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β I wanna be with you, even if you're not Hikaru.
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Quick summary of their 0.5 relationship (original)
"Unless I stay the strongest, I won't be able to call a certain someone 'my rival'!"
had a fascinating english class that resulted in the notes header βthe forcefeminization of victor frankensteinβ
I swear Atsushi is surely living in Wattpad girlie's dreams 'cause wdym bro has a emogoth demon mafia vampire darknight soldier boyfriend?
Damn that weretiger so lucky π
"undoing this character's death would take away his sacrifice and character arc" girl I don't give a shit. I'm bringing him back through the power of ao3 fix-it fics and there's nothing you can do to stop me x
β naruto - sasuke uchiha.
like or reblog if you save/use.
If one more person irl asks me about my PLANS FOR THE FUTURE I'll start sobbing
Yanshen are so funny to me because Yan Wushiβs supervillain plot to make Shen Qiao evil and spiteful almost barely works but like. Specifically only towards Yan Wushi
Shen Qiao is consistently amicable and peaceful towards people who have wronged him in the past and almost never actively seeks revenge but the literal moment Yan Wushi opens his mouth heβs like βmaybe I should give this person a Head Injuryβ
Although he was already thirty, when he traded his imperial military uniform for a set of relaxed robes to read under the lamplight, he looked refined and youthful.
Excuse me, can we stop being dramatic about age. Thirty is not old!
Hating specific ships as a multishipper is so funny. It's like: "I'm cool with most ships. Except that one. It knows what it did."
"Sai, who always gave lonely smiles, she wanted to know more and more about him. There was no way she could leave him in such dark place"
- Ino Yamanaka ( Shikamaru Hiden )
"Good morning, dr. Yamanaka"
Saiino doctors!au where Ino is a Pediatrician and Sai is an Urologist and they've been secretly married dating.
commissioned this lovely piece from @YuiiuY_I love it sm!
permission to post this was granted by the artist.
words: 2,226 pairing: Ino/Sai summary: He feels a little more for her with each passing day. He doesnβt quite understand it all. A/N: sort of a sequel, but both parts can be read as stand-alones.
part one | part two read on ao3
(1)
She falls ill one day.
βItβs nothing serious,β she tells him, voice thick with congestion, after heβd let himself into her apartment. βI just caught that bug thatβs been going around.β
And that is true, he acknowledges. Apparently she had gotten it from Ten Ten, who had gotten it from Hinata. Neither of those two had had their condition turn anywhere near serious. Still, looking at her feverish, pale face half-hidden under her comforter, Sai feels something twisting low in his gut.
βOkay,β he says, and stands there at her bedside wringing his hands.
Her brows furrow, and she studies his face with slightly narrowed eyes. βIs something wrong?β Her voice isnβt loud, even in a quiet room.
He presses his lips together and thinks about her question, long enough that she grows impatient and calls his name to prompt him.
βI donβt know,β he blurts out, because at this point he really does not know if something is wrong. It is not serious. She simply needs rest. And water and nutrients. There should be no twisting of anything anywhere in his gut.
She is fine, and she sits up in bed to demonstrate it. βAre you feeling alright?β
Instead of answering right away, he brings his hands to gently ease her back into the pillows, because she is the sick one, not him. She allows it, but not without complaint. βI wonβt keel over and croak just from sitting up, Sai.β
βI understand.β And he does understand. He does. βPlease just rest, beautiful.β
She snorts, but gathers the covers back around her shoulders with a knowing look in her eyes. βYou should try calling me something else when Iβm all sick and snotty like this,β she says. βI donβt feel very beautiful right now.β
βYou are, though.β
Her cheeks are already flushed from the fever, but he can see her fluster in the way she curls her legs closer to her body, the way her lips curl into a smile she tries to force away. βYouβre just trying to make me feel better.β
He leans down and rearranges her hair so that it lies on the pillow behind her, away from her sweat-slicked neck. βI always want you to feel better.β
(2)
This is the first time that it seems like she might actually keel over and croak if she tries to sit up, and there is nothing Sai can do except kneel in the grass and lay her down in front of the medical ninja.
βIs it serious?β he asks the medic, and Sai learns that he might just hate that word. Hate how it feels in his mouth, hate the painful tightness it leaves behind in his throat when it goes.
He dislikes even more the way kunoichiβs lips draw ever so slightly into frown. The expression is miniscule, but it is there, and Sai sees it. βIβm doing everything I can.β
That is not at all what he asked, but he decides he should let her work instead of arguing that fact.
The twisting in his gut is suddenly back, and he takes a long, deep breath through his nose in an effort to uncurl it. It does not. He presses at his stomach with two fingers, hoping he would be able to will it into submission. He cannot.
Her eye cracks open, then, red-rimmed and heavy-lidded, and Saiβs throat tightens when their gazes meet. They donβt speak; she can hardly even muster a smile at his pinched, concerned expression. So unlike himself, heβs sure sheβs thinking.
Sai brushes her loose hair back off her face, fingers lingering on the skin of her cheek, before he forces himself to stand on bleeding, aching limbs. To their knowledge, they have eliminated their most recent threat, but they are still on foreign ground. He feels weary, uncomfortably off-balance as the stronger of their duo lays injured, but it falls on him to stand watch until her recovery.
Sai draws his short blade and carries it in hand. He spends hours trying to distinguish whether the sick, heavy feeling in his chest is one of sheer, undiluted dread or a desperate, desperate hope.
.
Once the worst of her bleeding is under control, he paints a great hawk and lays her across it, sick with venom, for the remaining thirty-nine kilometers back to the village.
The kunoichi completes her work during the journey, and Sai steers the bird carefully, lest he jostle her too heavily and aggravate the new, soft tissue the medic had so carefully healed.
She survives, and he remains shaken for days afterwards.
(3)
She still tends to his apartment while heβs away on long missions, and he still tends to her plants.
By now he has already memorized each arbitrary decoration she has put out. He already understands how she likes to organize her kitchen, what colors and patterns she prefers on pillows, blankets, and curtains; he already knows whose photos she likes to see on the bookshelf in her sitting room, whose photos are allowed the privacy of her bedroom dresser.
So he doesnβt go snooping when heβs alone in her apartment, but he would be ashamed to admit that sometimes the opportunity is faintly tempting, albeit easily resisted.
She tells him often that they should do their best to learn about each other organically. Even Sakura has said something similar not very long after they first met, and he recalls her advice with clarity while he makes his rounds tending her plants.
Donβt try so hard. Donβt push too much. You canβt force a relationship to develop. These things have to happen naturally. These things take time.
He checks the soil in each of her potted cacti. Three of them are completely dried out, so he carries them to her bathroom sink to drench them. He watches it closely, the soil darkening, tamped down by the pressure of the faucet, the water slowly dripping through the bottom once the soil has overflowed and the roots have had their fill.
He wonders what things would have been like with her if he had been there from the start. Like Shikamaru or Choji, predetermined as her closest confidants. Or like Sakura, an old friend whose company has always been familiar, even through times of conflicting interests.
Sometimes, briefly, he wishes that he could have been there. He wishes he could have seen her become the person he met at 16, and he wishes she could have seen him.
Normally, he tells himself there is so much time to know her. Normally, he is not an impatient man.
But if only he had not gotten to start so late.
Because in reality, there is so much time and still none at all. The only certainty is the time taken from him, the time wasted away in the grime of cold militarism.
He wishes she could have seen him. If only briefly, back then. If not for ROOT, he should have been able to see her.
But such thoughts could not even be dignified with the title of a pipe dream. They are pointless fragments of memories that would never even have the privilege of existing. They are fabrications. And there is no need to pine after them, as if they could ever be anything more. Not when they have each other now. Not when she allows him to learn her, day by day, and not when she learns him in return.
These things take time, he tells himself.
(4)
He would probably never be normal by her standards. He still canβt fully wrap his head around why she finds that acceptable.
And his lover is beautiful. That much is obvious.
His stomach churns with a new type of dread watching her and this stranger.
The manβs hand reaches out, but before the tip of his finger even brushes her hipbone, she throws her drink on him and stomps away.
The twisting remains, even while she drops into the seat next to him with a tired sigh.
βOh, donβt be jealous,β she laughs when she sees his pinched expression. Her cheeks are flushed from the alcohol. βItβs nothing serious.β
It is, though. Or at least he thinks it is.
But he doesnβt know how to tell her, or how to even articulate it.
She peers at him with hazy eyes while he lowers his head and nurses his share of sweet plum sake. There are gears turning in her head, slowly and carefully, and he lets them. She would ask him sooner or later, and though he isnβt sure if this is the ideal environment for it, he would not lie to her if she pried.
But the moment is interrupted by Naruto, who in his drunken stupor spills an entire pitcher of water over the table. Her focus is torn from him, diverted now toward irritated scolding and clumsy patting of napkins against lacquered wood.
Sai watches her and breathes deeply, and the tension in him loosens ever so slightly. Heβs unsure if it means heβs relieved or disappointed.
(5)
He cries to her one night about it, in a way that is just as much liberating as it is pitiful.
It has been over a month since she threw her drink on the man at the bar, and she looks startled and concerned when he brings it up. It was so minor to her. It was minor, and that knowledge only makes his chest clench even tighter. He places a hand there, as if that would help it, but his breathing doesnβt become any less clipped.
βI worry about us sometimes,β he says, staccato-placed words through a stream of tears. βI donβt know where this feeling comes from. It hurts.β
Couples will do this for one another every so often. He knows that much. They hold one another until the other stops shaking, tethering them as they wait for the storm of their emotions to pass. They wipe away the otherβs tears and hold their face and kiss their dampened cheeks, they hold the otherβs hand and listen to their whimpered admissions of pain.
She does it all for him now, and the gentle acts of kindness leave him so clouded and weary that he thinks he might end up falling asleep, sniffling against the curve of her neck, if he isnβt careful.
βI want to be everything you want,β he says. The bedroom is bathed in sunset yellow and hazy shadows. Her loose hair glows with the traces of day seeping in through the window, soft and smooth while he runs his fingers through it. He takes a lock in his hand and presses it between two of his fingers, thumb running up and down, up and down. The repetitive motion is soothing, and he gathers his breath to speak again. βI want to be good to you.β
βYou are good to me. You always have been,β she tells him, and her eyes are glistening too, now. They donβt look as blue, layered with the warm tones of approaching dusk. Her hands travel back to his face, cupping the angles of his jaw with a firmness that tells him she is not willing to argue her point. βYouβre the only one I want, Sai. Itβs only you.β
The words are soft on his ears, and fill his chest with that flower-blooming feeling that he has never been able to name. What normally is welcomed now settles like tar in his stomach, a swirling pit of doubt and unease.
But silence fills the room, and he canβt gather his thoughts quickly enough before she continues.
βI didnβt know you were so worried about this,β she says. βI would have said something earlierβ¦β
He normally isnβt this worried. He normally is fine. The words get stuck in his throat, so he lowers his face and shakes his head.
βNo, Sai, I mean it,β she urges, hands falling to his arm and shoulder. βIf something like that bothers you, please just tell me. I donβt want you to feel like Iβm looking at anyone else, because I'm not. Not now, not ever. Okay?β
And he doesnβt want her to have to tell him any of these things. He doesnβt want to need her reassurance. He just wants these feelings to disappear, or to never have seized him in the first place.
βI donβt know how itβs so easy for you,β he blurts, and her expression crumples for a moment.
βIt-It isn't something special about me,β she says, sniffling into his hair. βIt was just made so much harder for you. And itβs not fair.β
His endurance is fraying. What was once a gentle sap of strength has now become a wide-open valve, all his patience and leniency for himself now circling the drain before getting washed away completely.
He wants to run away from these feelings. He wants to be smothered in them for the rest of the night and after. He wants to close his eyes and be unseen. He wants to hold her and be held by her and he wants her to choose him.
Itβs too much to process, too complicated to unpack while the sun is still up.
For now, the best he can do is wrap his arms around her and hope things will come to pass.
Ino suggested that they make 'a grave' for Shin since he didn't have one. A place where they can visit him anytime and tell him about their days. Sai is really on board with the idea. So together, they make 'a grave' for Shin under the cherry blossom tree. A place where Sai sure Shin would have liked.
thank you so much. but if you want to, would you like to make a saiino fic? maybe coffeshop!AU where Sai is a barista and Ino is the customer there? Or maybe estabilished relationship!saiino and just pure fluff? π Thank you very much.
Thank you so much for your request! Hope you like this!
Title: Just Like This
Summary: On a peaceful afternoon, the Yamanaka family finds comfort in each other and learns that happiness comes in many forms. SaiIno one-shot. Lots of fluff.
Disclaimer: I do not own nor did I create Naruto. This was created solely for entertainment purposes.
Rating: T
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Lying on his back with one arm behind his head, his face was more peaceful than she had ever seen it before. His lips were slightly parted in rest and in his other arm laid a tiny sleeping body, curled up against his fatherβs right side. Watching her husband and son, Ino couldnβt help but melt at the sight.Β
As quietly as she could, the blonde tip-toed to the side of the bed beside her sonβs form. She sat gently, careful not to disturb the tranquil pair as the mattress shifted under her weight. With soft fingers, she reached out to pull the three-year-oldβs thumb out of his mouth, pausing briefly when he stirred in his sleep. She chuckled to herself when her eyes traveled to Inojinβs other hand which tightly clutched a paintbrush, the item much too large in his toddler-sized grasp. He was truly just like his father.Β
When the thought crossed her mind, Inoβs eyes fell upon Saiβs face. His eyes were open now as he tenderly watched his wife and child.Β
βIβm sorry, I didnβt mean to wake you,β Ino whispered, barely audible.
βDonβt worry, beautiful. I was already awake.β His voice came out even quieter than hers as their eyes met.
Even after all these years, the sound of his nickname for her still made her chest flutter in excitement and glee. As the blush formed on her cheeks, she moved to gently caress his face, running her fingers lightly across his brow bone and tracing a line down to his jaw. His left hand that was beneath his head moved to clasp hers. In a smooth motion and with his eyes closed, he brought her palm to his lips, giving it a sweet kiss, before pressing it back to the side of his face.Β
When he opened his dark eyes again, he was met with her light teal ones as they brimmed with tears that threatened to fall. Puzzled, he furrowed his brows and tightened his grip on her hand.Β
βAre youββ he swallowed nervouslyβ βunhappy?β
He couldnβt force his heart rate to slow down as he waited for her reply. After torturous training that forced him to suppress any and all emotion, he still struggled to read it on others. He found it even more difficult with his wife, whose moods presented with much more intensity than he could ever muster.Β
βNo, of course not,β Ino reassured gently, understanding painted across her face. βIβm crying because Iβm happy.βΒ
βPeople cry when theyβre happy?β
βYes, they do.β She softened her gaze on him, a small smile playing on her lips. βEspecially when theyβre really, really happy.β
He smiled at this and released her hand. Shifting slightly on the bed, Sai held out his arm to her, beckoning her to lie down beside him. With a widening grin, she quietly rounded the bed to reach his left side before climbing in and snuggling close to her husbandβs chest. She felt his arm tighten around her body, his palm resting on her waist.
When she settled beside him, he tilted his chin down and planted a slow and tender kiss in her hair. He smiled when the familiar scent of flowers filled his nostrils. He found comfort in the quiet that followed and filled the room, his heart full with the feeling of his family lying in each of his arms.
After several minutes, Ino broke the silence. βYou know, itβs just not fair,β she said with a pout.
He gave her a questioning look but upon realizing that she couldnβt see himβher eyes instead trained on their sonβs sleeping faceβhe added, βWhatβs not fair?β
βI carried this kid inside me for nine months and he comes out looking and acting exactly like you,β she said, feigning annoyance. Truthfully, though, it filled her with joy to see her son resemble his father so much.Β Β Β Β
He chuckled and Ino thought to herself that it was one of the magical sounds she had ever heard. βThatβs not true, he has your hair and your eyes. And heβs great with flowers even though heβs still so young.β
βI guess youβre right.βΒ
Sai could hear the smile in her tone as her voice trailed off. She moved her hand from its position resting on her husbandβs chest to lightly run her fingers through Inojinβs hair, stroking the blond locks that looked just like hers.
Pulling her hand away from her son, Ino closed her eyes as she laid her ear on Saiβs chest, relaxing to the steady sound of his beating heart and breathing out a content sigh. They stayed like that for several minutes, basking in the silent comfort of each otherβs presence.Β
βHow would I know when youβre happy?β Sai asked suddenly.
She propped herself up on her elbows to look at him, their eyes meeting each other.Β
βWhat do you mean?β Her head tilted slightly in confusion as she faced him.
βI mean, itβs confusing because sometimes people cry when theyβre sad but sometimes they also cry when theyβre happy.β His gaze steadied as he studied her features, βHow would I know when youβre happy? What does your face look like?β
Her heart melted into a puddle at his question. With two hands, she cupped his face and forced him to watch her before saying, βMy face looks like this when Iβm happy.β
βReally? Just like this?β His voice was low, almost whispering, as his fingers absentmindedly brushed strands of hair away from her face, tucking them behind her ears. With a tender expression that Sai knows she reserved just for him, she brushed their lips together and smiled brightly.
βYes,β she murmured. βJust like this.β
night time talk
Day 2 "Domestic"
Day 10 "Blank Period"
Day 11 "Power"
Awaken~