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miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss

you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I

miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss

you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I

miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss

you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I

miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss

you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I

miss you I miss you I miss you I miss you I miss

you I miss you I miss you I miss you I I need you

i just wish i could explain how fucking low this low feels

Until you live with bpd you'll never know what it's like to be too much and not enough at the same time.