Y’all The New Richard Siken Poems Are So Goddamned Sad (and Also So Fucking Good, As Expected) Y’gotta

"Maybe we'll be different, Dean." "What kind of Kool-Aid you drinking, man?"

SUPERNATURAL 4.12 Criss Angel Is a Douchebag

rejection sensitivity is so fucking lame. like boo hoo look at me i felt mildly ignored for 30 seconds and already started planning my own funeral liKE BITCH CHILL it was never that serious

ccaanniidd. gouache watercolor, 2019

imagine sitting next to sam winchester in prelaw 101 and you’re like can i borrow a pencil and he hefts his backpack onto the table and it’s noisy and lumpy like he’s got a bunch of coins in there and he rummages around and pulls out a pencil and you’re like thanks. do you have a sharpener by any chance and he pauses and looks between you and his bag a few times and reaches in and hands you a pocket knife

dog6. gouache watercolor painting on coaster. one of my coasters for 'salut 9' at nucleus portland

ccaanniidd. gouache watercolor, 2019

odi et amo.

my top hobbies are shame and embarrassment but i also occasionally dabble in envy

look at these chemical romance doodles boy

In my mind, Dean always reminisces based on Sam's age. So, instead of saying "when I was 15", he would say "when Sammy/my brother was 11" and Sam doesn't notice. John doesn't notice. Meanwhile, all of Dean's dates notice because it is very very bizarre but they don't know how to point it out.

Eventually, Crowley picks up on it (after that summer camp with Dean) and he brings it up and you can see both brothers staring at him in confusion because:

Sam is convinced that can't possibly be the case and he tries to trace back some instances when Dean has referred based on his own age and comes up blank and then freaks out (and feels bad, because he's Sam)

Dean is fully aware he does this and he thinks it's the most normal thing in the world and doesn't understand why Crowley is pointing it out or why Sam is suddenly freaking out.

Crowley is so done with them both.

[I have an argument for believing this is the case. Dean is pretty much Sam's parent. Parents obviously talk about events based on their children's age (except when they are talking about events before the child was born). So on this essay....]