabella sylvia plath the bell jar my year of rest and relaxation arctic monkeys chase atlantics star girl I am?

i love how tumblr is so niche

i luv luv luv scrolling through pinterest

I love to explain to my 4 year old cousin what i have to study

i hate feeling ugly, i cant stop comparing myself to the girls that surround me, they are so extremely beautiful and i dont even know how they accept me, i just want to feel pretty

hi hi! I'm writing an Eyeless Jack X Reader fanfic, there are three chapters published in Quotev right now. It's called "Upside down" I would be really grateful if you give it a chance <33

Quotev

Upside down (Eyeless Jack x Reader)

You have lived in this small religious town since you can remember, at some moment you start getting doubts about your future. Those doubts

old fandoms are consuming me (i pass too many hours on quotev and ao3)