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STAR-TB ALREADY AGREED TO LET ME BE THE OFFICIANT BUT FINEE :3

can anyone who doesn’t ship skk please interact with this post i am trying to find my people

IM AROACE

can anyone who doesn’t ship skk please interact with this post i am trying to find my people

CAN I BE THE WEDDING OFFICIANT??

can anyone who doesn’t ship skk please interact with this post i am trying to find my people

Souheki having entire convos in their minds

wydm mayoi hit the 13 mill downloads?-

LETS GOOOOO!!!!

fkoerjgrigjrg- Guys i'll be on the drawing grind for character designs for the bsd bar au, i finally got motivation again ╰(*°▽°*)╯

BSD psych ward AU.....

Okay so I was thinking abt this one of the times I was in the hospital this past year, and when I got home I started writing my ideas down.

Atsushi centric, most likely. I wanna focus on his PTSD/C-PTSD more, as someone who has C-PTSD. I'm also sort of projecting my own experiences from the first time I was in the hospital onto his first (and hopefully only!) time. Here's what I have so far for the characters I want involved as patients:

Atsushi (he/they 15): Admitted for suicide attempt. First time there. Never been treated for any mental health issue. Gets diagnosed PTSD, MDD, GAD. Put on medication.

Dazai (he/him 16): That one kid that's there like once a month. Another suicide attempt. All the nurses and staff know him. He has WAY too many diagnosis at 16 to be ethical or accurate (BPD, ASPD, Bipolar 2, MDD, DpDr, C-PTSD, who knows what else)

Kenji (he/him 14): There for aggression, but super sweet. Diagnosed ED but the hospital doesn't specialize in it so they don't really care. He always asks the staff if they can go outside.

Akutagawa (he/they 15): Been there before, but not nearly as many times as Dazai. Suicide attempt. Still has his chronic illness in this AU.

Chuuya (he/him 16): There for aggression. Gets blackouts. Diagnosed IED and Bipolar 1.

Ranpo (he/him 17): Idek why he's there tbh. When asked he avoids the question or makes some joke. Sneaks extra snacks and juice from the caf in his pockets. Diagnosed ASD and ADHD. Maybe bulimia? i'm unsure.....

Kyoka (she/they 13): There for suicide and self harm. She's really quiet and is usually coloring or sleeping. Says as little as possible to her doctor and therapist. Waiting on her stuffed rabbit to be approved.

Q (they/them 11): That one kid that everyone agrees is too young to be there. There for self harm, suicidal ideation, and homicidal ideation. Seems sweet but also very unstable. Isn't allowed to have a roommate. On a Q10 (has to have a staff member with them at ALL times. In the shower, bathroom, etc. due to self harm in the hospital). They call some staff their "hospital mom". Diagnosed schizoaffective, ADHD, and ASD. One doctor has suggested a BPD diagnosis but they're WAY too young for that to be accurate. They've been a couple of times.

Ivan (he/him 16): There for a manic episode with psychosis. On way too many meds to be ethical. Most staff ignore him at this point. Can't have a roommate.

Sigma (they/she 16): There for depression, frequent panic attacks, and suicidal ideation. Very normal home life actually. One of the few people who doesn't argue with their family or cry on the phone. Diagnosed MDD, GAD, panic disorder, perhaps OCD?

Nikolai (any/all 17): There on a temporary detention order for tresspassing. Clearly unstable. Maybe even manic tbh no one knows what's going on with them. Good at talking to people. Gets bored so he's always trying to make some drama. Idk what his diagnosis are. Maybe BPD, bipolar, something idk

A friend of mine is holding me at gunpoint, threatening me that I can't read their fanfics till I watch Murder Drones to get the full context. So uh, cheers to them lmao bc I binge watched it in an entire night. Cyn and N are my favorites, Uzi fuckin' rocks yo. (I forgot her name but that sassy popular robo-girl was literally the vibe XD)

guys literally the only males she spared from her hate list is Ranpo, Mark (bc of his ability), and Tanizaki (bc of the extreme lengths he'd go to protect Naomi).

I'm gonna fistfight my sister tf, girl just asked me when Tecchou is gonna die docfjrogijrigjti NO he is not dead and he won't die, trust trust trust trust trust trust trust-

Happy Holidays Tumblr.

Happy birthday bgg :33

Introduction Post :3

┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ┊ ˚★ ⋆｡˚ ⋆ ┊ ┊ ┊ ⋆ ┊ ┊ ★⋆ ┊ ◦ ★⋆ ┊ . ˚ ˚★ Heya~ Welcome to the undergrou- ahem I mean Greetings to my blog!

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*Wait a moment. Who is that in the distance?

*Oh, it's just Kyuusaku (from BSD). Don't mind them.(I'm obsessed with them, so I'm going to gush over them a lot in this blog whenever I get the chance.)

*you took 779 damage, imagine being hit by a child XD, at least there was no boosts from other characters or scene cards this time. ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧The name's koku-koku :3 ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ What is my blog about?: ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Drawings ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ ms paint doodles or doodles in general ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ me yapping (idk what you expect) ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ More info about me: ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ My pronouns are she/her/her's and when sometimes referring to myself, I use 'we' oddly enough but dw, I'm only running this zamned blog. ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ I like to randomly joke about arson, cannibalism, and flirting. Do not take that seriously, its just silly thoughts trying to take over my mind. ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ I'm learning how to do gore since I suck at it. I love gore. ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Sadistic urges call to me even though I try to be sympathetic so whoops if you got on the receiving end, mb ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Bsd (undertale, & danganronpa + etc. fan but I'm hyperfixating on bsd) brrrr ✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧ Anything else, just ask :3 (credits to sprite images: bsd mayoi sprite) That is all,

See ya later, alligator~

Well, that’s enough internet for me today.

lol no

ヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉヽ༼ຈل͜ຈ༽ﾉ 

tell the misses, I’m here now.

I DID IT!!!! My Collection of Old Pukicho Posts & Reblogs

guys if i ever do this again im going to kill mys-

his first post was a reblog of this you can find this on page 2182 (go spam it or smth)

i think this was a couple posts above in the same page or the page before puki first post?

i found this reblog hilarious and the page can be seen in the pic bc i was flabbergasted i managed to get this far

personal favorite, i forgot which page this was

this was on page 2181

wait this is pretty wholesome, the way the dogs boops the screen w0eijretijg- (on page 2180)

HJELP XDD (on page 2175)

real. (still on page 2175)

DHIEWTJERUHG IF SURRENDER-IS-STRONGER ACTUALLY PUBLISHED IN IRL (instead of what seems to be the sims) I WOULD BE EVEN HAPPIER (page 2171)

guys we're winners 🥳🥳& not banna peals in Mario cart where we get run over!1!1 so go celebrate ur win! (still page 2171)

this was about zelda wii u (on page 2168)

the only good idea is the poetry one (i'm sorry, im a fucking bookworm) and the babysit one would probably have fights bc teens are moody creatures and its a 50/40 (the other 10 for instant death for :3) if you want to get out unscathed. (on page 2160)

legit my reaction as well xd (page 2159)

my parent's would've hired him on the spot for personal chef (or smth, i forgot what it was called) after hearing his special talent. (page 2157)

SO THATS WHAT IT WAS CALLED?! i saw it once and desperately tried to find it before giving it up and forgeting about it, thank god scrolling down in puki's posts reawakened this im my swish cheese memories (this post is on page 2156)

how does one even achieve this. (page 2153)

cleaning that up would be rlly annoying lol (page 2152)

SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO SONIC ADVENTURE TWO- (page 2150)

DANGANRONPA SPOTTED EJIRJERIJETIJ (page 2149) Kirigiri is so cool :3333333

ima leave this as the ending post lmao (page 2148)

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WHEN U LOVE A CHARACTER/OC BUT CAN’T EVER DRAW THEM THEM CORRECTLY

scrolled long enough on the 2016 dashboard i stumbled upon this

SCROLL BACK UP

I'm glad you like it ^^ and that's so real of you xdd

:stares at you with googly eyes attached to my forehead: heyyyyyy... i did a thing & drew ur oc :3

I tried to do it in the bsd old artstyle before giving up half way bc idk how Harukawa managed to even create such amazing art pieces with such details (〒▽〒)

Oh. My. God...

I LOVE THIS SO MUCHHHH THANK YOU 💕💕💕💕

The way you drew my oc is so cute!! And the owl too???? 🦉🦉🦉💕💕💕💕 thank you so muchhh

And yes, I understand Harukawa's style is so hard to replicate I sometimes just resort to imagining my bsd ocs instead of drawing them 😭

Happy birthday Mushitaro :D

sobbing, the only reason why I knew today was white day is bc of the 50 gay moons bonus/extra for white day.

Where is she 😔

Chapter 121.5 as told by people's reactions from the activity page. Lives were changed

Guys, I made mayoi sprite of my persona/oc in a diff outfit. Did I cook?? (this is a wip btw, I am not finished fixing the rough parts.)

Making animation on paper 'cuz why not

May actually finish it later

Update: making lip sync on paper is torture, so I will not finish this animation

beast dazai is considered a tragic character for all the obvious reasons: carried the weight of the memories of his other selves and using that knowledge to save oda from his fate even if it meant dying/killing himself in the end. This sympathetic narrative allows you to ignore the utter selfishness and immaturity of beast dazai and how he runs away from grief and pain, and I mean this in the best way possible.

The real tragedy of beast is that unlike all the other dazais, beast dazai never got the chance to meet and know oda, thence allowing him a new perspective to grow. In The day I picked up Dazai , dazai shows personal growth by the end of the novel, hence why he respects oda a lot. He is treated as a human being who still doesn't know much, and that brings comfort to someone deemed a demon prodigy. In side b of the same novel, beast dazai makes an effort to not know or bond with oda; yes this is because he wanted to ensure his survival by steering him away from the port mafia, but that event is what fundamentally changed dazai- gave him a better understanding of his own humanity.

Despite having all that knowledge of his other selves, of how each universe's timeline will play out, beast dazai didn't seem to grasp that it is grief that allowed the other dazai to grow and be a better person. He didn't understand that in the end, it is the time he (the other dazai) spent with oda that made living worthwhile, not his life. His state of living, the state of perfection in beast dazai's eyes, will still cause him more suffering than the act of losing a good friend.

Because if he had only wanted him to live, then he wouldn't have been so shocked when oda refused to indulge in a friendly conversation, not when he clearly went out of his way to antagonize himself in oda's eyes in tdipud. It's because the realization hit him: he wanted his time with oda to not be cut short.

Having memories of another oda is clearly not enough, he needed his own intimate friendship with his own oda. But with this elaborate plan and his reaction to being rejected, it's clear that beast dazai was trying to avoid pain. He could not accept the grief and pain of loss that he's seen and felt in his other selves, ignoring what came after: growth and satisfaction of ever having oda in their lives at all.

Pain is inherently human and by ignoring and rejecting it, beast dazai rejects his own humanity. Or runs away from it, because it catches up to him regardless. He still ignores it throughout the rest of the story, especially in other characters.

Beast dazai, as we all know, eventually takes his own life. While there is a reason as to why he did it, but it was still part of his plan from the beginning. Meaning, he knew this near fruitless pursuit would still have him unable to handle grief. It's an inherently selfish goal with an inherently selfish way out under the guise of "leaving the rest in atsushi and akutagawa's hands"

(Note: I do not mean in any way that suicide is selfish, but rather the narrative and character of dazai in beast alludes to this. Both concepts can co-exist in a fictional setting)

Despite seemingly helping other characters, beast dazai also trampled on both akutagawa and atsushi's self worth. This made them easier to manipulate for his grand plan, but ignores the damage he's done to them and other characters after his death.

For akutagawa it is the loss of his sister and convincing him of his monstrosity due to Dazai's meddling. For atsushi, someone he conditioned into severe fear and dependency on him, was left alone watching the person he cared so much for fall from the building. And yes, he left him in mori's care afterwards, but dazai should know more than anyone the damage the death of a loved one has, unless it doesn't apply to him.

In the epilogue, mori openly mourns dazai's death along with atsushi. Due to being free of his rigid responsibility as the pm boss, he had the liberty of finally being the caretaker he's always wanted to be but at the cost of the person he considered his son (in comparing dazai to atsushi, who he then calls his son + all the other stances where mori treated dazai like a son etc)

The thing that beast dazai, or dazai in general, tends to not fully understand or accept, is that he is also loved, and his death will cause others pain as well. I am by no means saying he should've thought of others before dying, but it is the lives of others that dazai from the main manga also cherishes after oda's death. Beast dazai made it his entire life goal to essentially protect oda, realize its not the only thing he's wanted from him and gave his raison d'etre a flimsy excuse of meaning in life. It's inherently selfish.

Selfishness is a common theme in bsd, and beast dazai fits right in. Atsushi's selfish desire to save people to give himself a justification to be alive, Sigma's inherently selfish nature of self preservation and identity and so on.

I've probably ranted for much longer than anticipated, but the point is: beast dazai's purpose is a selfish desire to escape pain and loss when it's crucial to the human experience. Dazai in the main manga seems to grasp this much better than beast dazai, it's something the latter is "missing", refusing to grow out of his selfishness and it makes his character more of a cautionary tale.

I love my pooks, very relatable person to be with and similar music taste, who also has a very very horrible sleep schedule fnrfjriiejewiofo what if they were me but in a different timeline. it's impossible to relate to someone so hard, they must be an au of me or I'm an au of them

I've come to like talking on tumblr again. It doesnt interrupt me like twitter does

10/10 website, I get to pet Q.