Onemashedbraincell - Onebraincell

Hey, you all doing okay?

Just figured I'd ask :)

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Yeah! We're doing great, thank you for asking! We told a friend (singlet) about our plurality recently and they took it really well, so we're in a great mood at the moment! Our birthday is also coming up, so lots of joyous occasions recently, lol.

wAIT OK i just realized in my dissociative haze how bad that might sound to someone. but because our chronic pain and stress, this is like one of the most minor things that could happen. and twisted foot doesn’t hurt too bad so like this is the best outcome tbh

Hi guys! How is your life at the moment? Everything is going well, I hope.

hey there! thanks for sending in an ask! all things considered especially due to our current situation and hyper vigilance and such, not too bad. we have a bit of a headache along with a twisted foot, a never-ending appetite, some nausea, and just the usual amount of joint pain with it being a little worse in our back, but all things considered, we’re doing pretty good and we’re still able to function (that’s a fucking win)! thank you for asking. :)

cw: medical shit , flashback mentions

nah i fucking hate going to the doctors because when they even slightly touch me every part of me screams to bolt like please stop touching me im 5 seconds away from having a panic attack 😭😭

i hate forgetting shit because wdym today is Valentine’s Day?? and they tell me yeah it’s Valentine’s Day and 5 minutes later i forget it’s Valentine’s Day??

getting really into journaling is so fucked because you will fr end up with pages like "dear diary, it's fucken wimdy today!!!!! also I might be a talentless hack with no real creative drive or discipline to speak of. xoxo ✨"

figuring out that the trauma holders weren’t lying to you when you discover physical evidence of the trauma occurring……… like bitch i thought you were saying that shit for shits and giggles?

i just genuinely need to fucking make the loudest alarm ever for saint patricks day because i cant keep getting pinched (im about to lose it) and obviously no matter how much i remind myself i still cant do it

pov : you try and convince your headmates to rest at night because its a healthy thing to do. they proceed to look for one specific journal to read they just randomly remembered for more than an hour that had four pages in it done because ‘i won’t remember it tomorrow’. the next day, you feel like shit

thats it. THATS IT. WHY DO WE HAVE AN ELSA FICTI-

Hello! Saw the ask a DID sys post and though we'd drop by. Personally we're curious- how do you cope with having so many beings in your system?

We're a collective of around 40-something at the moment, and we have reason to believe that our headcount will not stop growing, nor will it ever go down. This has caused some distress since we're not quite sure how that will work, and we already completely lack a clear roster of frequent fronters. We've been curious as to how others cope with "high" headcounts by most standards. (Although I recognize "cope" may not be the correct word, as it implies the high headcount to be a bad thing and not everyone would experience it as such.)

Hey! For us, we also have an unclear frequent fronter list and are frequently blurry. It was similar for us in a case where we would not stop discovering new members- and it still is that case for us. We try and cope with high headcounts by documenting activity from fronters whenever possible, along with adding various personal notes about them that may help us understand them better. We also try and establish their roles so we can better realize when they may be out- although it isn't always easy to find out, especially when a large number of them are unformed fragments. There's not exactly a way to 'cope', I'd say, but especially if there's a need for control, organizing and documenting them down definitely helps you feel more in control of your headcount numbers. Also to say, there's nothing wrong with having a high headcount. It's just a representation of how much your brain wanted and tried to protect you, no matter how much it took, even if its hard and stressful.