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---- 2/10/2024 entry

* Today I downloaded GTA the trilogy!! I'm starting with GTA III and it looks good.

* My sister is changing schools, she's 18 so she can do whatever she wants but my mom is so heartbroken, it's so sad to see her this way.

* I felt an urge to relapse into starving, but I KILLED that urge, murdered, gone !!

* On Monday I'll have swimming classes so i decided to go on a 1200 kcal diet until Monday, I'll do HIIT daily and walk a lot + 16:8. Ik thats kinda unhealthy but i wanna look good quick and i swear ill return to eating normal after monday LOLLL

* I was on a walk with my mom for like an hour and a half, I absolutely love walking with her, and I love her, she's the best <3

* That's it lol, nothing really happenned :') byeee🩷🪽

---- 30/09/2014 entry

* Today was, alright, I guess? I got my period yesterday after not having it for 5 months!! My stomach was kinda hurting all the time but not too much. My first two classes were P.E, we ran for an hour (11°C 😭) and then played volleyball. I love running but that was just.. brutal. The rest of my classes were okay.

* I decided to do a 3 day challenge. It's about listenning to subliminals/affirmation tapes and affirming all the time. Mine is about looking like Taylor Hill and being beautiful!

* After school I baked oatmeal cookies the first time in my life, they turned a bit burned and I put too little sugar in it, but they were fine after putting honey on them! I ate 11 at once LOLL

* I guess that's it, that day was like another average day. XOXO angels 🩷🪽

Go cry about it. Then come back stronger than ever.

Bad grade on a test? Go cry about it.

Got rejected? Go cry about it

Feeling left out? Go cry about it.

Listen, im not trying to make you feel upset or angry in anyway. I am genuinely telling you: if something has happened that is actually negatively impacting your life very strongly, GO CRY ABOUT IT. Express those feelings. Scream into your pillow. Punch your bed. Pour your thoughts onto paper then rip it up and burn it. Feel the feelings vividly.

But what about after that? Are you going to keep crying about it? Are you going to keep victimising yourself and feeling sorry for yourself? Yuck. Look girl, cry about it, then come back stronger than ever.

Like Haruki Murakami once said: “But we cannot simply sit and stare at our wounds forever.” He was right. We can cry and let the wounds hurt for a bit, but then we must get up.

Life moves on, so must we.

You can either make excuses, or make a way.

tricking yourself into doing tasks that make you nervous

you know the situations. when you get wrapped up overthinking and suddenly, this seemingly easy task seems horrible and daunting. here are some tips to help you trick your brain into completing the action.

visualise success. imagine how good it will feel once the task is completed. this can boost your motivation and reduce anxiety.

pair the task with an enjoyable activity - for example listening to your favourite music or having a nice cup of coffee while working.

promise yourself a reward for completing the task. it could be something small like a treat or a break to do something you enjoy.

tell yourself that you're just excited. you're challenging yourself. this positive gaslighting will help you feel more positive about your nervous energy.

❤️ nene

‘that girl’ autumn goals ideas:

hi angels! i feel like as august comes to an end all i want to do is have the coziest, most aesthetic gilmore girls autumn. so here is my autumn ‘that girl’ list, a list of my goals for this season and what i am going to do to feel and look my best as well as having the cutest, most aesthetic autumn. hopefully this inspires you or helps you make your own list of goals.

make an autumn reading list + read every book.

keep a planner.

make cozy autumn playlists to set the mood!

get up by 8am every morning.

meditate + do yoga/stretching.

bake autumn themed goods.

learn how to make autumnal flavoured hot drinks (pumpkin spice etc).

eat the ‘rainbow’ - eat a balanced, healthy diet.

go on autumn walks.

have a halloween themed film night with friends or family.

perfect my autumn wardrobe + make a pinterest inspo board.

make a vision board for the season!

go thrifting or to vintage markets!

journal daily.

make room cozy, get thick blankets, candles and cute pillows.

get some fresh air every day!

find a new cute cafe.

listen to a new motivational podcast.

have a study date with friends!

go to a halloween party.

perfect your autumn workout routine.

switch to warm, comforting breakfasts.

visit a farmers market!

have a spa day!

be creative + make or write something.

visit a book shop/library.

watch autumnal episodes of my favourite tv shows.

treat yourself to new pyjamas/cozy loungewear.

go pumpkin carving!

cut down screen time.

thank you for reading angel! little bit of a shorter post as im planning a few longer ones in the coming week. i hope this has inspired you and been helpful - autumns just about to start pretty much! love, m.