You Are Not A Wasteland You Just Need Ibuprofen And A Hot Bath And A Shower And A Nutritious Meal And

That moment when you touched your first touchscreen

RACHEL SENNOTT AND AYO EDEBIRI Bottoms (2023) dir. Emma Seligman

why is it so difficult to not borrow grief from the future

actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty then to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do.

Ada Limón, from “Sometimes I Think My Body Leaves a Shape in the Air”, The Carrying: Poems

The house you two buy together

Harry:

Louis:

Liam:

Zayn:

Niall:

actually i love growing older and learning how i work as a person like realizing what kinds of fabrics feel best on my skin or what brand of yogurt i like best or how I want to be touched. watching myself change, enjoying brussel sprouts when I used to hate them as a child, understanding why I got angry in that one conversation 10 years ago… there are so many mysteries inside me that i have yet to unravel and there will always be more and sometimes i think maybe its all worth it

happy "everyone forgets that icarus also flew" monday. i want to throw up !