Latest Posts by cripple-kin - Page 2
Unironically one of my favorite parts of getting older is that we'll get to be an older nonhuman + plural that younger ones can look at and see that yes, we can live long fulfilling lives and that this experience can be a lifelong one.
Good naps will have you sleeping in poses usually reserved for dead insects
Tiktok therians: Therians don't ACTUALLY believe they're animals!!
The observable universe:
When will people finally understand that therianthropy DOESN’T end when it comes to genital dysphoria or in the bedroom?? That so doesn’t make therianthropy inherently sexual but god it’s not like it just packs its bags and leaves when it’s deemed too much for chronically online alterhuman antis to understand ????????? Fuckin hell bro
Born to say "mate" and "pack"
Forced to say partner and friends...
Spent a good portion of time making sure others feel comfortable being alterhuman
And yes I'm fine here but it still took me awhile to ever figure out my own nonhuman identity, and I'm still figuring it out!
Never feel like you have to rush, or that you have to "prove" your identity, or that you have to be 100% sure at all times about everything, or that you HAVE to know everything
It's okay, you'll figure it out at some point
Imagine being lovekin but aromantic as hell?????????
Couldn't... Couldn't be me... Ahahha
Born to be wild
Forced to be domesticated so now all my expectations and wants are all fucked up
I think this is because people (especially on TikTok) like to point to figures of authority even when it's not applicable
A good majority of this we can also blame on right wingers, transmeds, and a small bit of those very specific detrans grifters who make it seem like the trans community "groomed them"
All those groups went for years going on about how dysphoria is a very special mental illness to the point of taking away people's autonomy on how people perceive themselves
Species dysphoria *is* somewhat recognized, just not fully or medically (and I'm not sure it would really be good if it was either or both of those considering how most people treat clinical zoanthropes already)
But people can't point to a disorder and (think) they can't point to any papers (despite them existing) so it MUST NOT EXIST! the assumed authority has said so! (Which should be left to the creature, not anyone else). But if species dysphoria *does* get medically recognized then you're gonna be called even more delusional than usual because "look! It's a disorder! Something is clearly wrong with YOU!"
I hate when I mention species dysphoria on tiktok and half or more of the comments I get are telling me it's not real or I cant use the term dysphoria for that, I've already gone into why dysphoria is a okay term to use several times, but like you can't just say its not real when many others experience it- sure I don't think its recognized in the medical field (might be wrong idk) but that doesn't just erase others feelings and experiences
Like I'm just confused what people think commenting that isn't real is gonna do, doesn't change what Im feeling, I wish it did honestly because I'm tired of feeling like this but like obviously it's not changing anytime soon even if you decide to pretend like Im making it up for some reason
Misanthropy, zoanthropy, so called delusionality, and humanity.
In the end, no matter how much of an accepting community I find, I will never fit in.
I am what you would call a clinical zoanthrope/CLCZ. I am labeled by humanity as a delusional human who believes he is an animal. Recognized psychiatrically.
Or rather,
When I was a young calf, I was captured and had my body twisted into a terrifying, foreign shape. I had been mistreated and taken captive.
However, humanity labels my experiences as delusions. I get called crazy, my own past is actively dismissed by humans and therians alike. I get told to "shut up and take my medication".
The medication which only degraded my body, yet never took the pain away. Which ruined me, yet never took my memories away.
I get told that I'm "insane, and need to be locked in a hospital" yet, I have already been locked away. I have been considered a "threat to myself and others". I have been called insane, I have been called dangerous due to a "delusion". Even when the so called "delusion" was me speaking up about my past, and what has been done to me.
I am a killer whale. We have been captured, tortured, kept captive, and hunted for decades. We were mistreated for decades. Yet, even today, the ones who did this continue to get away with it. And I am no different. The ones who have done this to me will forever get away with it, and I'll never receive justice.
I made peace with it. I made peace with the fact that I'll forever have to censor and hide my experience behind a big sign that reads "delusional and crazy".
I have had multiple diagnoses placed upon me, just to further install the idea that I'm "insane".
Because, what's better than coming forward and admitting your mistakes? Making the victim feel ostracized and crazy.
But, I have made peace with those facts. However, when I discovered the therian community, what I wished for is to finally have a place where I can belong. A place where I can speak freely about my own trauma, a place where I won't be censored for simply saying what I am.
I was wrong.
At first, I saw just how many of animals like me were just as shunned as we would be by the humans. How many of them were called insane, labeled as "psychopaths", how much deeply rooted ableism there was towards both those who do experience delusions, and those like me who genuinely have undergone hell. Me and my comrades have spoken about it quite a few times, both publicly and towards each other.
However, while I did receive a lot of support here... Well, I don't feel quite like it. Even whenever I see therians in this community attempt to be supportive towards us.. I still end up hearing things like "zoanthropes are just as valid! They're just delusional, and need to heal!". I still see us being portrayed as crazed, and the belief that in order to fit in, you have to censor and purify yourself for others—enforced. Even here, we have to censor our own experiences and thoughts. When we speak on the distrust we feel towards humanity, we are considered "disgusting, misanthropic cowards". We are, yet again, shunned away and forced to shut up. I feel that honestly, we'll never have the ability to truly speak up on who we are, and what has happened to us. In the end, we will have to censor our words, tag our posts, and still say that we know we're mentally ill... Even though we only wish to bring light to what has been done to us, and what is being done to us even now. Truly, we only have each other.
It's incredibly isolating, that the people and therians alike won't understand it. Won't understand what it was like to be ripped away from your family, and forced into a foreign body.. only to then be called delusional.
Of course, it comes without saying.
I do not hate every human. I cannot hate every individual human, because everyone is different. It wasn't all humans who did this to me.
Yet, as my friend Kala mentioned, just how many humans supported what was done to us? Just how many people funded the facilities that hurt us? How many people still continue to support the torture we experience? Just how many humans will always brush us off as insane and in need of help?
It's not every human, but it was always a human that hurt us. Never have I been hurt by a fellow animal. Never.
It was the humans who captured my kind, it was the humans who slaughtered my fellow cetaceans, it was always the humans who have hurt my dear friends... It's not every human, but it is always a human.
I do not wish to hate humanity. I do not believe myself to be some great being above them. On the contrary. I experience so damn many feelings of inferiority to them. I feel afraid to speak up, I feel afraid to act out of my own will... Because I know. I know that I have to obey the humans. That I have to dance as they play me. That I have to talk as they tell me to.
I do not trust them. I wish I could, but I just cannot. I hide behind so many masks when even interacting with a human. Frankly, you could even say I am afraid of them.
I also wish I could truly return to the wild and be free. Free with my pod, and free from the chains of humanity... But it is not possible, so I'll take anything.
Still, I do hope for a reconciliation with humanity, even if it would be through a few humans. Even if it was only with my trainers when I finally get to return to a tank, to the water.
I will also be much more honest and transparent about my experiences. What I can do, Is try not to conform at least a bit. I am tired of being told what to do. It's time for me to stop impressing the humans, the "human but not quite", therians, and everyone else. I just wish to be myself.
I'll continue to be good for the humans, and when the time comes, return to the water with my friends, and swim forever.
If you're reading this, and you share the sentiment, trust me. One day, we'll see the water again. We'll step in, and won't ever look back.
- sincerely, Ike.
because the tiktok ban is supposedly true and is going to happen in like january(???dont quote me on that) im kinda worried that people who migrate to tumblr who have.. never had tumblr before.. will, for lack of better terms, tiktok-ify tumblr!!! esp in the nonhuman community because we all are aware of the tiktok therians and how they see stuff, so if/when they come on here, i fear they will be in for a rude awakening!
The feminine urge to sit on a rooftop… Or is that the catlike urge… (We’ll never know)
I am a cat in the "hostile fucked up creature with a mild bloodlust that only wants to be left alone but also kinda vaguely cat-shaped" way
What do y'all know about life-size dog beds
how my brain picks a new favorite character who sucks
Sometimes therian spaces just feel like "therians are valid! but-", then they give you an entire paragraph about why you aren't one of the "alright therians"
I think
"You need to let new people learn and grow and make as many mistakes as they do because they'll never actually find themselves or be comfortable with a community like ours if we don't lend a helping paw"
And
"older members of the community have a right to be angry at younger members when they shame, water down, or overall push out certain things and people of the community who/which are harmless"
Are ideas that coexist
Saw a tiktok of a guy saying he doesn’t feel comfortable talking to minors because he’s 19. And it’s just. I’m so fucking tired of this.
And like to be clear, I’m speaking as a victim of pedophilia when I say: We need to get over this collective fear of endangering children. Because holy shit, this stuff is getting out of hand.
The average person is not a threat to a child.
And also!!! It is actually really really good for kids to have friendships with adults that aren’t their family.
Having friendships with adults when you’re younger prepares you for adult life in a better way then only interacting with adults that are family members or teacher as well.
And also if there’s any sort of weird behavior happening with adults or teachers, it’s very helpful to have unrelated adults, you can go to, and also have a model for what normal adults are supposed to look like.
And also! You’re just making it way easier for pedophiles to prey on children when you completely avoid interacting with them as an adult. Because kids are naturally inquisitive and curious. They are going to want to interact with adults and they are going to want to ask questions. And if the only adult adults that are willing to interact and speak with them or adults who have ulterior motivations. Guess what’s gonna happen.
Also on a more general note. Having a model for what a normal healthy adult is supposed to look like makes it way easier for kids to be able to recognize and identify when adults in their personal life are being weird.
I am begging y'all to stop they/themming folks who don't use they/them just because they don't pass, or YOU personally don't "feel comfortable" using their pronouns.
Use his pronouns. Use her pronouns. Use its pronouns. It's common courtesy.
damn girl you really make me wanna sit at the door with my tail between my legs and whine for you to come back (dog rizz)
adults: oh silly children with no responsibilities no real trauma no life experience no worries and yet oh so dramatic about nothing
also adults: oh thank fucking GOD i am not in school anymore, i had another nightmare i was THERE again, i woke up in a cold sweat bc i didn't study for my TEST-there's nothing not anything like the sweet relief of realizing that you actually don't have one and you won't have one in a very very long time, i still remember what the hallways smell like, i graduated years ago but i don't feel safe yet
How I look at them therian tiktoks saying "therians are people who identify as animals but we don't ACTUALLY think we're animals we know we're humans haha" :
Like get yo ass outta here
(PSA: I'm not hating on these creators it's just annoying folks trying to change people's experiences and the definition of therian or otherkin to conform to non-therians/otherkins, to be 'digestible' and 'normal')
i think gatekeeping is unfathomably cringe and i think the way people in this community treat linkers (funlinkers especially) and voluntary identities in general is gross, but i recently came across an exchange that was really irritating to be fair and made me kind of understand the defensiveness.
it was in a comment thread under a video where a streamer was talking about a twitter user who was being 'cancelled' and they must have listed their fictionkins on their strawpage because that's what the comment was about.
person 1: i thought kinning meant that you related to a character?
person 2: it does mean that, not that you actually think you're that character.
person 3: i'm kin and it means that you relate heavily to a character, ppl who identify as "fictionkins" and genuinely think they're fictional characters are just deluded and make us look bad.
like no, that's not what "kinning" means at all. as far as i'm aware, kinning has always meant that you identify as a character in some capacity until people who weren't a part of the kin community made out like it meant something completely unrelated while looking down on people who are actually fictionkin or "kinnies", which is probably where the defensive aspect to the community comes from.
you have co-opted a term that has always meant one thing, said it means something completely different, and then turned around and call the people who use the term in its traditional meaning 'delusional'. that is very disrespectful. for the record i think term discourse is dumb and you can use whatever labels you want, but i understand the frustration.
to more or less usurp the term 'kinning' or 'kinnie' or whatever and twist it to mean your own definition, then claim that the people who the term has always belonged to are 'delusional' is just awful and absurd. "kinning" has always meant that you identify as a character.
personally i am funlink and all of my identities are voluntary and for fun and i use the term kinning to describe that aspect of myself, but i would never look down on involuntary fictionkins or claim that their terms mean something else entirely when it doesn't.
Somewhere around 4-5th grade, there was a documentary around this pack of wolfs and vampires. Let me tell you I watched that thing religiously
I haven't been able to find it again since though
Do you ever look at a fellow alterhuman and wonder who inspired their alterhuman awakening?
I do. I like knowing what motivated others.
Myself, I realized our alterhumanity 10 years ago and the ones that most inspired me were fromfiction, liongoatsnake, & who-is-page. They'd all made excellent essays that would stick in my head to this day.
How about you? What/who helped you explore your alterhumanity?