Youre Weirdly Obsessed With Finding Meaning

why are u here

to witness everything with all of you

google search how to stop experiencing anticipatory grief when this world has taken so much from me already

sevika putting her cigs out on u pls pls

the acridity scent of sevika's cigarettes fills the bedroom air, still stuffy and foggy with sex and sweat from your previous activities with your girlfriend.

sevika's head rests on your stomach as she smokes, her other free hand resting over your ribs, her thumb rubbing your skin. you had tired eachother out, as usual.

your body was already starting to bruise from her rough hands, marking your skin just how she liked. but maybe that wasn't enough— bruises and bite marks would heal eventually, no matter how hard she went.

she blows her smoke out, her nose brushing against your stomach as she presses a kiss to your navel, twirling her cigarette around between her fingers as she conjures up a plan she knew damn well would piss you off.

you sigh in content, oblivious to what she was planning and sliding your hand through her hair, keeping it out of her face.

sevika brings her cigarette down, kissing another spot on your stomach to distract you before pressing the lit tip of the cig against your skin, twisting it a little.

a yelp of surprise and pain escapes your mouth as a seething, burning pain shoots through you. you squirm away and try escape from it, but her bionic arm presses down on your stomach, holding you in place as she watches your skin burn and sizzle with a sick fascination.

she pulls away after only a few seconds as you start crying in pain. she rolls her eyes, flicking the now stubbed out cigarette onto the bedside table. she leans down and blows cool air on the burn, both soothing it and making it sting.

you hiss and shove her head off you, sitting up and looking down at the burn on your abdomen. "what the fuck?" you whine, tears slipping down your face as you wince.

sevika smirks a little wickedly, sitting up and stretching her arms, her muscles flexing. if you weren't so distraught, youd of probably jumped her bones at the sight.

"god, you're such a damn baby."

the true girlhood experience (fighting the urge to fall to your knees in the middle of a grocery shopping aisle because of a sudden wave of grief that hit you out of nowhere)

“no one will notice if you stop posting/talking/texting/etc” is the mind killer. it is the evil. it is the little childhood version of myself who feels so insignificant and unwanted but she IS wanted. I am wanted and loved and noticed even if I can’t see it right now

you never know what someone is going through. for instance i didnt know i was going through anything until about 2 years later. i thought i was just chilling

i feel like we should be taking advantage of this website in more useful ways like it shouldnt be jarring to anyone when i post my grocery list we literally have a bulleted list function

he's just so fucking hot and magnificent,, like–

😍😍 no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponent al, logarithmic, while i gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cow girl, doggy, backwards, forwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the ool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick thribbing, first clenching, ear rining, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling. teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy, moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious, gushy, creamy, beastly, lip bitting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, cant walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail stractching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tangos, he could put a nuclear bomb inside me and i'd still ride.

think it's def obvious how much I love this man

I’m gonna bust.