ninianofthelake
She/Her Ice Dragonkin❄️ 26 y/o, minors dni
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Oh fuck I haven't been posting my 30 days challenge... I'LL GET BACK TO IT SOON I PROMMY
Any creatures that would like to be pat, please reblog this post
Sorry about the rant I'm just SO sick of this "we have to be on all the time never look away if you aren't upset about politics and traumatizing yourself watching people die on Twitter you're wrong and complicit and evil" like I know things are fucked and we need to stay angry but we can do that while also taking a minute to crack open a cold one with the boys or have gay sex or get tipsy at the line dance, we HAVE to have joy to remember why the fuck we're refusing to give up in the first place. Fight like hell for your loved ones and then also go home with them to smoke weed and drink sweet tea and make biscuits covered in honey and butter please, please don't deprive yourself of joy, you're allowed to be happy BEFORE the work is done. You're allowed to be happy.
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 14
DAY 14: if given a cellphone, what would your kintype do with it
I would use it to doomscroll tumblr to find cute dragon art to like, apparently. But it'd also be really useful to have a phone with google maps open while I'm flying around so I know where I'm headed. And imagine the photos I could take with it up there!
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 13
DAY 13: hey, how's it going
Honestly, fucking amazing right now. Today was great. I ran until my lungs nearly gave out, and caught my second wind. I think this is what they call a runner's high? I could literally feel the wind under my wings. Gliding across my scales. It was breathtaking.
ok this wasnt very unhinged but im happy rn ok
Fuck I should probably post some of my art here shouldn't I...
I'll do it tomorrow I need sleep ... curls up on treasure hoard
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 12
DAY 12: what website is your kintype most like?
netflix cuz I'm chill get it its cuz im an ice dragon and netflix and chill
vätskorna
Had to go on an investigation to find out wtf this meant
Apparently I'm The Liquids™️
I imagine some trans person or enby changing their name like.
-> Goes to Wiktionary.org -> Clicks "Random entry" -> My name is now ጭምብል
shh, little thing. how long have you been pretending to be human?
stop that. the beast inside you is cooped up and wants out. don’t deny what you are. we both know it even if you don’t want to admit it to yourself yet.
i can tell. i can see how you look at your hands and flex your fingers, and how you walk around on your toes with your legs close together so your hips sway like they would if you had a tail. i know those feelings - the crushing feeling that something just isn’t there. i felt that too once.
stop hiding from it. embrace it. you were made to spit fire and smoke and rip your enemies in half. creatures like us were never meant for office work or traffic jams or taxes. give in to the dragon inside you. let it out.
build a nest. drop to all fours. sharpen your claws. tear apart the knights who come to slay you in your teeth. shed your soft, delicate human skin in exchange for sleek, glossy scales too strong to be sliced by any blade. feel your back split open as your bones move and your folded wing-limbs emerge and breathe for the first time.
unfurl your wings and feel the sun on them.
fly.
Reblog this if its okay for your followers to introduce themselves to you.
Just come to my ask box and tell me stuff about yourself. Your pets. Your favorite music. What you had for breakfast this morning. Literally anything you want, I love making new friends
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAYS 10-11
DAY 10: describe the vegetation around your kintype's feet
Frozen. Are there even plants down there? They've probably been buried in snow for so long they died, if there were any. I'd love to go somewhere tropical though.
Day 11: what's the most specific or unusual shift (if you experience them) you've experienced
Snout shifts! It feels fucking WEIRD. It makes me want to lift up my upper lip as if I were baring my fangs. It happened right in front of my sister and it took all of my willpower to hold myself back from doing that. It also makes my nose itch a lot. But I also have CONSTANT wing shifts. They never go away, only become somewhat fainter every now and then.
Had a bit of kin euphoria yesterday, and it was about something that I don't think most people would think is related to otherkin stuff.
Context— for the past few months, I've been running. One mile a day, four days per week. It started off being fucking painful and draining and awful. Took around 17 minutes to run a mile at first. I have since shaved that time down to running the mile in 11 minutes, 32 seconds. I'm proud of that.
The reason I'm working out at all is because I'm a dragon. I have always believed that the body I'm in is weak and frail, especially compared to the strength I could have as a full dragon. So in order to reclaim some of that Draconic strength... I'm going to train my body and get it to some level of actual fitness. Not feeling frail would do more to ease my species dysphoria than anything else.
And that's what happened yesterday. All of my training has been done on a treadmill, indoors (I don't get out much. I'm one of those dragons that stays in her cave every day). Yesterday was one of the first times I ran outside WITHOUT a treadmill... So I actually had a frame of reference for how fast I was running and how my body felt doing it.
It felt like I was stepping on clouds. My body felt so LIGHT. It felt easy to move. After so many years of having weak legs, and growing up being unable to run at any speed faster than a jog, I finally felt like that issue was behind me. I've gained strength. My claws aren't digging into the earth beneath my feet as I run, and I'm not feeling the wind beneath my wings. But I feel more like a dragon now than I ever have.
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 9
DAY 9: are you smaller or larger than a breadbox?
Breadboxes tremble in fear before my mighty stature. I look down upon them with disgust. The notion that I could ever be contained within the meager bounds of a vessel for moldy wheat simply REPELS me.
Wake up. Stretch ur wings and spine. Curl into your hoard pile and make loud growly yawning noises. Stay up for hours with your humans and then go back to sleep. Dragon life as of late. I feel good about myself.
MUCH closer to how I really look this time! It's kind of funny how there's literally just an option for exactly how the underside of my wings should look. I love it!
Only gripe with it is there's no snout shape that looks crocodiley. Some of us dragongirls have long narrow snoots :> But Like. Aside from that omg this is so well made!!!!!
Also! There's a bug with the webbed feet hind legs. You can't change the webbing color properly.. Just letting you know!
Thank you so much to those who offered feedback on the new version preview page - the main dragon builder has now been updated! Custom colors, expressions, different types of legs, plenty more!
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 8
DAY 8: sleepy or awakey?
curls up on treasure hoard pile to take the biggest freaking nap that anyone has napped in their entire life
SO MAD RIGHT NOW.
Lately I've been trying to sleep on my stomach, like how a dragon would. I do this by putting a pillow down beneath my hips when laying down, to simulate the feeling of laying on top of a treasure hoard. This is also more healthy for someone with a human-shaped spine. Sleeping on your stomach can mess up a human's back without that.
A few nights ago, I slept like that and woke up with no back pain AT ALL. Like .. LESS than the usual amount of back pain. Which gave me a ton of kin euphoria. Sleeping like a dragon actually helped me feel better. I could hold my head high, and I felt stronger. One of the most powerful feelings on the god damned planet.
So I tried again last night. Got comfy.
And then FOR SOME REASON, I SHIFTED THE PILLOW IN MY SLEEP SO IT WAS BENEATH MY HEAD AGAIN.
IT WASN'T EVEN COMFORTABLE!!!
So now I've just got back pain again and my neck is so sore that I'm positive it'll give me a headache later. So mad. Why did I do that in my sleep. Sleep-Ninian is an idiot.
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 7
DAY 7: does your kintype migrate
HELL NO. How the heck is a dragongirl supposed to take her giant pile of treasure and riches with her if she migrates??? Do I just... Leave it behind???????
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAY 5... AGAIN
DAY 5: 5 again. do you like leaves
Leaves rule. Autumn is an underrated season IMO. This doesn't even have anything to do with being otherkin lmao this is just facts. Ice dragons love to dive into leaf piles too >:3c
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAYS 4-5
DAY 4: if your kintype suddenly opened their eyes, what would they be looking at?
I don't fully understand what this is asking... But I'd probably see the inside of my den. I'd imagine I'd have a big snowy cave full of treasure, gleaming in the light from the cave entrance... Or I'd see the icicles hanging from the ceiling above me.
DAY 5: do you like sticks
I'm neutral on sticks, honestly. This question was written by a dog wasn't it >:P (no hate to dogs ur all beautiful <3 )
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Challenge: DAYS 1-3
Challenge Rules
I messed up with the first 2 days cuz I'm new to tumblr and brain no worky. So I'm just making my own post for my first few responses now! Also yeah I did days 1 and 2 together cuz I just got excited.
DAY 1: what type of dirt would your kintype eat?
As an ice dragon.... Probably permafrost?? But I would never actually seek it out as a meal or anything obviously
Alternatively, glacial sediment. Or sand/mud from lakebeds/riverbeds/seafloors. I could see those getting in my mouth when I eat, as I'm partially aquatic and most of my hunting takes place underwater.
I would prefer not to eat dirt tho thankyou
DAY 2: warm or cold ocean water?
Cold! As an aquatic ice dragon, that's literally my habitat! Either oceans or lakes.
DAY 3: describe a pie made from three ingredients your kintype would eat, crust included, go
Some kinda fish pie!!! My diet would consist of mainly fish or other aquatic life. Raw and cold, too. So! The 3 ingredients:
- Seaweed Pie Crust
- Any kind of raw fish as filling
- Caviar topping
------ Served Cold like a cheesecake, perhaps even frozen
Hungry just thinking about it... But it's definitely the kind of thing I will never eat IRL. This body's human instincts are saying "that's disgusting!" but my dragon instincts are saying this sounds fucking DELICIOUS.
Oops wait I did this wrong I didn't look at the main post... Did the first 2 days on day 1
I am a fool and I have forever brought shame upon my bloodline
Cold! As an aquatic ice dragon, that's literally my habitat! Either oceans or lakes.
Unhinged 30 Days of Otherkin Day 2: warm or cold ocean water?
It's honestly a tie! I love frosty cold water in rivers, but at the same time I adore the heat of a hot springs..
..Though, oceans are not quite something I enjoy. The massive expanse of water unsettles me a bit.
As an ice dragon.... Probably permafrost?? But I would never actually seek it out as a meal or anything obviously
Alternatively, glacial sediment. Or sand/mud from lakebeds/riverbeds/seafloors. I could see those getting in my mouth when I eat, as I'm partially aquatic and most of my hunting takes place underwater.
I would prefer not to eat dirt tho thankyou
30 days of Unhinged Otherkin Challenge Day 01: what type of dirt would your kintype eat?
Well, lets see. As a Cybertronian, we don't really "eat dirt" per se.. though, we do consume plenty of minerals and types of rock.
As a canine/feline/vulpine entity, perhaps accidental dirt...? Such as, dirt that flies up into your snout when you're digging or rolling in the mud! Yes!
aimlessly looking for dragonkin stuff makes me upset. Some people only thought of the most typical of it all don’t yall???
(so mad I would breath fire EXCEPT I DO NOT! Not every dragon have breath weapon! Not every dragon are of fire element! Not every dragon are scaley spikey membranous winged lizard! Not every dragon hoards or are into crystal, gold, and what have you!!!!)
Barrenguider....? Like. I guide people through the barrens??? Does Nightwing-Me live in the desert?
You will be randomly assigned a NightWing name. Spin this wheel for your prefix (first part of your name) and then spin this wheel for your suffix (second part of your name).
(I got the name Marveladvisor... It's tolerable)
The strong desire to fly above the trees in the middle of the night, wind stirring the thick fur that keeps me warm. A gap parting the trees for a river flowing away from a basin at the foot of a waterfall. Thirsty, I dive down, and before I hit water, I transform from a winged wolf into a water dragon. From beneath the water I swim to the waterfall and surface. I relish the way the water falls onto my scales. The underwater currents swirling around my body. The water from the waterfall is cool, crisp, and tastes so refreshing, befitting the thirst of a creature as majestic as I.
So I tilt my head up to drink from the falls, open my mouth, and GAWSGAHRWGLRASGH that yummy wator.
nonhuman asks
what term(s) do you prefer to be referred to as (otherkin, therian, nonhuman, etc.)?
what are you(r kintypes/theriotypes)?
most niche/obscure 'type?
what foods do you associate with your 'type(s)?
what colors do you associate with your 'type(s)?
do you own any gear? if so, what is it?
best/favorite thing about being nonhuman?
worst/least favorite thing about being nonhuman?
what activities help you connect with your 'type(s)?
do you associate any music with your 'type(s)? do you have a playlist?
do you collect anything besides wearable gear that you associate with your 'type(s), such as plushies or merch?
do your 'type(s) influence your sense of style or the way you dress?
would you consider yourself a furry? if so, do you have a fursona? is your fursona based on one of your 'type(s)?
draw or share your artwork of your 'type(s)?
this isnt a question but a request that you drink some water!
authors note: feel free to reblog! other beings can ask you questions from this list, or you can simply answer them all yourself.
Upon Further Examination
A professor does her best to figure out why her student's ritual circle isn't working, and discovers that the issue may be a bit bigger than she thought. 6k words.
"Three. Two. One. Ignite. Seven. Six. Five. Four. Three. Two. One. Indicators. Four. Three. Two. One."
"Failed," Selin states in time with my counting, doing a halfway-decent job of masking her frustration and disappointment. I nod approvingly, as I’ve done each attempt, because it’s still important to acknowledge the adherence to procedure.
"Quench," I respond, picking my earlier cadence back up. "One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Release. One. Two. Disengage."
Selin steps back from the now-inert ritual circle and I step forward to check her work. Today I’m acting as her examiner, rather than my usual role as her mentor, so I’m supposed to keep my observations to myself. However, I think we’ve gotten past the point where I need to stick to the standard process.
"Perfect," I speak aloud, and Selin jumps slightly. "Your inscriptions are more than within tolerance for preciseness, you’re following your derived procedures to the letter, your timing would put the carillon tower to shame, and I can’t identify a single fault with your channeling."
"Wait, so I got the ritual right this time?" Selin asks, her voice equally confused and hopeful. "Then why didn’t it work?"
I shake my head.
"You got it right every time," I tell her. "Even the first two attempts, which I intentionally sabotaged without your notice, according to academy procedure. You corrected and compensated without prompting."
I don’t have to look at Selin to anticipate the indignant response that revelation will elicit, so I simply hold up my hand to silence her.
"It’s not the moon, it’s not ambient interference, and it’s sure as hell not my materials. It’s not your procedures, your written report has no problems on paper and I tested it last night in this very room, so it’s not the location either."
Sure enough, when I tested Selin’s ritual myself in preparation for today, the brilliant purple spark had appeared in midair and fragmented into responsive motes, just as she had designed it to do. By her own accounts it had worked just as well while she was developing it, so we should be seeing at least some sort of magical response from the ritual besides the barest, halfhearted ionizing glow coming from the air above the circle, and yet here we were, twenty-two attempts later. I would normally have to penalize her for taking this many attempts, but that part of the rubric was written under the assumption that failure would be due to something on the student’s part. This, however…
"So what is wrong with it, Professor?" Selin asks as she slumps down into one of the armchairs arranged against the wall of my workshop. "I know you’re not supposed to tell me until after the exam, but…"
"Nothing," I say as I sit down next to her, with a bit more grace. "Absolutely nothing at all, besides the fact that it is simply not working. Selin, I genuinely have no idea what to tell you. I’m half-tempted to just award you full marks and some extra credit on top of it and call it a day."
"Well don’t do that," she whines. "How am I supposed to call it a success if it doesn’t work when it’s supposed to?"
"You do realize most students wouldn’t hesitate to accept that offer, right?"
"Well there’s a reason you’re mentoring me and not them," Selin says, and I concede the point with a chuckle. The girl has a work ethic and level of tenacity I haven’t seen in years. What makes her stand out even more is the fact that when she was my student in introductory classes, I had initially assumed she would wash out of the program. It took her almost twice as long as most of the other students to get her fundamental spell weaving up to par, and her magic still has a tendency to try and run away from her in a way that’s amusingly familiar. But what she lacks in control, Selin more than makes up for with her sheer breadth of comprehension of theory. With time and effort, she’s grown to become the most promising student in her year, and I was quite excited to see what she came up with for her end-of-semester project. It was ambitious, sure, but pulling it off should be fully within her capabilities, and yet success has eluded her thus far today. Hell, I wouldn’t be surprised if she refused to leave my quarters until the ritual succeeded, be it hours or until the end of the day or even longer. I myself would be remiss to end before she got it working, but at this point I genuinely have no idea what to do.
"Why don’t you take a break?" I suggest. "Just half an hour. You can ask Ember to make tea. I’ll stay here and work out the problem, then you can come back with a fresh mind and it’ll work this time."
I can tell Selin does not share my optimism, nor does she want to give up even temporarily, but exhaustion wins out and she nods, standing up and removing her apron and protective goggles before exiting the workshop. I remain, close my eyes, and focus my mind the problem at hand.
Fifteen minutes later and I’m only more frustrated. I tested this yesterday and it worked. There should be no effective difference between the two setups. What the hell is going on?
The softest, quietest tink of porcelain interrupts my thoughts, and I open my eyes to see Ember setting down a cup and saucer on the end table next to my chair. My maid’s lips quirk in dissatisfaction when she realizes that she wasn’t quite silent enough to go unnoticed, but quickly return to her usual warm smile.
"You’ll get me one of these days," I assure her, and she stifles an amused snort. "How’s Selin?"
"Antsy, but she’s staying in one place, at least," Ember responds. "I think the failure is getting to her."
"And to I as well," I sigh. "She’s executing the ritual even more precisely than I did, and nothing."
I pick up the cup from the saucer, then pause as I notice the contents and raise one eyebrow at Ember.
"What is hot cocoa if not tea made of chocolate steeped in milk?" she says, with an ever-so-slightly mischievous lilt to her voice. "I thought you both could use the comfort."
I roll my eyes, though there’s no real annoyance behind it. A small sip confirms that it’s been heated well beyond the boiling point, the enchantment on the cup preventing it from evaporating or scalding, and I breathe a sigh of contentment. She knows me too well.
"Would you like me to give it a look, my lady?" Ember asks. "Fresh eyes could spot something new, perhaps?"
"You’re welcome to, if you’d like," I tell her. I don’t honestly expect her to find anything, though not for any lack of faith on my part in my maid’s skill. I just can’t imagine there’s anything to find.
Ember walks around the outside of the ritual circle a few times, staring at it intently as I sip my cocoa. I try to keep thinking, picking apart the problem in different ways, but the answer continues to elude me. When Ember speaks up again, the distraction is very welcome.
"She’s using your mana siphon design. Integrated correctly, but still not standard. Is that a problem?"
"No, it should work just like the standard design for her. A bit more efficiently, even, which I assume is why she’s using it," I say. Ember knows this, of course, but it’s still good to talk things out. Maybe something will spark an epiphany.
"Hmm." She’s quiet for another moment. "And you recreated this last night exactly, including the siphon, correct?"
"It’s the design I have to grade, so naturally," I confirm. "It worked flawlessly, first try."
"Even with the compensation runes?"
I frown.
"I suppressed them temporarily, like I always do with that design. My magic only needs compensation when I’m reproducing the standard siphon design, you know this," I say, not entirely sure where she’s going with this. The runes hidden in the walls of my workshop and the classrooms I teach in are critical for ensuring rituals designed without my own little custom component actually function properly and don't just immediately fizzle out. My own magic doesn't play nicely with rituals, so any mana siphon attempting to use it to power one finds itself promptly overwhelmed unless it's built to handle that kind of mana (like my design is) or the volatility in my magic is compensated for, like the runes do.
"And they’re on now, because that’s their normal state," Ember hums. "Out of curiosity, what would happen if you tried this ritual with the compensation runes active?"
"Modifying the design to use a standard mana siphon? I can’t see any reason why I wouldn’t be able—"
"No," Ember cuts me off. "As implemented."
"It wouldn’t work, obviously. The siphon’s design is too specific for properly collecting my magic processed to behave like normal magic, it has to be either or. Standard siphons are more forgiving, but less efficient."
"So the siphon would get overloaded and fail relatively quickly?" she asks, raising an eyebrow at me.
"I can see where you’re going with this, but it’s wrong," I say, leaning forward in my chair and placing the now-empty cup back down on the saucer. "To the runes, normal mana might as well not exist. They wouldn’t do anything to Selin’s, she’s the one igniting the ritual, and the ritual isn’t tandem nor does it collect ambient mana. My magic isn’t affecting things at all, I’ve made sure of it."
"What if her magic needs to be compensated for?"
"I—"
The notion is ludicrous. So ludicrous that I start to respond without thinking, but then cut myself off. If I was the one doing the ritual, then yes, I’d need to suppress the runes in order for it to work, just like I did last night. I never designed my improved mana siphon to work with them, because there was absolutely no need to and it would have just complicated the inscription. If I still tried anyway, though… the siphon would eke out the barest amount of mana, then promptly give up. The distribution lines would do their best to convey the mana to the rest of the circle, which would… which wouldn’t even get through the first step of the intended output. No spark. It would try, though, and if I had to guess, that weak, mana-starved attempt would probably look just like a faint purple glow in the air, and nothing else.
It doesn’t make sense. It makes too much sense. It explains everything nicely and raises so many more questions. I desperately want to hang onto any possible evidence it’s not true, because it couldn’t be. I would know. And there’s no way. No way at all. But…
"But she’s human," I say, voice a little weaker and more unsure than I’d like. Ember simply raises an eyebrow again.
"You thought you were."
I sigh. I don’t want to acknowledge even the remotest possibility of Ember being right, but at my core I’m too much of a scientist to not at least attempt to test the possibility.
"It’s been long enough; she’ll be itching to try again," I say, defeated. "You go get her, I’ll turn off the compensation runes."
"Of course, my lady," my maid says, in that way she’s perfected that conveys very little of the deference the title would imply. She exits the workshop, and I get back to my feet, turning around and placing my hand on the wall. A twist of will sees the rune contained within made dormant for a time, and I walk to and repeat the process with the other five walls, finishing just as Selin rushes in with Ember behind her.
"What’d you figure out?" Selin asks excitedly, already throwing her apron back on and pulling her hair back. "Are we good to go?"
"There’s… a chance we are," I hedge. "I don’t want you to get your hopes up, but I’ve tried something and there’s a very remote possibility it should work now, no other modifications necessary."
"Alright!" Selin cheers, tying the apron strings behind her back. "You don’t sound very hopeful, though."
"The lady has a tendency to temper her expectations to an unreasonable degree," Ember says, insolent little creature that she is. "I have faith in your abilities, Selin."
"Aw, thanks!" Selin says, grabbing the materials she needs for another attempt. "Anything I should do differently or just like I designed?"
"Just like you designed," I confirm. "And if this doesn’t work then please don’t feel discouraged."
"No promises!" she declares, working with remarkable efficiency. "Okay, prepped and reset for another go."
I give her work a cursory glance, but I have no doubt it’ll be perfect, just like all the other attempts. Alright. No time like the present.
"On my call," I say, and Selin nods. "Three. Two. One. Ignite."
Selin pours her magic into the circle once again, and the air above the ritual circle blooms, brilliant purple light coalescing into one single, shining point. I allow myself a fraction of a second to process, which is not nearly enough, but I have a job to do.
"Seven. Six. Five. Four," I call, and the spark fragments, much smaller points of light rapidly spreading out to fill the cylindrical space above the ritual circle. There must be thousands of them, and the density Selin has achieved is noticeably greater than what I managed last night with the exact same conditions. "Three. Two. One. Indicators. Four. Three. Two. One."
"Succeeded," Selin declares, voice full of pride. The results are plain to see, stabilizing well before the seven second mark and taking much less than four to interpret.
"Hold," I continue in cadence. "One. Two. Three. Four. Five. Six. Seven. Eight. Nine. Ten. Stable."
Selin hesitantly sticks her hand into the field of purple, and the motes in a small radius around it drift towards her. She clenches her hand into a fist, and they rapidly move to coat her hand, before all suddenly jumping back into position when she opens her hand again. She beams at me.
"Well done," I say as I release a bit of the tension in my body, though not all of it, and catch Ember’s eye. She’s grinning at me very smugly, which I suppose is well-deserved. This… complicates things.
"Told you it works," Selin says, self-satisfaction oozing out of every pore. She pulls her hand back and the pinpricks of purple light stay where they are, having done their job in this demonstration.
"If you’ll recall, I never doubted that it should," I respond. Okay, time to start teasing this mystery apart. "Selin, your mana siphon. Why did you use my design over the standard one? It must have been harder to integrate."
"Huh? Oh, the siphon. Because the standard one sucks and yours is better?" Selin says as she pushes her goggles up to her forehead. Somehow I don’t think she means it solely as a compliment.
"It’s harder to inscribe than the standard version, though," I prompt her. "And reproducibility was one of the factors you were instructed to keep in mind when designing your project."
"Well yeah, of course I thought about that," she defends. "And I started with the usual one, like I’m supposed to, but I’m bad at inscribing it and I could never get it right so I just rebuilt the ritual around yours and I actually started getting results."
I freeze. She does not mean what I think she means. She can’t.
"What do you mean you’re bad at inscribing it?" I ask. "Your inscriptions are some of the most precise I’ve ever seen."
"Aww, thanks," Selin blushes. "And I mean I’m bad at it! I can only get it to work half the time, usually when you’re helping me. Anything that’s designed by you always works for me. It’s consistent!"
It’s consistent because I always deactivate the compensation runes in my classrooms and workshop when we’re working with rituals I’ve designed, because of the fact that they interfere with each other. And any time she’s tried a ritual with my mana siphon outside of those places, there aren’t runes to worry about. But no, that would mean…
"Selin, have you ever successfully completed a ritual using the standard siphon outside of this room or a classroom?"
"Uh, well… not really?" she admits sheepishly. Oh goddess. "I’ve just kinda taken to modifying the rituals when I’m at home, 'cause there isn’t an instructor there to tell me off for doing it wrong."
"You’re modifying rituals to include my mana siphon?" I ask, flabbergasted. "You can’t just put it in place of the old one; the integrations are completely different!"
"Uh, yeah?" Selin says, sounding confused. "It’s not that difficult to rework the distribution lines around it."
Yes it is. Yes it fucking is. I don’t say that to her, though, instead turning to the room’s other occupant, whose grin is almost too wide for her face at this point.
"Fine. Fine! You win, Ember," I declare, throwing my hands up in the air. "You were right, I was wrong. She can’t do rituals without compensating."
"I’m so glad your humility hasn’t left you, my lady," Ember beams. Selin, meanwhile, just looks confused.
"Sorry, 'compensating?'" she asks. "I’m not doing anything differently, as far as I know. What did you figure out? Why did it work this time?"
I sigh.
"You didn’t do anything different. It was a problem with my workshop, which I apologize for. But, we’re not quite done yet. This is not part of your exam, but I’d appreciate it if you humored me anyway. Light spell, as by-the-book as you can."
Selin’s confused expression only deepens, but she obliges me, holding up a hand and making a simple ball of light appear above it. It roils and shifts, maintaining a loosely spherical shape as it ebbs and flows. Selin’s magic has frequently expressed itself this way, and while I’ve drawn parallels to my own experiences, I never made the conclusion that it’s seeming like I should have.
"Hold it there, don’t lose focus," I instruct her as I walk back towards the wall. With a touch, I draw back out the mana keeping the rune within suppressed, fixing my eyes on the Selin’s light spell as I do so. It flickers, though not by much. I walk to two more walls and do the same thing, then return to my student. With half the runes in effect, the ball of light has calmed itself a bit, still far from static but significantly more under control. Selin looks to be concentrating hard on keeping it stable, her lips pursed, but I don’t offer her any insight, instead walking to the remaining three walls and reactivating the runes contained within. Walking back up, I can see that the little ball of light has become a perfect, static sphere, as textbook as I’ve ever seen. Selin looks up at me questioningly, but I preempt her with a question of my own.
"Are you sure you’re human?"
"What the hell kind of question is that?" she asks incredulously.
"Like I asked earlier, please humor me," I say patiently.
"I… yes?" she says, and I can tell she truly believes it. "There’s some elven blood on my dad’s side if you go back like eight generations, but that’s extremely diluted, I know how this works."
And indeed, it should not have this kind of effect oh her magic. But, what I’m asking about isn’t something brought about by genetics.
"Release and disengage the ritual at your leisure, then you two start cleaning up," I order. "I need to grab something. Ember, don’t bias her while I’m gone."
"Bias me?"
"My lady?"
"I’m doing a test," I state, and Ember’s eyes go wide.
"Hey wh—"
The rest of Selin’s confused exclamation is cut off as I abruptly turn on my heel and yank myself through space, the workshop around me immediately transitioning into a new, much larger space. Cavernous walls of rough-hewn rock, globes of magical light suspended from the very high ceiling, and approximately forty fireballs spontaneously generated and fired towards me by the wards the second I take a step forward. My stride doesn’t falter as they hit and harmlessly wash over me, my robes being enchanted to protect themselves and anything contained within the many pockets from flame. That doesn’t include the wearer, but, well. The day I can’t handle a bit of fire is the day I die.
I was lucky enough to find this cave a couple of centuries back, and promptly sealed it up and warded it to high heaven to prevent anyone else from doing so after me. If anyone else besides me or my staff tried to get in here, they’d be faced with a lot worse than just fireballs. They’re more of a precaution, anyway. Plus, the heat is nice. These mountains don’t have any geothermal activity, so the entire cave system has to be heated magically, which takes a lot of energy.
It doesn’t take me long to reach the cave’s main event, since while this chamber is absolutely massive, so is the pile of treasure it contains. For years, I never really understood the appeal of having a hoard, but the very first time I held a gemstone the size of an apple in my hands, I was hooked. That was a long, long, time ago, though, and now my trove has grown to a size even the most ascetic of my kin would salivate over. Not that they’ll ever get to see it, of course, nor will any humans. Very few people know my true identity, and I like it that way. I doubt my life of tenured pedagogy would be quite so peaceful if the rest of the staff knew there was anything more to me than an experienced noblewoman with a penchant for magical research and a slightly strange magical response to rituals. Anonymity holds power, in this world, which is one of the many reasons why part of me greatly dislikes the idea of potentially revealing myself. But, I’m forced to admit, if I’m correct, the alternative would be worse for Selin, and I like the poor girl far too much for that.
I spend around half an hour searching through the piles, examining each splotch of color poking out from in between pieces of gold from this century and many past. My search criteria is very specific, and it’s not like I can just pull some random ruby out and be done with it. I’m loathe to part with even a single piece from my collection, as any self-respecting dragon would be, but I know that if this test succeeds then there will be no way I’m getting this back. Finally, though, I spot it. A brilliant purple, Selin’s favorite color. Round, roughly cut (though that just adds charm, in my opinion), and large enough that it’s awkward to carry in only one hand. Corundum. It’s perfect. …Now I just have to find something to carry it in.
When I return to my workshop, a large felt bag clasped in my hands, my eyes barely have time to focus before I’m assaulted with a shrill exclamation.
"You can teleport!?" Selin yells, and I wince before schooling my expression.
"Were you waiting the entire time just to ask that?" I say tersely.
"Well yeah, you just disappeared so what else was I supposed to do after cleaning up?" Selin responds, and I am pleased to see the workshop is looking spotless. "Ember won’t even talk to me and I am still very confused as to what is going on."
"I apologize for leaving you in the dark, so to speak, but this is very important," I sigh. "Yes, I can teleport, it’s rather advanced magic and relatively inaccessible to most people, but I will teach you, should you desire. In any case, I think things will very soon become clear. Come."
I turn and walk towards the door, navigating down the hall and to the sitting room. As expected, Ember is waiting there, tea already prepared. Cinnamon this time, I can smell, not chocolate. I sit down on one of the chairs, bag in my lap, and motion for the other girls to do the same. Selin picks the chair opposite me, looking at me intently, while Ember picks the couch to the side of us. She always gets squirmy when she’s excited, and that’s quite evident now, despite her attempts to sit still.
"So, first things first," I begin. "Nothing you are about to see or hear is to be discussed outside of my quarters, and never with anyone besides me or my staff. Do you understand?"
"'Staff,' plural?" Selin says, raising an eyebrow and glancing at Ember. "Are there more?"
"Cinder and Tinder tend to the estate while I’m teaching; you’ll be introduced to them eventually," I elaborate, and before she can think too much on the names I continue. "Besides Ember and I, you will not breathe a word of this to anyone else. I repeat, do you understand?"
"Yes," Selin nods, and I can tell she means it. Everything that’s happening is much too intriguing for her to just walk away.
"Good," I say, then reach into the bag and tug it off of the gemstone contained within, watching Selin’s expression carefully. "Secondly, congratulations on passing your practical exam. As I said earlier, I will be awarding you full marks, plus extra credit."
As I reveal the giant purple corundum, I see the spark in Selin’s eyes, and my theory is confirmed. A bittersweet feeling washes over me at that. As much as I was enjoying the relatively solo life (well, as solo as a girl can be with three kobolds), it’s nice to know that I’ll be mentoring my favorite student for a good while longer yet. I stand up, holding the gem in both hands, and walk over to Selin, holding it out to her.
"A gift," I tell her. "And hopefully a fitting start to your collection."
Her eyes grow even wider than they already were, and she reaches up, almost reverently, taking the gemstone from my grasp. I feel a pang in my heart as it leaves my hands, but I push it down. This is necessary. I’m not going to let her wander, lost, like I did.
"I… I don’t know what to say," Selin starts as I walk back to my chair and sit down. "This is… this is too much. What even… what?"
"Purple corundum," I state matter-of-factly. "The same thing that rubies and sapphires are made of, just with a different name and color. Near flawless, as best I can tell. I’ll help you weigh and grade it later. You’ll want to know."
"Professor, this is… how much is this even worth?" Selin nearly whines, most of her sense of decorum leaving her. Which is understandable.
"Oh, I have no idea," I tell her, semi-honestly, then lean forward in my seat. "If it’s too much, then simply give it back. I’ll find you something more appropriate."
She looks at the gemstone for a long while, longer than she thinks, I’m sure. Then, very slowly, she brings it down to her chest, holding and hugging it despite the weight. I nod approvingly. There really was no chance of anything else.
"Then, thirdly, your ritual," I say, and I think I manage to recapture most of her attention. "Like I said, the problem was with my workshop, not you or your execution. I would like to once again apologize for causing that unnecessary stress."
"That’s… alright," Selin nods. "What was the problem, if you don’t mind me asking?"
"The answer is rather complicated, but I’ll do my best to explain," I start. "While my preferences lie in other fields, I do consider myself somewhat of an expert in ritual magic, and I’d hope my teaching position supports that assertion. This is in spite of a rather curious quirk of my magic, which interacts with most modern ritual designs in a way that precludes them from working. Unless, of course, the ritual circle utilizes the mana siphon I designed some two hundred years ago to address this very issue. You, Selin, have this same quirk."
"Okay, wait, slow down," she says. "I’ve seen you use the standard mana siphon before. I’ve used it before. And my ritual used yours, but it wasn’t working. Also, sorry, did you say two hundred years?"
"Young lady, you should know better than to ask about a woman’s age," I admonish her, and savor the wounded expression on her face for the couple of seconds I can manage to prevent my mouth from cracking into a smile. "But yes, I am significantly older than I look. And in regards to your other questions, there is more than one way to mitigate the effects of this quirk, which I had to do before I designed my own ritual components. Built into the walls of my workshop and classrooms are runes that, when activated, compensate for the volatility of my magic, forcing it to behave as normal to standard mana siphons."
Understanding begins to dawn on Selin’s face.
"So when you had me do the light spell and it got less and less chaotic…"
"The runes were processing and calming your magic as I activated them, yes."
"That… makes a surprising amount of sense," she says. "The standard siphon only working for me in the classrooms and your workshop, not at home. Wait, but what was the problem with my ritual, then? I was using your design, that takes care of the issue, you said."
"It does, yes," I nod. "The problem was that I, not knowing about your situation, left the runes activated for your exam. The siphon does not process my magic after it has been affected by the runes, due to the specificity of the design, and neither was it processing yours. When I deactivated the runes, as I do whenever I deal with rituals of my own design, that allowed your natural magic to fuel the ritual as normal, and thus leading to the success. The compensation runes have no effect whatsoever on magic without this quirk, so I did not expect them to have any effect on your performance."
"Huh," Selin responds, thoughtfully. "I assume you’re willing to show me the runes so I can use them myself?"
"I do plan on doing so," I nod affirmatively. "They’re not exactly simple, but I have no doubt you’ll be able to reproduce them with relatively little effort."
"Well, okay then!" she beams. "That’s good to know. Use your siphon when I can, use the runes for the standard version, don’t mix and match. That all seems pretty clear. I don’t really get why this is such a secret, though."
I sigh. Here’s where we get to the more significant part of this conversation.
"Selin, you are the twelfth person I have met in my life besides me with this condition. This is over many centuries, and I know there are a number more I have not met but experience the same thing, since it follows a very clear pattern. I hope you believe me when I tell you how rare this is, and that I am very confident when I say it is indicative of more overall characteristics of the person the volatile magic comes from. I was initially extremely unwilling to believe that the runes were responding to you, for the very simple reason that the runes do not respond to humans, nor most other races. Yet your magic is of the variety they were designed for, which only stems from one source."
"So, what are you saying?" she asks me, pulling the gemstone a little tighter against herself. "That I’m not human? How the hell could I not be?"
"In this case, it’s a matter of the soul," I tell her. "I do not know the exact mechanism behind it, for there are so few of us to be studied, and I am still not entirely sure how similar it is for other races. But, sometimes, very rarely, a person can be born with a soul not befitting of their body, and this leads to a mismatch. One that could potentially go unnoticed for their entire lives, given a lack of the right circumstances. Such a case is certainly a tragedy, which means that it is my responsibility to prevent the same from happening to you."
She takes a deep breath.
"Just… out with it. Stop dancing around whatever it is."
Well. Here we go.
"Selin, every single person whose magic behaves like this is a dragon."
To her credit, she doesn’t laugh.
"Bullshit," is her response, soft, too quickly. I say nothing, and simply draw my hand down my face, letting my human visage fall away and the deep blue scales of my true form shine through, though still in a somewhat humanoid shape. Selin gasps at my sudden reveal, then glances over to Ember, whose disguise falls away at the same time mine does, leaving a short orange kobold sitting on the couch instead, tail rapidly wagging. She’s still wearing a smaller version of her maid uniform, though, and waves happily to a stunned Selin.
"I hope you understand why I asked you to keep this a secret," I say, only managing to hide around half of the amusement I’m currently feeling. Not much of my body is visible with the robes, but it should certainly be enough.
"I… yes," Selin responds, finally managing to find her voice again. "But you’re… that’s not… I’m not…"
"Here’s a proposal for you," I say to her, leaning forward to give my folded-up wings some space. "Hand the stone back to me, or fail my class."
The immediate look of shock and betrayal on her face is just what I expected, so I escalate, holding out my scaled palm and summoning a roiling ball of flame above it.
"Hand the stone back to me, or die."
She tenses up, eyes narrowing. I know that look, and while it is what I’m fishing for, I don’t particularly feel like ruining my sitting room with a mage battle, so I extinguish the flame and raise both my palms up deferentially while lowering my head.
"Easy, easy," I placate, letting my human form wash back over me to break her concentration. She blinks, eyes refocusing, so that hopefully did the trick. "I’m not going to take it away, I promise. I’m sorry."
"G-good," Selin says. Then, after a moment, her eyes widen. "Wait, holy shit, I didn’t mean to… fuck, I am so sorry, um—"
I lower my left hand, letting the right one remain up to stop her.
"It’s exactly the reaction I was provoking; there’s no need to apologize," I assure her. "It’s natural to get defensive over items in your hoard."
"My hoard?" she asks incredulously. Then, softly. "Oh. Fuck."
I nod at her.
"Are things starting to make a bit more sense?"
"…Getting there," Selin says, demurely. "There’s still a lot I don’t understand."
"Well, we have all the time in the world to get to remedy that," I assure her. "And as it turns out, all the time is the world is going to be a lot longer for you than either of us thought."
"Aaaa, this is going to be so much fun!" Ember squeaks, and I can’t help but agree with her. Even Selin lets a hint of anticipation show through on her face, which makes my smile grow even wider.
Goodness, I love being a teacher.