The Problem With Intellect

The problem with Intellect

All my life I have grappled with my own self-driven need to acquire more and more knowledge constantly and the consequential spiralling thoughts of worthlessness when I cannot comprehend a theory. 

When I was young it was a fairly innocent and vaguely competitive trait. I had to have read the most books out of my classmates. I had to score the highest on my reading comprehensions. And when the row of yellow stars next to my name on the poster hanging from the door of my first grade classroom I would grin with silent satisfaction and return quietly to my seat. 

As I got older however, this constant need to accumulate more and more knowledge became a sort of complex. No matter how much I succeeded, it was never good enough for myself. Often times I found I couldn’t internalize my own successes or realize that they were direct products of late nights spent studying and days spent agonizing over a single page essay. In my own mind, I am consistently inferior to my peers. 

And so, as I have grown and matured, I have become nothing more than my intellect. Without it I have nothing, I am nothing more, and so here lies the root of my problem with intellect. Perhaps these are the very reasons as to why I sympathize so much with the likes of Sir Arthur Canon Doyle’s Sherlock Holmes and other idiosyncratic minds. Just as the great detective said in The Adventure of the Mazarin Stone “I am a brain, Watson. The rest of me is a mere appendix.”  

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Those who are hardest to love need it the most.

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8 years ago

Irene Adler- The Final Problem

In the scene where Eurus told Sherlock to play the violin, Sherlock played Bach. However, Eurus wanted him to play "you". This was very interesting because what Sherlock played was Irene Adler's theme from ASiB. Now she deduces that he's had sex ( subtle hint with Irene) just because he played that song. Now in the ending montage (I don't know if this is what they really intended but I want it to be a clue,hahaha) Sherlock texted " You know where to find me- SH"- To whom might this text intended for. My guess is Irene because who does Sherlock text using the initial SH in the show? It's only Irene


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9 years ago

AWKWARD INTJ’S THOUGHTS #2

As we all have already established, INTJs work differently than other people. We are cold, rational and analytical. We are brutally honest, dislike humankind and don’t care about other’s opinions. We don’t like any involvement, feelings, or emotions. But despite that, we are all only weak, fragile humans. And even we have some fears, or face adversities. Don’t try to deny it. Everyone is afraid of something. Voldemort was afraid of dying, the Joker was afraid of being considered as a common clown, Sauron was afraid of the Ring being destroyed, Sherlock was afraid of John leaving him, Moriarty was… Well, I’m quite sure he was afraid of something, too. Sherlock has only three seasons, I’m slowly dying waiting for fourth, shut up. You know I’m right.

AWKWARD INTJ’S THOUGHTS #2

We all fear something or have to overcome adversity. Everyone experiences those in their own, specific way, but as always, INTJs’ way is the most specific. Let me explain it on me.

Five months ago I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression. I started treatment, psychotherapy and other stuff that was supposed to help me. Today I made a decision. As I am terrified of using public transport and generally being in public, I decided that would be a big step for me to take a tram and just go, even if it was supposed to be five minutes ride. I did as I said. When I got out of the tram, I was expecting to feel something. Happiness. Relief. Pride. I didn’t feel any of those. I started my walk back home with my mind being completely blank. Until I got home. Then I felt it. I felt this overwhelming anger.

AWKWARD INTJ’S THOUGHTS #2

I was so angry at myself that I was so weak before. That I let myself be weak. That I let myself feel weak. That I let myself act weak. Because that, THAT, is the biggest humiliation for INTJ. To show feelings, to show fear and let the fear take control. Of course, fear is rational in certain situations. But most of the times, it’s not. And we don’t like irrational things. And we don’t like to feel out of the control. Oh, no, we really don’t like it.

We must remain strong, to feel confident. INTJs are those cold, silent, untouched people looking at everyone with their analytical gazes. And feeling anything, especially fear is a humiliation for us. You may say, that fearing something is human. You’re right. And INTJs are human, even if most of times we seem INhuman. But we see and feel and act and react differently. In our own, specific way. And showing weakness, let alone asking for help, is the last thing we’d do. The same applies to adversities. We don’t want your help. Even if we’re falling, we don’t want you catch us. We want you to leave us alone, so we can do it on our own. That’s what how we are.

Cold. Rational. Analytical. Untouched. And strong. Oh god, unbelievably strong.  

AWKWARD INTJ’S THOUGHTS #2
8 years ago

This is so true

How do you know if an INTJ likes you?

I wrote something about it in a post in my main blog some time ago, here’s the link if you want to look at it. However, as it is much of an embarrassment for me, I will try to write a better one. Seriously, you don’t need to look at the link.

INTJs are private by nature, so the way we show we like a person may not always be evident. Some ways to tell if an INTJ likes you would be:

A change in attitude. And by that I mean something that it won’t go unnoticed because the INTJ suddenly seems nicer, more willing to help and smiles much more. This is different from the way I’d help a person I don’t like, for example for the person I like I’d take so much more time to make sure they understand what they needed me to explain, ask if they need extra help, and try to understand their point of view so my explanations will adjust to their way of thinking. That also applies to emotional help: one of the few occasions in which I’d ask you if you are okay is when I truly care. That leads us to the next point.

Stalkerish mood. You might not see it, but deep inside the INTJ is observing, analyzing and memorizing everything they learn about you. This helps them find patterns in the way you think, so it is easier to predict how you will react, what will make you happy, and almost everything we consider valuable to get closer to you. This is usually noticeable if you ask their friends: the INTJ pays close attention when they mention you, and would like to know every detail when with other people they wouldn’t care. So for example, it shouldn’t be a surprise that the INTJ knows much more about you than what you have told them: either they have figured it out by observing, or based on what other people they have come to this conclusion.

Challenges you. This includes asking for your opinion, to support it with facts, and in general trying to see where you can reach. Before liking someone we decide if it’s worth the effort. It may sound arrogant, but the truth is that we don’t want to pursue something that won’t work. It has nothing to do with you, but rather with our sometimes impossible to meet standars. What I mean with that is that once this phase is over, they will ask for your opinion, observe your work or something like that and point out some flaws, but not because they don’t like you or anything, but because we would like the people we like to improve and grow, so we offer what we believe is constructive feedback. It sure looks like we don’t like you, but I swear we become even more cynical when we like someone.

Stands up for you. Due to what I said in the previous point, if they have high regard for you, they will defend you against anybody: somebody we like and trust will have our constant support.

Goes out of their way to talk to you. I don’t spend time with people I don’t like if I can avoid it (and that’s probably 99% of the time), so if your INTJ is making the effort of finding time to talk to you, ESPECIALLY if it takes away time for doing activities that are important to them, like homework, housework, or any other they might be focused in, they care. A lot.

Shows off their intelligence, wit and sarcasm. It depends on the person we like, but we try to show how intelligent, witty or thoughtful we can be. For example, if I like an ISTP I will try to sound more witty than if I like an ENTJ, in this case I will try to show off my intelligence more. So if you see that your INTJ starts mirroring your behaviour to try to adjust to what you might like, chances are that for once we have abandoned all reason and decided it is worth all the effort.

Hope these are useful, thanks for asking!-Laura

9 years ago

Introvert problem

I felt feverish in the middle of the day, still I went about doing what needs to be done. Work has been so busy lately and adding to it the pressures of applying for another job. Just came from a 16 hour duty and still I need to wake up early. I feel so tired and I think I'm going to be sick. Then it struck me. I didn't realize that I've been around too many people lately and just didn't have my alone time.


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9 years ago

You might be an NTJ if ...

NTJ refers to ENTJs and INTJs.

You do a cost-benefit analysis on nearly every aspect of your life

You admire people who check you, challenge you, and call you on your shit

You often feel you should have your boss’ or coworker’s job and salary because you’re smarter and more competent

People view you as an overachiever, but you see yourself as an underachiever with still so much more to do

Your introverted friends have summoned you for assistance as their representative, lawyer, or gladiator

You know an idea is stupid and won’t work before everyone else and you’re waiting for them to catch up and realize this too

You have high expectations of other people and often want more for their lives than they want for themselves

You spend half a debate/discussion/conversation conveying your ideas and the other half convincing the other person you weren’t angry this entire time

Small talk is excruciating

The gifts you love the most are the ones you can really use

9 years ago

‘Finding yourself’ consists of peeling off years of social conditioning to find a self as it existed during childhood, un-masked.

Unknown (via deeplifequotes)

9 years ago

Fate surprises you sometimes. I just think you can have a plan in life, a good one, but that plan isn’t necessarily what fate has in store for you. Sometimes what fate thinks you need is so much better than what you had planned.

Holly Martin, Fairytale Beginnings (via bookquotesbook)

8 years ago

I almost cried when Sherlock is about to shoot Mycroft. Almost


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