Bottledandspilt - Bottled And Spilt

It is my tragedy to have you as my enemy

Once upon a time, you loved me dearly

Sweeter than I prefer until it turned bitter

Everything soured, words could've been phrased better

But once a year, like an eclipse, we'll be back

Trying to touch those hands, tiptoeing around the cracks

You'd pour salt in my wounds and I'd offer you a smile

It is my tragedy, to have a taste of you for a while.

Disillusioned

Looking back, I thought you might have seen the good in me

And you tried to bring it out so I could also see

But that was only a flicker, something that flared your hopes up

And I knew that, so I asked you to stop

I'm broken that time and I couldn't trust anybody

Yet you insisted that it'll not be bad as I thought it would be

And for a bit of time, it seems okay

Until I can no more keep my demons in bay

I turned out to be a monster and you saw it

I punished you for the past I was burden with

I got you confused on with the truths and the lies

Having enough, you flee and bid me goodbye

And still, I wish I hadn't let you see,

That there's still good left in me

Maybe then, you wouldn't keep your hopes up

Saving us the time and pain, if you have stopped.

Played

Tears racing down my cheeks

I'm trying to find the words but I can't speak

My hands tightly clutching your shirt

Your eyes full of confidence and mirth

Here's another girl running after you

Foolish enough to believe that your promises were true

You smirked and pried me away

Saying, I'm too boring to make you stay

With that, you turned your back

An offhand comment wishing me luck

My knees buckled as I accept defeat

This is karma, so swift and sweet.

Ruins

You're still stuck in the crevices of my mind

Still haunting all the places I can find

I've given you the key, offered my chains

Hoping for a shelter, yet you turned out to be rain

You promised freedom but you are chaos

You made certain I'll never recover from your loss

Yet still here I am, waiting for your forgiveness

Still believing you're my one shot at happiness

Will I ever be free from the angel in my memory?

Will a time come when I'll finally see?

That the pedestal I put you on has already been toppled

And the sand castle we've built have long since crumbled.

Free me

they have broken the person that i am

no matter what i do, i'll never be the same

i have only wanted happiness, something that'll last

something that'll prove i'm more than my past

i know that my soul have flown today

and i'm more alone that i'll admit to say

i even have lost that little smile within me

i'm nothing but a worthless broken machinery

i hope someday they would see

the creature we turned me to be

but i know that it's too late now

for the human inside me have taken its last bow.

-D.G. Gir// 04/06/2018

Her

She's such a sweet rose

The bright spring, in a dark, cold winter

She's all I can remember

She has that angelic grace

That saved me from my demons and monsters

But maybe it'll be best to forget her

For all her smiles,

Her laugh, her voice that used to make me better

All faded away the day she chose her lover.

Don't ask me why I put love in the same category as pain

Or why I avoid the sunshine and keep expecting the rain

If you've already forgotten, it's you who have broken promises

You, who proved how foolish I am to let down my defenses

Love left me open, vulnerable, hoping you won't hurt me

I offered you my soul, hoping you'd set me free

You took my broken pieces, forgetting about my past

Left me hanging, thinking that this would last

You snip away the thread when it was all I was holding on to

And bid me goodbye in the cruelest way I knew

You told me you want me and left

It seemed you can't handle to see how I see myself

It turns out that tearing my walls down and letting you in

Was only a silly game to prove that you will win

So I apologize for being naive and being in love

I should haven't given away the little that I have.

-D.G. Gir

Bewitched

Tell me another lie

Please, anything but goodbye

You are my poison

But you are also my cure

I'd rather live in your prison

Inhale you sweet and pure

For your taste, I'll now forever crave

I'm dying, but I don't want to be saved

So, drown me in your essence

This is how my soul will be cleansed.