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# rotting with ambivalence

i don't write poetry often, so this is likely not written well; and i have an unusual speech pattern, so this may not flow well aside from in my own reading; enjoy

i look at you and all i know is fading

my sense of couth lost, as im found desperately trying to reach it

all im bound to find is despair.

but you know that right?

youll tear me down to shame, night by night;

"my heart is not for the taking"

though this bruise feels all too loving

and so do my words.

another crack is left on my lips

i beg for you to think about me just once

to think about me in the sense of family.

we both know youll never get there

instead ill look for whats left of you;

i see you in the swans, their beauty suddenly ruined

i sit and watch as they deceive their admirers;

ill never blame them.

one time i stopped writing in the middle of noting down a wip idea i had and i havent been the same since. it literally stops mid-sentence at "and". AND WHAT ????

More Than Royalty (wip intro)

I havent been called lia in 10 years. only she did that.  "You said i'd never go through that again so what the fuck happened," she snapped, stopping to catch her breath, "And are you okay."

General:

Genres; romance, YA

setting; a currently unnamed kingdom

themes of; royalty, lgbt relationships, forbidden love, classism, religeous trauma

POV; 1st person

status; character development

target length; novel duology

tag; #wip: more than royalty

CW's; religious trauma, homophobia, kidnapping,

Masterlist

Not great with summaries, be nice.

Summary:

a princess in line to a monarchy that feels outlandish escapes her palace the week before her crowning, going to look for her childhood best friend, whom she was forbidden to see for many years. In leaving, has to leave her little brother behind to be the next king, hoping she can find her girl and be free. She knows that if she doesnt go back, her people will be ruled by cruel leaders; but if she does, she'll never get the life or people she wants.

Characters:

Alia Vallence

Willow Marwah

Marian Vallence

Desmond Vallence

Wade Vallence

Navya Marwah

- Intro to me/my account .*

General:

pronouns; he/him

age range; minor.

current read; crooked kingdom - Leigh Bardugo

interests; bones, typewriters, zombies, tim burton movies, 80s goth, physical media, journaling

fandoms; creepypasta, young royals, 5sos

inspirations; hozier, luke hemmings, jeff buckley, peter murphy, & edgar allan poe

fun facts:

im autistic, thus i have a strange speech pattern, so my 'poems' may not make sense aside from in my own voice. It also means i really struggle with telling tone (ironic as a writer, i know.)

ive enjoyed writing since i learned how, and never really stopped.

idk how to write straight couples as ive never experienced it, so I do it very rarely.

i really like "The tell tale heart"; i think it solidified my want to pursue writing as a career.

i lovee jeff buckley

i own a remginton 2 typewriter, though it doesnt work rn..

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information on my writing (+masterlists) below the cut.

My writing:

wips; 2 atm, ideas for 1 other i'll focus on later on.

My main wip is shortened to "SOLS". It follows 2 boys, one human, one siren. Both of them are gay and want the other, though they arent supposed to be together for various reasons.

themes of death, friendship, love, and manipulation/abuse

will be TWs for mental/childhood abuse & mild homophobia

My side wip is shortened to "MTR". It tells the story of a lesbian princess desperate to escape being heir to the throne while simultaneously falling in love with her childhood best friend.

themes of classism, love, lgbtq, and religion

genres i write; fantasy & romance w darker themes is really it for now. id like to get into writing horror though.

tropes i use often; queer and poc casts, forbidden/disapproved love, dead or missing family member.., bittersweet endings, capturing

what i'll post; lots to do with my wips, oc stuff, headcanons for the fandoms im in, "how to write ____", mightt experiment in fanfic / oneshots, occasional goth stuff, general writing things

i do not write;

straight pairings (non oc)

smut

incest

retellings

Masterlists:

Song of lost secrets (wip)

this will be updated regularly/as needed.

Kid wanted to remind you guys

I am not a waste for needing extra time to heal from the things no one saved me from.

– me at 1am

Rayen Perez - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

"Hey stop, you know that wasn't your fault right? Neither of us could have predicted that night. "

Hesperus Lark - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

“do you still feel like that? do you love me, or am I just your fascination?”

writing tip #3781:

"i use ai to proofread!" shut the fuck up how about you use A EYE to look at it YOURSELF

Silvia Lark - a mood board

– Song of lost secrets

"If- if you had just left like he wanted to none of that would have happened!"