Latest Posts by meryachkins - Page 5

i finished the project ... and started taking armenian classes at thursday and learned how to say “my name is mary” ( իմ անունը Մերին ը ) and “i'm mary” ( ես Մերին եմ ) aaand now i know 20 letters ! officially though. actually i know something about 25 letters hehe i was trying to learn something when i was in yerevan and i still remember a little

i will be unstoppable once i learn armenian.

the only thing i live for now is 1000 yo series /srs ( cuz i kinda hate everything i'm doing at the uni rn ....... i still don't know why i got such a high mark as 9 out of 10 at the intermediate preview of our projects ........ )

the alien vampire show isn’t really about aliens and vampires. it’s about soup, actually

university is killing me i want to do nothing but i need to do So Much various 3d shit in blender that it's easier to die than do all this

i want to quit uni So much you can't imagine

um. i played 20 hours in baldur's gate 3 and um. i'm still on first act ) cause i'm spending my time on collecting herbs and mushrooms in forest ..............

SO i'm home !!!! for like 4 days or so and

1) the exam was not really cool :( i imagine the commisson didn't really like my project LIKE yes everyone said that it's cool that i made a concept of a game about my culture and my style is pretty and every armenian thing on it's place in every location and armenianness of everything is kinda subtile in a good way but based on the way they spoke i guess it's not good gamewise :( like mechanics are not tied together that good and trailer doesn't show a lot of things that presentation do ... idk i'm kinda sad but also happy cause you know. at least they appreciated how much of my love for armenia i put into this game And . and my curators still love this game so ! it's okay i'm just learning

2) i played almost 10 hours ( for 2 days )))) at another visual novel ... it's called a date with death AND IT'S FANTASTIC and kinda wholesome :((( i love it and i love casper ((((((

3) i got sick for 3rd time in 2 month 😭😭😭😭😭😭 honestly i'm just tired to be always sick i hate my imunity

4) father still a dick but at least he's not angry at me i hope this isn't going to change

and i'm a little worried cause i don't know what's going on at home .......... i just want a normal holidays and to spent time with my family :((((( i really hope that dad won't be a dick this time

okay but i almost made my second project for uni consisting of a) presentation b) trailer with imitation of gameplay for 2d game about *drumroll* ARMENIAN RADIO ... and my curators ( aka teachers ) Love it I'M VERY HAPPY cause i'm doing project about my culture And i really like this concept And i got TEN OUT OF TEN !!!! at the intermediate preview of our projects i'm just kinda tired And want to be at home :(

i've got an ipad and now i'm drawing and writing ( concept docs for uni but anyways ) 24/7 i'm so happy :(((( finally i can do art everywhere and every time i want

"Who Remembers the Armenians?" by Palestinian poet Najwan Darwish / "Who Remembers the Palestinians?" by Armenian writer Sophia Armen

adobe illustrator is the worst fucking thing on earth i hate this horrendous programm so much i hate it even more than math and i hate math just like damien from monster prom aka i'm want to stab math. imagine what i want to do to adobe fucking illustrator :)))))))

damn i kinda hate the fact that i'm having a crush when i Really need to study but at least i have a crush on a good person unlike last um. three times. out of five. )))))))))))

Happy family

if i had a nickel for every time i helped an asian girl in the dorm i'd have three nickels which isn't a lot but it's weird that it happened thrice ...

crowley in the 80s

I LOVE MY CLASS AT THE UNIVERSITY 😭😭😭😭 one guy was born on the same days as me and in the same year as me we're basically Twins lmao And the other guy drank 4,5 half liter glasses of beer in 3 hours ( i'm amazed . ) And all the girl are SOSO nice and pretty i'm just. speechless. they're stunning. AND OUR MENTORS !!!!! the best trio in the hse. and now i'm Very VERY excited for my classes about game development and design (((( i feel like all my suffering is now rewarded and i'm in the flow of the universe lmao

dorm i'm going to live in is Really shitty i'm gonna cry now

but you know at least i'm going to live in moscow ......

haha my family is falling apart cool

it was the best navasard in my life !!!*!(##) mostly cuz i've celebrated it twice in my life lmao but i mean. i ate ✨ scrumptious ✨ food which i cooked myself and drank a lil' bottle of pomegranate juice ( i wish it was wine but i can't drink alcohol today ) and ate a whole pomegranate by myself And i just. sometimes even a small things like delicious food or favorite juice can be enough to cover the grievances that have accumulated today . and sometimes it makes me love living&being even more than i usually do

actually i watched good omens a couple of days ago And im not okay. this show is so-so comforting and light and funny ( despite the last episode 💀 it made me cry a little and think about my beef with romantic relathionships and this kind of stuff A Lot but it's okay though i kinda needed it ) and and and idk (((( it's just made me feel a lot better cuz u know . all this admission shit and the fact ( which i unsuccessfully try ignore btw ) that my silly little kinda peaceful life will absolutely change in few weeks and my new life is going to be Very stirring and cool yet kinda disturbing and restless it's um. making me feel like a wet pathetic kitten who was just trying to drink its milk but end up with its muzzle in the bowl and there's no kind and caring human around to help it

So Yeah. this stupid ( /affectionate ) show really make me feel like it's okay to be smol wet pathetic kitten and be upset about life going too fast . doesn't really know why about this specifically but who cares

so. I got my new sketchbook, which I ordered a few days ago and which my friends bought me because, honestly, i didn't have any money(😭)

it's bigger than my previous one and much more convenient. my heart and brain told me that the first thing i need to draw it's hobie brown because actually i'm obsessed with him.

don't know how well this drawing is but i liked the process.

aaaaand also i've been playing a lot of death stranding recently .......... aaaaaaaand i'm obsessed with higgs .................... he's just like sergei razumovsky from major grom But more stupid /affectionate aaaaaaand i love him. he's still a bastard though

hi hello barevdzes i entered hse aka higher school of economics aka Very Cool University and i still barely can believe it i'm gonna live in moscow <3 and i'm gonna study at hse <33 sounds like a fever dream

omg i finally finished my project for the university admission And next week i'll take entrance exams to other universities And eventually after jule 24th i'll be free from all of This

and. um. i have 56.4 hours in steam considering the fact that i'm going to academic drawing classes And doing my project for an university at the same time. that's ... quite a lot tbh and hooonestly i need to stop playing This much

so i played baxter's dlc and Um. obviously he need to go to therapy. and now me too cuz Damn this drawn monochrome dude just awakened all my traumas related to romantic relathionships and i can't even bite him for it cuz. well. he's drawn. this game surely is driving me crazy

life is so weird nowadays