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So, you are telling me… that people don’t like anatomy? Since when?- It’s the most logical science of the human body yet!!

I always have a hard time depicting the various layers of back muscles under the skin, so I made this as a study/reference.

The funniest part about the House MD Fandom is that I've never seen a single incorrect take. Somehow every single ridiculous thing people have to say about House MD is 100% correct. Those ridiculous posts about House finding toothpicks in people's assholes? Actually happened in an episode. Some guy had bacterial vaginosis in his mouth. House himself actively says homophobic things constantly - just to piss people off, not even because it's what he actually believes - but will come home drunk and sleep in Wilson's bed and Wilson just LETS HIM DO THAT?? Nothing House says should be taken seriously unless he's giving you a diagnoses because the only person he's advocating for besides the patient is The Devil. Cuddy only wears thongs. There's a bi disaster doctor in a wheelchair at one point. 13 is just there being hot and bi for seasons. Chase is just there being hot and saying "naur". Foreman is there wishing he could punch House in the face and Chase actually DOES it at some point. Cameron makes out with House in order to drug him. NO ONE in this show is okay and they're all committing medical malpractice constantly in front of an international audience

“Average doctor commits 10 crimes a year” factoid actually just a statistical error. Average doctor commits 0 crimes per year. Crimes Gregory, who hates his supervisors and commits 27 crimes each shift, is an outlier adn should not have been counted.

Zaun vik and Jayce

I was reading the Arcane “council archives” of Jayce’s journal and that man is never beating the ADHD allegations.

He talks a lot about science but scattered amongst his research is.

Lamenting how he left his measuring equipment in his apartment after traveling to the dessert.

Him workshopping insults to call another student who almost caught him throwing out an illegal experiment.

Jayce figuring out his grades were probably dropping because he wasn’t sleeping and he decides he wanted to graph the correlation instead of sleeping or studying.

Ranting about the how the pastries are better than the inventions at the Day of Progress celebration.

A pros and cons list about continuing his experiments that included the fact that he’s failing his classes instead of doing anything about it.

Writing himself a reminder to ask Viktor his last name.

Also he has yet another random ass sandwich on his desk.

Also bonus: He didn’t think he’d work well with other scientists at all before he met Viktor.

I vouch for Sammy a lot because so many people misunderstand him, but I will say that the most frustrating thing about his character in season 4 is he keeps. leaving. Dean.

He left Dean the same night he learned he was alive to go find Ruby. He left Dean when he was being attacked by the witches/demons because vengeance was more important than being with his brother (regardless of Sam actually getting to kill the monster). He left him after he fucking choked Dean out, to go find Ruby/get a lead that ended up being a ploy. Dean is dysfunctional so of course that’s not the reason he’s done with Sammy, but it would be enough for me if I was him. How do you claim to love your brother and then you leave him more than once? Of course Sammy loves Dean, but his love for his brother fell to the wayside for “more” but actually less important things. You best believe if my brother was dead for four months and came back to life from hell I’m never leaving his side again, he’d have to beat me with a stick to get me away.

This is why Dean says he can’t trust Sam. Because he can’t. Because his life was in his hands multiple times and Sam chose something else every time. Sammy fucked up royally and there’s no easy fix for it.

ummm random style change (i'll be switching) anyway angst art of the 'boy with the demon blood'

collecting usages of “bitch” and such and now i’m crying

s1 writers: if there are 2 things you must know about sam winchester they are that he makes a lot of BITCHFACES and he does them WELL

Think about Sammy and he's five years old and he says "Spicy water!" when the waitress at the diner asks what he wants to drink. And she laughs and looks at John for an explanation but he doesn't have one and can't bring himself to admit that his nine year old is the one who usually takes care of the kid.

She brings a seltzer water and Sammy takes a sip and makes a face, because it's not the spicy water but the fizz is good too and he loudly declares that to the waitress. She smiles and gives the family a free slice of pie because the kids are so cute.

Later that night, back at the motel, John sees Dean pouring holy water into Sam's sippy cup and saying "you can't tell Dad that the water's spicy" and his heart shatters all over again.

my take on the whole "dean was parentified" narrative and where that slippery slope usually takes people ("sam was spoiled as a kid and dean shielded him from all harm") is that many people can't comprehend that dean was in fact parentified, but that doesn't mean he was sam's father. sam had a father, and it was john.

nor does it mean sam was spoiled or babied by either of them. canon doesn't support this interpretation despite it being so popular in the fandom.

dean was parentified in the sense that he had responsibilies and stressors that weren't appropriate for his age and his role as a son... but that doesn't change the fact that his relationship with sam was that of a brother, not a parent.

at one point dean says "I had to be more than just a brother. I had to be a father, and I had to be a mother." and his feelings of overwhelm and resentment are valid—their childhoods were difficult, stressful, and abnormal.

however, this doesn't mean "john was absolutely useless and neglectful, so he was completely out of the picture. dean was indeed sam's father and mother. and he fulfilled those roles so well that sam had a happy, easy childhood and he was freed from any parent-related trauma, since dean was his parent, and he did a stellar job at it"... you know?

parentified siblings are siblings after all (and sam and dean only have a 4-year age gap). and dean did "fail" in his parentified role—sometimes he fucked up, sometimes he was the one hurting sam. in many ways, he didn't understand sam's needs or how to fulfill them. which is understandable. and he definitely couldn't shield sam from the difficulties they both had to face. that was well beyond his capability after all

on top of that, sam was taught self-reliance from a young age and he was exposed to the hardships of their lifestyle just like dean (hardships in general since he was born, and hunter-related ones since he was eight). and most of the glimpses we get of sam as a child/teen show a lonely, sad, troubled person. where's the pampered and unconcerned child!sam people keep hallucinating?

deep down, the issue is that people seem to put sam and dean on a seesaw and weight their problems and traumas against each other. if we say sam had a shitty childhood, then we're somehow denying dean's traumas and sacrifices. and if we believe dean suffered a lot in his youth, then that must mean sam had everything served on a silver platter. and that makes no sense.

On Friendship.

Now when we were there I saw a patient, an old woman.

dean’s discipline abuse towards sam

(part of a larger pilot - sacrifice edit but thought i’d post this ‘physical’ compilation now)

"What are you doing?"

"Wrapping Sammy's Christmas present."

Cas admires all the wrapping material spread out on the table. "You're putting a wrapped box inside another wrapped box?"

Dean smiles and nods. "Uh huh. And inside that box is another box, which has another box, which has another box, which has his present."

"I don't understand. Won't Sam be mad opening so many boxes? What is the pleasure here?"

"The pleasure is for me."

"What's the present?"

"Starbucks gift card."

"You're going back to Hell."

this is the Most Important Thing to me

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i know there’s a “who is the monster and who is the man?” hunchback of supernatural edit out there

he's on an iced coffee break

some jared line deliveries that stuck in my head during rewatch

a customer today looked at me, said “y’know? i think you’ll appreciate this,” and pulled his shirt down to show me his supernatural tattoo. calling me a slur would’ve been easier

hi so what qualities do you think dean admires about sam and vice versa would like to know your thoughts

Love your meta btw as a new spn fan

Hi Nonny, tysm for the ask!

I haven't thought a ton about this question prior to now, so I'm interested in other people's opinions too if they want to add them on reblog. But it seems to me that the 'what does Dean admire about Sam' half of the question is pretty easily answered, because Dean isn't shy with his praise of Sam in canon.

He's also not shy with his criticism, of course, and I think this is because some of the things he admires most about Sam are the same things that are dangerous to him personally. My favorite recap is in the finale:

And there's this from 15.11:

Dean says similar things in other episodes, going way back to 1.11, which the finale speech is practically a word for word recap of:

I think Dean legitimately believes all this; that Sam is better than him in practically every way-- smarter, more compassionate, more optimistic, possessed of a better moral compass (usually), more skilled in a variety of ways, etc. And especially that Sam is healthier than him; more of a complete, autonomous human being who would be fully able to live a "normal" life if circumstances were right, whereas he, Dean, would not be. By "you're stronger than me" (which he also tells Sam before he goes to Hell in s3) he means "capable of independence".

I have decidedly ambivalent feelings about the "Dean is Sam's Parent" reading of spn, but I do think this is a very parental type of admiration; both because of the 'I'm proud' piece and because 'I raised you to be able to outlive me' is maybe a parent's primary responsibility second only to unconditional love. And I think it's realistic and sympathetic that Dean admires these traits in Sam while simultaneously fighting tooth and nail to undermine Sam ever actually becoming fully independent as long as Dean's alive (and until the finale, even afterwards). "You're better than me; don't leave me" is honestly extremely relatable.

R.e. the 'what does Sam admire in Dean' part of the question, I think that's more complicated to explain, and I'm especially interested in what other fans think about this part. I think obviously if someone asked Sam what he admires in Dean, he'd be able to run off a list of traits. And he does sometimes mention traits he finds admirable in Dean, like in 8.14 where he says "You're not a grunt, Dean. You're a genius" and says Dean is a better hunter than either himself or their father.

But for the core of what I think Sam feels about Dean that's in the same, idk, synonym group ig, as 'admiration', I don't think 'admires' really covers it very well. It's almost more like worships. He thinks, quite simply, that Dean is good. And since he thinks that he, Sam, is fundamentally not good, he sees Dean as the final arbiter of, well, everything. Sam thinks Sam could never go on a quest like Galahad, but although it's never specifically mentioned, I think its pretty clear he believes Dean could.

I think Sam feels about Dean the way I think deeply religious people--not the kind that mouth platitudes but the kind that have really struggled with and thought long and hard about their faith--feel about God. He knows Dean makes mistakes, he knows Dean is deeply fucked up in many ways, he yells at and argues with Dean and goes behind Dean's back and lies to him and etc, all because he does truly understand that Dean's decisions are, on a practical level, sometimes honestly pretty messed up. But he also has an unshakable faith that where he, Sam, might make bad choices because he's bad, Dean will struggle but ultimately always eventually choose correctly, even if one of the steps along the way is chopping Sam's head off with Death's scythe. Because Dean is good. Sam fans (myself included) will look back on the panic room and think "wow Dean sure was living up to the family-is-hell premise on that one", but Sam will look back on it and think "he saved me".

having worked with kids that age, the hate actually breaks my heart. because have you ever met a 3 year old? they’re temperamental and can be difficult to manage but they have the biggest hearts and care so much. they make so many mistakes because they’re so new. and with jack, it’s like, of course he had an emotional blowup, he’s (essentially) a toddler. they don’t have the experience to develop emotional regulation or read social cues, they just don’t have the experience. in my eyes jack can do no wrong, not because all of the things he does are good but because he’s a toddler.

y'all literally, i cannot tolerate any jack hate At All

silly!!!