8 MILE (2002) dir. Curtis Hanson

Quick sketch I did on my desk while bored.

This is SCRUMPTIOUS!! Did anyone say that!! My man looking FIIIINE!

just more scribbles... (there's a tommy here too but the pose wasn't right so. may try again another time.)

Trying to write fanfiction for the first time is so humbling, it feels like I've never written anything ever.

Spoilers for Original Sin and Dexter season 1 cause I need to rant about stuff. I warned you.

I just gotta rant about this cause everyone seems so pleased with Original Sin and how it came out...

The show per se wasn't bad at all, actually I even liked it but there were so many inconsistencies plot-wise that I could've happily ignored if it was a separate work or even an alternative universe, but not since it's supposed to be Dexter reminiscing his past at the end of New Blood.

Imma start off with a simple question: Where in FUCK'S name is Matthews?? Originally that man was at Deb's 16th or so birthday and you want me to believe that now that she's supposed to be 17 (which by the way I dont like since her birthday was december 7th of 1979, thing that would happily explain why Matthews is nowhere to be seen) he's not even shown as part of the police force??

Also, should I ignore the fact that Dex in episode one of the first show used the fishing noose or whatever it was like in the books to lead his victims to their death to then start using M99 at random? And in OG sin they make him find it out by the end of the season which woud completely threw off the plot of the pilot episode Dexter.

Dont even get me started on Brian as a charater and all cause what Xander and epecially Roby did was magical. They perfectly encapsulated Brian's essence as a charater and a person but what the fuck was his storyline even???

I could go on hours long rants about Brian's fluctuating age cause he and Dex weren't even a full year apart in the books and already in Dexter they had made it two to three (since they told us Brian was 6 when the Shipping Yard massacre happened but then they showed us his driver's licence were his birthday was set in 1968, which would've made him 5 but okay) AND NOW THEY PUSHED HIS BDAY EVEN FURTHER?!?! Like what do you mean 1966?? Do they want him to be a full blown teenager when his mother gets killed or what?

Also, have mercy on me but what is this psychopath propaganda they're trying to push on him? Oh yeah, he had morbid curiosity about some lizards and detached their tails for fun. He's definitely evil. Well, lemme break it to you: LIZARDS CAN SHED THEIR TAILS NATURALLY!! So that whole bullshit scene of Harry and Dexter making a funeral for the lizards made no damn sense unless Brian actively killed them somehow offscreen (or if I missed the scene in which he did) And even if he did, he was a poor curious child. Someone could've just gone "you dont do that cause it hurts the lizards" and he would've most likely stopped.

Still on the psycopath propaganda part, I'm tired as hell of hearing people say, and reading comments stating, Brian is a psychopath. I can assure you that if he'd really been a psychopath he wouldn't have cared so much about getting back to Dex. He also wouldn't have had his emotional moments either like when he snapped at Dex because "you cant be a killer and a hero..." in Dexter and his "so I can work at a radio shack for the rest of my life?!" to his therapist. I can go into even more detail about his death and all but that could easily be a separate post.

Back to OG Sin in general... Where did Spencer even come from in the storyline? And btw, was I the only one who clocked that mf in episode 2? I'm sure that the actor who played him did a fantastic job with him if I managed to notice so early on because lord was it obvious that there was something wrong with that man.

LaGuerta is even more insufferable than she already was in Dexter and that alone is saying tons.

What was that whole storyline with Sofia and shit? What was the purpose of it, and even better, if they hadn't been renewed for a new season how did they expect to explain where in hell she went since Deb never mentioned her (to my knowledge) in Dexter?

Also, please, and I promise this is the last thing, can they give Debra a normal relationship? Why does EVERY SINGLE GUY she gets with have to be a drug dealer a serial killer or an abusive entitled bitch? Can't she fall for a normal guy and have a normal relationship ending with a normal excuse like "he snored in his sleep and he didn't know how to do his laundry" or shit like that???

tl;dr: Where is Matthews? Introducing M99 like that seemed very stupid. Why do they hate Brian's story and character so bad? Where did Spencer come from? And I'm not even gonna bother with LaGuerta, Sofia and Deb.

two times Bucky realizing it's Steve ...

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dexter and rudy brian

finally a person active to ramble about brian moser. his death is a pure tragedy. brian just accepted the fact that he got betrayed by his precious sibling after years of longing for him as a fond memory while desiring to get rid of this "foster bullshit" because adoption's not like true family, it's a gut-wrenching hoax that brian endured for years in isolation, trapped between walls with no possibility to reconnect with his only "salvation" alias dexter &. willing to embrace his younger brother's lack of humanity out of pure unconditional love. brian's peak fraternity &. dexter ended up throwing away his hope by eliminating brian due to his obssession with limbs &. "code"... well, controversial hot take but i wished that brian quickly got rid of dexter after the impromptu stunt or that brian secretly annihilated debra without leaving any trace before using manipulation skills to coax dexter to go back to old times with the promise of accepting all his ugly parts that he kept cancealing.

Believe me, I so wished for Brian to survive and take care of Deb on his own somehow. Not Dexter. He could never harm his baby brother not even if his life depended on it.

Also, I'm sure that he could've been, if not molded to the code, accepting of Dexter's own free will to follow it if Dexter had simply set him down and explained it. Nobody can't convince me of the contrary cause Brian obsessed over reuniting with Dex for like 31 full years and people still think that he simply would've thrown away all that simply cause Dexter didn't wanna abandon the code? Oh gimme a break. He would've accepted anything if Dexter had been capable of expressing his own worries and problems.

His death still has such a grip on me this many years later cause that "Am I one of your victims now?" broke me then and it still breaks me now.

And Dexter going like "you need to be put down" and Brian "Why? Because of your code?" and Dex "And the safety of my sister" TF YOU MEAN THE SAFETY OF YOUR SISTER?? HE'S YOUR GODDAMN BLOOD BROTHER AND YOU'RE WILLING TO OFF HIM TO SAVE HER?

This is one of those rants where quoting the books comes in handy too btw cause in Darkly Dreaming Dexter he quite literally realized that Harry had lied to him all along and after that, as he looked down at Debra's body bound to the table in plastic, his internal monologue stated, and I quote: "And more to the immediate point, what did I owe this squirming lump of animal flesh quivering beneath me, this creature masquerading as my sibling? What could I possiby owe her in comparison to my bond with Brian, my own flesh, my brother, a living replication of my selfsame precious DNA?"

Like, how did we go from that kind of devotion to "I have to kill him to save her"?

Brian's devotion and love were blind but there and strong, unrelenting and deep.

Dexter's devotion was misplaced since he himself regretted having killed Brian later on in the seasons, especially when Deb found out about his little hobby and tried to kill both of them by drowning them in the car.