I Want To Melt Your Layers Of Snow

Fantasy

Over there, a mountain side

billowing over a timeless pride

a valley, full of wisps and sighs

each flower an ear

each leaf an eye

.

The sun does not set here

forever, the full moon bright and sheer

will expel the living of their fear

the light-filled twins

share a darkened sky

.

I sat down amongst it all

my mind swaying, a graceful fall

settled within this imagined world

my head a blur

my heart a whirl

Jules Laforgue, tr. by William Jay Smith, from “Complaint on Oblivion of the Dead,”

It’s quite nice to spend a while dancing through time

suspended in its ticking hours and days 

forever a breath away from endless moments

I was diagnosed with dyspraxia. A lot of people know it as the “clumsy disorder” but it’s a lot more and I think it has a lot to do with my speech.

It’s more then just the “clumsy disorder”. I’m more then clumsy. I have weak core muscles, I’m weak, I’m uncoordinated, I’m constantly running into things, I can’t grip a fork right, I spill food and get it all over myself

Yes, I’m clumsy, I drop things, spill things, etc. But it’s more then that. It affects me greatly and I think when people mark it just as “being clumsy” they are undermining a disorder that affects people greatly.

With my speech, I talk in a monotone, which is easier for me. I talk in simplified language and don’t use big words. I slur and stutter my words aswell,

I just realized this when I was talking about dyspraxia and I thought it’d be important to discuss.

There is nothing more hopeful than the delicate touch of rain amongst a thunderstorm of clouds.

Fallen angels are only humans in disguise, reincarnated to follow a new purpose - heal others in order to heal yourself.

let me stay,

dancing like fae among flowers

lost to the breeze

and summer sun-showers

Aleksey Tolstoy, from “It chanced”; A Book of Russian Verse (ed. by Cecil Bowra)

everything just really comes down to how I wasn't a person for most of my life. by which I mean I did not consider myself a person. it made such a profound impact on the way I navigated the world & yet standing on the other side of it I could hardly explain it to you

“Accept how you feel but don’t let feelings rule you. You are in control. You are not their slave.”

— Unknown