Nicoledavisss - Wistful Thinking

You would think that I would feel better since we've been broken up for over a month now, but in reality I've gotten worse. Each day that goes by stabs me with the pain of everything that happened. I wish I could change your mind and make you happy again. I miss you more and each day. I'm so happy that we still talk, but you say there's no chance of us getting back together but deep down inside I feel like that is a lie. I feel like there still is a chance. Please God, why me? Why did this have to happen? Why can't you help me fix everything? I wish I had a time machine, or that God would give me a miracle and everything would go back to how it was when we were both happy with each other. I'm still praying that time will bring us back together and you'll see that we were meant to be together. I've changed so much, and I hope you see that.

Sometimes,

I wish I could go back to being a kid. When I was a kid, life was so easy. No worries about money, not having my heart broken into a million pieces, the newest technologies or getting a licence. All I wanted to do was hang out with my friends, play outside, play video games, and crush on celebrities. I hate that I had to grow up just to work a shitty job for shitty pay to try and make ends meet, to deal with stress on a daily basis, to deal with my heart being broken so many times, and to lose the people who were very close to me. But, I keep my head up and work through them because I have a lot to live for and I’m not gonna waste myself away stressing out about stupid crap. My family, my close friends and my boyfriend are all that matter to me and they are the ones who keep me sane in this place I call hell.

By terrifoss

& Tonight;

All I can think about is you. I miss you terribly. I wish I got to see you tonight. It would have put my mind at ease. God, why can't I be happy like I was when we were together? You're my rock, my world, my everything. I don't know where I'd be without you. I want you to know that you mean the world to me, never forget that. I feel like I'm in a dream and I'll wake up any minute and you'll be right by my side telling me that you love me and everything is okay. As for now, I guess I'm forced to live in this hell of emotionless heartbreak. Please, wake me up soon, I don't wanna live in this hell anymore. I want you to know that if I ever decide to leave this world, I hope you'll be right there by my side telling me that everything is going to get better. I hope you can save me like you've done before. As for now, I shall try to sleep. Goodnight my sweet prince. I love you so much. I hope you come back. I don't know how much longer I can live like this.