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Got a haircut—basically got rid of my long hair to start fresh after the traumatizing high school results.

Trying to study amid self-conflicts and doubts. I'm so depressed and worried about my future.

Books that I bought for May. I've already had three of them on my tablet, and since I liked them, I decided to buy their paperbacks. Siddhartha and Kitchen are the ones that I'll be reading for the first time. I bought some stuff from Daiso as well, as there was a sale going on there.

After all the shopping and fulfilling the reason I came to another city — to take the entrance exam — I'm now back at the hotel, drinking green tea to digest all the heavy food that's hard to avoid while traveling. I'm also writing a few things in my pocket diary. After this, I'll study a bit, maybe some English grammar and vocabulary. I have one more test tomorrow.

I've done too much shopping this month. I'm not at home right now, but once I get back, I'll post all my purchases from Crossword (the bookstore), Daiso, and the other stationery stores I've visited so far. I've definitely gone over budget, so it's time I pause this shopping spree. I need to face the fact that I'm not rich. (I'm not broke either, but I'm somewhere on the borderline — which might be the same thing.)

Analyzing past papers to get a sense of what to expect in the entrance exam amid the tensions throughout the nation.

Guys, good news! I got an acceptance letter from a university! I'm so happy. It may not be the best one, but I'm proud that I cleared their entrance exam. I still have many exams ahead of me, and if I qualify those, I could get into a better university or B-school.

Fruits and English grammar

I'm going to study Quant now.

Enough with my depressing thoughts. I decided to make myself a five-ingredient sandwich, and now I'm going to study English. (Maybe studying will distract me from all the pessimistic thoughts and loneliness.)

I messed up really badly. I'm scoring so low on my entrance exam—though the results aren't out yet, I'm sure I won't get into any B-school with these marks. At this rate, all I can hope for is to get into some university. I'm afraid I've ruined my life.

I'm getting very stressed these days because my high school finals results will be declared soon. I know I didn't do well, so I just hope I pass and achieve the required percentage to get into universities. My first entrance exam didn't go well either. I plan to post everything I do — for example, if I finish one or two topics, I'll post about it. Maybe this will satisfy my brain and give it enough dopamine so that I don't procrastinate. Tommorow, I plan to complete Set Theory, Statistics, Sequences and Series, Permutations and Combinations, and maybe Linear Equations as well if I have some time left.

I've made a decent study plan for my upcoming exams, though I'll admit I'm very scared. Also, I've finally decided to add dried snapdragon (flowers) to my commonplace notebook. We'll be moving out in a month, and I'll have to leave this beautiful garden behind as well. I've spent more than twelve years here, so I'm drying some flowers from the garden and placing them at random pages in my notebook.

I've got three more exams to take, and I'm going to try my best in them. I've got some days where I'll be studying for 12+ hours. I can do this! 💪🏻

I had brunch and some evening snacks at Haldiram's.

📍Agra Fort, Agra

These are not very good photos of Agra Fort from the outside. I took them from a moving car, and this is the best I could do.

I left home around 7:30 in the morning and went to Agra to take an exam. B-school entrance exams are held only in a few cities. I came back home around 9:30 PM. I think we should have left a bit later because it wasn’t that far away. I also saw the Agra Fort, but only from the outside because it was extremely hot, and besides, visiting the fort properly takes an entire day. The exam didn’t go as well as I had expected. The Quant section was pretty hard.

All things aside, I hit the jackpot today. I found my digital camera, along with my dad's old geography, biology, and economics books, plus a bunch of maps, diaries, manuals, and language learning guides from Japan. He was going to throw everything away, so I picked out the stuff I want to keep—the rest will be discarded.

Time left for the exam: 2 days

I have three days left before my entrance exam. I didn’t study much today, but I’ll try my best to complete at least one English book.

Thank you so much!!!! I've been so nervous to write again, but this boosted my confidence.

Thank you again! It's such an honor to think that Ovid might have appreciated it.

(I've been smiling so wide my cheeks have started to hurt. I even told my mom about it—this made my day!)

Hello! I'm sorry to bother you with this, but would you mind reading this? I wrote it two years ago and I’ve been thinking about returning to poetry. No pressure at all—you can ignore this if you're busy. I just wanted to ask you because you seem to know a lot about the Greeks.

https://www.tumblr.com/patheticbookaddict/773441961315221504?source=share

Have a good day! 🩵

It's not a bother! I really enjoyed reading this. It felt so vocal, like oral poetry, which is of course very fitting for the ancients. You did an excellent job! Ovid would be proud. And thank you for trusting me with it.

📍The Rangji Temple/Sri Ranganatha Temple, Vrindavan

I just updated my budget and money management log (lol, I don’t earn anything, but I’ve got a decent amount from pocket money), and I overspent this month—all on books. I’ve already bought seven books; I really need to set a limit. Some books are very expensive, but I buy them because I’ve been wanting to read them for a while and they’re low on stock—so, yeah, expensive.

Book Review;

(2.5/5 ⭐)

I think this is a good book. It contains some good poetry, a lot of historical references, and some information about haiku as well. The poem collection is quite vast — it includes haiku about daily life, beautiful moments, and even some that are quite sexual. There’s also poetry on politics. Overall, it’s a decent book, but I think there should have been more haiku. The author/publisher included some unnecessary content toward the end, like the romaji of the Japanese poems — not once, but twice. The book also contains some explicit images, which were historical illustrations drawn in Japan.

The Penguin Book of Haiku

The Penguin Book of Haiku

My current art skills shouldn't be judged based on this—it was drawn almost three years ago, when I was 15.

This turns out to be a Hakata doll, not a Kokeshi. Thank you @kojiiwata for letting me know!!

More info about these dolls that I looked up on the internet;

A Hakata doll is a traditional Japanese clay doll that originated in Fukuoka (formerly known as Hakata), on the island of Kyushu. These dolls are typically hand-crafted and painted, known for their realistic details, soft colors, and serene expressions.

This is the modern version of a kokeshi (こけし) doll. Though they are usually made of wood, the ones used as decorations or souvenirs are often made of clay, ceramic, or other materials.

A textile art piece at my grandparents' house.