(Holding our cat up) You don't understand. I need you to stay grounded to reality
Hey, you all doing okay?
Just figured I'd ask :)
- ✨️✏️
Yeah! We're doing great, thank you for asking! We told a friend (singlet) about our plurality recently and they took it really well, so we're in a great mood at the moment! Our birthday is also coming up, so lots of joyous occasions recently, lol.
i remember all the times we were forced to go on long walks or standing for long prolonged periods and whenever we told and literally BEGGED someone that we felt faint and our chest and neck was hurting and we needed to sit down because we thought we were going to collapse, that we were told that it was just because ‘we were weak’ or ‘we needed more exercise’, and so, us, 8 year old child, just learned to deal with it. turns out we had POTS.
cr: @kodaswrld (lace dividers), @boxx-town ('this collective is always open to making friends!'), @zero-templates (‘this system's alters front together'), @forrest-system-userboxes ('this system is often blurry')
hey! we're a nameless did system! this is sort of here as a recovery blog, and also to share our experiences, including ones that may be more disturbing and less talked about in this community- we're endo-friendly and neutral about most things- you do your own thing, but just don't involve us in the discourse. ^^
those who intend to involve this blog in syscourse or make it an unsafe place for systems of all origins and communities, please block us. - your opinions are valid, but this is meant to be a safe space for *all* systems. you may follow this blog if you don't believe our beliefs, but please keep those opinions to yourself unless requested. any hate comments or blogs will be blocked without notice. we're often blurry and co-con, so there often won't be any sign-offs of any sorts, but we try our best... also please don't mind our forgetfulness and lack of responses at times. we're busy, have heavy amnesia, and are physically and mentally disabled.
any triggering topics we may bring up shall be spoilered properly for those who are not in the correct headspace to read that type of content, but please be mindful that we will *not* censor our experiences. we will talk about them. it's your choice whether or not to read them. (**note: while we try our best to spoiler triggering topics properly, we don’t have the greatest of what may be considered triggering besides a few widely known ones due to desensitization. if something should require a tw that we haven’t added, please inform us promptly.**)
This intro is in the process of being reworked. Information may not be accurate.
THERE IS A DANGEROUSLY HIGH CHANCE OF SOMEONE PUTTING YOU IN A PILE OF SOFT WARM BLANKETS ALONG WITH LOTS OF SOFT FLUFFY KITTENS IT IS ADVISED FOR YOU TO HIDE IMMEDIATELY AND STAY CALM DO NOT FALL FOR THEIR TRAP UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES!!!
me when i have a trauma disorder because i experienced trauma
What it feels like waking up dissociated:
–John
🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
Yep! Only two as far as we’re aware, but they’re not exactly strange, especially since they were kind of in a situation ship in source.
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
Oh, definitely. I stare at Slay the Princess in horror.
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
Well, we have one person, but I don’t think they’d like to share it so I’ll just go for the next weirdest one. Collecting insect corpses and random rocks.
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
Yep! Involuntary and voluntarily!
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
The British one. Or the littles, but they mostly stay inside anyway so it’s not too big of a deal.
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
Depends on the alter, some find a name that feels right, some do extensive research to find something that matches them perfectly, some use a random name generator, some just come prepackaged.
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
Hm, off the top of my head, maybe two or three- but there’s probably more that I can’t think of.
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
Ooh, we’re really bad at this. We try our best, but when you can’t remember things and not all of your members are even aware you have simply plural, it gets a little tough.
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
Uhh, yep. We have a few emotion holders who do that- also some persecutors, littles, it varies. Nobody in specific.
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
Allowing them to state clear boundaries, get things that are comforting to them that are from source, or allowing them to branch out if they prefer not to identify as their source! Whatever they need, for the most part.
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
We frankly do not remember very well, but one day they just. Appeared. We passed them off as imaginary friends. We were not imaginary friends.
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
No one who absolutely despises it, but there are definitely a few who don’t like to be associated with their source.
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
Not really!
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
Yep! We have a few guys in there, love those guys. They embrace themselves and don’t give a shit about what others think! They’re really great and sweet.
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
it sort of plays out naturally- or higher ups decide, well, something like that. I’m not certain if there’s like anything specifically but generally they show up just knowing? Or they just end up settling into the role.
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
Outwardly intimidating… probably nicole because of just how confident and blunt they are? they’re less intimidating insys but, yeah, still not the easiest to talk to.
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
It depends on the little. For the most part, no. Especially during text- any quirks are mainly voice-related when internally speaking, and those are unintentional and not too obvious.
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
“bros magical girl energy confuses me” - some guy in our head
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
Plenty, plenty. But you know, alters are unique to your experiences. But I suppose compared to the typical archetypes and such, definitely, yes.
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
Typically through picrews, for Introjects fanart. Some guys want to draw, but it’s not typical.
🦴 - Is anyone in your system dating? If so, who is the strangest pair?
💀 - Is there a particular source you have a lot of fictives from?
🪦 - Who has the strangest habits?
⚰️ - Do you have any nonverbal headmates?
🕷 - Who is the worst at masking?
🕸 - How did your headmates get their names?
☠️ - Do you have any headmates with colored hair,piercings, or tattoos?
🔪 - How consistent are you with logging switches?
🧿 - Is there anyone who spends most of their time in front complaining?
🎃 - Is there anything specific you do to help introjects feel more comfortable?
👻 - How did you discover your plurality/systemhood?
🩸 - Is there anyone who absolutely hates their source?
🦇 - Are there any songs that you associate with systemhood/plurality or your system as a whole?
🐈⬛- Is there anyone who identifies as otherkin/therian?
🔮 - How does your system determine who handles certain tasks/responsibilities?
🧟♂️ - Who is the most outwardly intimating? Are they viewed the same way within the system?
🕯- Do your system's littles use "Baby Talk"?
⛓️ - Funniest quote out of context
⬛ - Is there anyone who has a unique/ non-traditional role?
🪳 - How do you visualize your headmates? (Drawing them,picrew,etc)
UPDATE ON THE CRUSH SITCH????
HAHAHA, yeah, still going strong. been working up the courage to confess n such, trying to still figure out if they like me back and all things. also wanting to make sure we’re both ready for a relationship because that’s super important!
trying my best to learn about them and both pros and cons will come along with them and how i can help resolve things or support them in either case! because hey, we aren’t pissed to be friends for awhile longer, getting to know them a bit more before finally coming to the conclusion whether it’s just infatuation or genuine love is always great! :)
so id say it’s going pretty well, actually. thanks for the ask!
(they/them)disordered systemi don't care what you label yourself as, it's not my business. just keep the fucking discourse off this blog.
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