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“why would you write fics for small, unpopular fandoms? you’re not gonna reach that many hits in fandoms not many people know about” ?? because I’m not writing fics for hits or kudos, I’m writing them for me because these characters are my blorbos and I have so many ideas, so much thoughts about them that my brain might explode if I don’t write them out.
Me, trying to write some sweet, fluff story with a happy ending to heal my soul: and then they hugged and-
My brain:
reblog if you’ve read fanfictions that are more professional, better written than some actual novels. I’m trying to see something
I have to give props to Chuuya. The fact that this man has canonically lost three whole friend groups (The Sheep through betrayal, the Flags to Verlaine, and those killed by Shibusawa during the Dragon Head Conflict) throughout a 3-year period, then loses his partner (Dazai) and has no idea where he is or if he's alive for 3-4 years...
You have to admire his mental fortitude, because he's relatively well adjusted for how much shit he's been through. (Not even counting his status as a government experiment and his existential crisis on whether he's human or not.)
I have to say it. 'enemies to lovers' started going down the shitter when people began treating it like 'people who kind of annoy each other to lovers' ENEMIES to LOVERS is about if two girls FOR REAL want to KILL each other
So I recently got fully caught up with the JJK anime and am now on chapter 176 of the manga because I was bored. I basically went through a “wow I get it” moment when it comes to why people like this series so much.
While reading though, one thing I found interesting is that Gege-san seems to really like Nietschze. Nihilistic philosophy, especially passive vs active nihilism, comes up a lot in this series. You mainly see it in characters like Geto, Gojo, and very much with Mahito. The meaning of life or “the meaning of the soul” is a common question that comes up, with each character having their own views on the meaning of themselves and their place in life.
I’ve been liveblogging my experiences in a discord server and me and another person have real interesting conversations about how Geto seems to symbolize the passive nihilist, while Gojo is the active nihilist or the absurdist. Mahito is basically a twisted form of active nihilism.
The passive nihilist is a person of resignation, it is described as a person of weak will that views nihilism as the end to life and nothing beyond that. They often fall into violence or herd mentality in a scramble to give themselves some meaning or accept destruction. Nietzsche described it as “pessimistic Buddhism”.
The active nihilist is basically the exact opposite. Through the destruction of the meaning of life, they go in to construct new ones by their own will and ideal. They are free and of strong will and are often opposed to authority figures and find rebellion in their creative meanings of life.
I think this is a pretty good reflection of Geto, Gojo, and Mahito. Geto, who spiraled due to the shattering of his ideals and resorted to despair and destruction to find a new one. He became resigned from world, resigned from others. Gojo’s past ideals were also shattered, but through that he built a new one. He is completely absurd and humorous even in serious times, but he ultimately cares a lot about aiding the future generation and does so by rebelling against the higher ups of Jujutsu Society.
Mahito is an interesting case. His whole character is basically just a philosophical analysis of nihilism and the meaning of life and the soul. He is creature of free will to the most dangerous degree. That, since there is no meaning to life that means one has the free will to control other’s lives, or even take them away. He revels in the despair that he spreads, he fully believes that he has the free will to do so.
Now, the reason why there is probably so much “meaning of life” talk in this manga is because it has a lot of Buddhist imagery, so it’s possibly an analysis in Buddhist philosophy- but I still think that this manga can be viewed through the lens of nihilistic analysis!
I find manga that get philosophical like this so intriguing! I’m excited to continue reading.
opening your writing doc and immediately scrolling back 3 pages like "alright what the fuck is this story about again?"
the rule of fandoms is that if someone has a character in their url or bio they either understand that character well enough to give a 3 hour unscripted lecture on the subject OR they're really obsessed with their version of that character thats an entirely different made up guy. and theres literally never an in between
*sweating, whole body shaking while I stare at a google doc* would he fucking say that????
a comic about fix-it fanfics
「 ✰ Red is my personal fav :- 」
Cocky Boxer x mature trainer
Tired sheriff x criminal who loves the chase
flower shop x tattoo shop
Dumb x dumber
Chubby (insecure about it) x finds it sexy
Hates touch x extreme ocd
Farmer x curious city boy
Too sober x too drunk
Reincarnated dude x lover from past life
Hot electrician x stay at home husband
Tall shy x small big daddy energy
Sylvia Plath girl x Albert Camus guy
Art school student x cocky engineering student
Rich modern artist x renaissance dick rider who hates them
Overly explains the history of ancient artifacts x "I know"
Sir you're not allowed to dress in a chicken mascot here x doesn't stop
Makes literature/book references x the only one who understands them
Avoids paying for meals in restaurants in creative ways x doesn't fall for any of their tricks
Breathes x JSVDJEJWMWNSN
Emo artist x bubbly scientist
Baker x single dad with 2 daughters
Arrogant celebrity x fan who pretends to not care about them (they're losing their mind)
Talkative coffee shop barista x grumpy insomniac who only drinks black coffee
Obnoxious x tolerant
Museum lover x hates museum
Poor asf x has money to burn
Electric guitarist x amateur guitarist
Bulky patient plumber x clumsy himbo
People only like them for their looks x blind
stalker x worse stalker who stalks the stalker
Apologist x why are you apologizing?
Angry villain asking 'who did this?' x hero who's severely injured by another villain
Bad first impression x doesn't let them forget about it
Rude asf x apologizes for them
Depressed x depressed but intellectually dramatic about it (reads Kafka)
Flirty x wants nothing to do with them but falls twice as hard at the end
Author who hangs out at graveyards x a really concerned passerby
lost man x letting lost man sleep in his house
Immortal x a really confused Grim Reaper
Prince who can't sleep x musician who can make them sleepy
Receptionist x highly annoying store repeater
Loves pottery x asks them to help with pottery
Underrated singer x is their Top listener
Librarian x guy who can't read but stays in the library anyway
Overworked student x student who always sleep but scores higher
Friendly gardener x cold businessman but has a soft spot for them
Visits abandoned buildings x coward (they're build like a tank)
"Wait...so you're not a girl?" x "I get that a lot"
Elementary school teacher x accountant who dislikes children (says they're annoying)
Demon who always visits earth x angel who has to drag them back to hell
world renown chef x harsh food critic who dislikes everything the chef cooks (the chef is determined to change this)
Hopeless romantic deity x the most stinky lazy bum to ever exist (the deity adores them)
Overly worried about what others think x fuck it we only live once + do it for the plot
'so there's this book I've been reading...' x 'tell me all about it'
Attention seeker x obsessed with fictional characters (attention seeker is jealous of this)
Loud neighbor hosting parties every week x annoyed neighbor crashing their parties in the most weird ways possible
Spoiled emperor who manipulates everyone with his power to intimidate them x too dense to understand threats
Lazy bum like a koala x nags a lot but finds them endearing
I can't shut up x the only one who can make them willingly shut up with just a glare
"At least I'm being brave about it" x "whatever you say"
Fakes headaches and always sleeps in the school infirmary x class monitor who won't let this slide
Fakes being perfect (really insecure) x knows the secret that they try to hide (they make a deal)
Popular as the Mr. Nice guy (actually two-faced and gets mad easily) x discovers their secret side and confronts them about it (Mr. Nice guy begs them to keep it a secret)
Beyond beautiful model x nerdy photographer
Scary on the outside (actually really soft) x nice on the outside (the one you should actually be scared about)
Soft spoken yoga instructor x easily flustered gym bro
Desperate Journalist x celebrity who loves pranks and disguises
Doctor in a small town x the same patient who keeps getting into trouble
"This particular detail symbolizes the emptiness residing within the frail human mind and the bleak nature of their demise. What do you think?" x "That's a triangle"
Small Streamer x CEO who watches their live streams and donates a lot
Ex-professional wrestler x idiot who challenges anyone to a fist fight at waffle house
Always arguing for some reason x tries to be nice but snaps and argues twice as much (they make out to make up)
Loves sweets x hates them but has a collection of sweets in case they want it
Childhood friend who remembers everything x pretends to not know them but has a deep crush
Dimension traveller who tries to change their lovers fate x their lover that is destined to die during Christmas Eve in every alternate universe
Rock collector x son of a billionaire who would shamelessly pick up rocks from random places to give it to them and gets articles written about his weird behavior
Coworker with no vehicle x coworker with a cool bike and is willing to give them a ride
Goes to the cinema every night, every day to watch horror movies x watches the same movie as they do every night and thinks they're a stalker (the other thinks they're a stalker too but they get along and discuss the movies they watch)
🂱 If you write a fic inspired by them pls tell me the title on Ao3 or Wattpad so I could read it 🂱
i hate when ppl act like the only reason to not like a "sad" ending is because you can't take it or whatever. personally as a tragedy enjoyer, i hate a poorly written ending. i hate an ending that is just kind of a bummer. i hate an ending that feels mean-spirited to the audience. i hate an ending that's redundant. i love a sad ending that is thematically consistent, poignant, and bespoke to the rest of its narrative.
ME NEXT ME NEXT ME NEXT !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
what do you mean i can’t read every book, study every academic subject, taste every food, live in every city in every country, visit every museum, listen to every single song ever produced, learn every language, meet every interesting person, memorize every particle of knowledge to ever exist ???
I wanna give geto some jaw locking sloppy toppy till I lose sight in my right nose🤤
I really think everyone needs to truly internalize this:
Fictional characters are objects.
They are not people. You cannot "objectify" them, because they have no personhood to be deprived of. They have no humanity to be erased. You cannot "disrespect" them, because they are not real.
I love when people get delightedly flustered by compliments. It activates some kind of insane prey drive in me. Today at lunch we had this cute trans server in a well-coordinated outfit and she got so bashful when I complimented it that I immediately became a dachshund of light flirtation and could not physically stop myself from laying it on outrageously thick just to see her begin to lose her composure and turn entirely pink.
*accidentally realizes i’ve been overusing a random phrase a lot* where did this come from. who did this to me
"how foolish..."
“Love never dies of a natural death. It dies because we don’t know how to replenish its source. It dies of blindness, errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds. It dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings, but never of a natural death.”
— Anais Nin
your love for geto suguru is measured in bodies.
skin over muscle over bone, hands on knees, knees on the floor, cold. thirteen corpses, colder. tongue unmoving, eyes closed, blood still. frozen forever in a state of perfect decay.
to curse users, death is family. you know, intimately, the way it feels in your lungs, the way it settles like a fine dark dust at the end of a struggle. the stench sticks to the back of your throat and tells you that you are home.
suguru presses his face into your neck and breathes out.
you did your best, he says. you did so well.
(this is love returned.)
perhaps there was a time when you loved differently, in the way that he wanted, but you are not your past. you are your present, and this is your only gift. and he accepts it, arms wrapped around you like ribs around an unbeating heart.
your love for geto suguru is measured in bodies.
the first one was yours.
“Remember, being yourself is the only way to find out who truly cares and loves you for you.”
— TheGoodVibe
A Burst of Light, Audre Lorde