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by David Drake

The Blue Room (2014)

“I am not lucky. You know what I am? I am smart. I am talented. I take advantage of the opportunities that come my way, and I work really, really hard. Don’t call me lucky. Call me a badass.”

— Shonda Rimes

Be selfish with your time. A lot of people don’t deserve it.

sexually attracted to good conversations and great music taste

“If you can’t do anything about it then let it go. Don’t be a prisoner to things you can’t change.”

— Tony Gaskins

I’m tired of fighting. This battle has gone on too long and I have grown tired and weary. These nights I spend alone, not a friend in sight. I isolate & when I disassociate, I wake up in my own blood. I drown myself in alcohol so I don’t have to feel my feelings & when I feel nothing I drink to feel something. it’s a fucked up paradox, but here I am. I can feel the end. I’m scared. I reached out to professionals but they don’t believe me. My own best friend deserted me with no explanation when they promised they’d be here through thick and thin. I’m tired of being me. I’ve changed, I’ve done better, but at the end of the day I still feel so fucking empty and lost. I feel like I can’t go on, but I push through. I’ve never hated myself so much in my life, and I just want peace.

You were suspicious of their feelings because you had no reason to love yourself—not your body, not your mind. You rejected so much gentleness. What were you looking for?

Carmen Maria Machado, from In the Dream House: A Memoir

Bless the Daughter Raised by a Voice in Her Head, Warsan Shire

So long ago, I don’t remember.

𝙰𝚞𝚐𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝟽, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝙳𝚒𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝙾𝚏 𝙵𝚛𝚊𝚗𝚣 𝙺𝚊𝚏𝚔𝚊, 𝟷𝟿𝟷𝟺-𝟷𝟿𝟸𝟹

[ID: Sleep seems impossible. END ID]

Katherine Larson, from Radial Symmetry; “Lake of little birds”

[Text ID: “Quietness that’s solitude / but not isolation.”]

― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath

[text ID: It is awful to want to go away and to want to go nowhere.]

Katherine Larson, from Radial Symmetry; “Gardens in Tunisia”

[Text ID: “There are days that walk through me / and I cannot hold them.”]

“The only thing that I regret so far in my life is the many times I looked past you, the times I only saw you as friend and not as someone who could make me unbelievably happy.”

— Unknown

“There are times when the kindness of strangers only makes things worse because one realizes how badly one is in need of kindness and that the only source is a stranger.”

— Nicole Krauss