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how the flip does this work hi I like fyozai cannibalism
pocketsized...
eyeball eating, so romantic
my bloody valentine
New fic with art soon š©¹š
Finally, I got one project out of the way. there were only 2 left to go now...
So here's Dazai and Fyodor for Mer-May BSD. - Next up will be Atsushi and Akutagawa, most likely.
The bottom of Dazai's tail has those little speckles
They're biolumimescent
The top of his tail is shimmery.
Fyodor lives in the Midnight Zone and Dazai in the Sunlight Zone.
Fyodor's bright magenta extremities are bioluminescent.
Make some headcanons for them~ What type of life do they live..
-Nixš
(ep8 spoilers ahead!)
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived a king who honoured Truth.
He was as gentle as a lamb, as pure as driven snow, as warm as sunlight, and his citizens revered him for these qualities. His Truth was his kindness and his hope, and he was said to be able to heal a Cookie of all their woes and pain with a single touch, so blessed by the heavens he was.
Unfortunately, his Truth was no armour, and eventually it became a blade that turned against him. His soft heart failed to protect his kingdom when disaster fell like a fog over it, thick with malice, and those citizens who once revered him came to despise those very same traits they once praised.
The king of Truth, as gentle as a coward, as pure as a martyr, as warm as the remnants of his burning kingdom. The king, dismayed by his Truth failing him, had little idea of what to do as his citizens abandoned him, one by one until only he remained.
One day, a wise scholar happened upon the shell of that kingdom and, curious to know its story, he went to visit the king. The king, still at a loss for what to do and hoping the scholar may impart some of his knowledge, freely shared the tale of the kingdom's downfall with a deep sorrow in his voice.
The wise scholar, taking pity on the king, stepped up to the weary silhouette curled in that old throne and said, "Is it not obvious? You should let go of your Truth."
"My Truth?" The king murmured, disbelieving. "I certainly must have misheard you. I have dedicated my life to Truth. I cannot possibly part with it."
"Whyever not? Look at where Truth has lead your life ā to complete ruins, hasn't it?" The wise scholar explained, oh so patiently. "It has paid your dedication back with anguish and despair. Why should you live like that? Deceit would be far more merciful to you, and it would surely soothe your poor heart, if you'd let it."
The wise scholar had offered this morsel of Knowledge out of the goodness of his heart, and for a blissful moment, the king considered it. Sadly, the king could not see it as the act of goodwill that it was, too blinded by his own petty pride, restrained by his years of stubborn devotion to the false idol of 'Truth'.
"No, what you have said is a lie meant to mislead me. I can tell, because Deceit drips from your tongue like poison." The king foolishly declares, his face hardening with misplaced determination. "This must be a test sent to me from the Witches, to test my strength, and I will not fail so easiāā"
āNo, that's not quite right. Let's try again.
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived a great hero.
This great hero was benevolent, noble and self-righteous, known as a friend and ally to all, but he harboured a dark secret. His Soul Jam, the source of all of his awe-inspiring power, was not wholly his.
Indeed, it had once belonged to an illustrious sorceror, a manifestation of his very soul. But this sorceror had suffered a great injustice under the hands of the fickleminded Witches, and his Soul Jam had been torn asunder. While he had clung fiercely to one half, the other had slipped out of his grasp and fell into the hands of our great hero, the unwitting thief.
Of course, the sorceror came to confront the hero, to claim back what was rightfully his and reunite with the full extent of his power. But the hero was unwilling to give it up, and after much consideration, the sorceror decided to be gracious. He allowed the hero to keep his half of the Soul Jam, granted that he never stray from the sorceror's side.
For a blissful moment, it seemed like this compromise would work well for the both of them. One day, however, the hero approached the sorceror, fidgeting with his long sleeves.
"My Soul Jam calls for yours," The hero admits, soft and careful, "and so too does my soul. Even though I am by your side, it is not enough."
The sorceror smiled, flashing teeth, pleased by the admittance because it proved his emerging hypothesis correct. That the other half of the Soul Jam could not have landed in anyone else's hands but the hero's, for they were meant for each other.
"Then come closer." The sorceror goads, reaching for the hero. "Unite our two halves and become one with me, as it should be."
The hero does, pressing into the sorceror's arms, pushing the softened middles of their Soul Jams together until they begin to merge, light melting into the dark of the sorceror's tight embrace. Truth into the comfort of Deceit.
For a blissful moment, they are together and whole and one.
Then pain bursts through the sorceror's back and he screeches as the hero pushes and stumbles out of his twitching arms. The sorceror's wide, blurry eyes catch on the icy glint of a dagger in the hero's hand, sticky with jam.
The sorceror heaves as his hand scrambles to his own back, finding an open wound weeping thick jam that seeps through his clothes. He starts to taste it, sour on the back of his tongue. Sure enough, the hero had stabbed him in the back with a blade he had hidden in his long sleeves.
The hero stares down at him passively, unremorseful. The sorceror's back burns with gouging pain, and his chest burns with boiling rage, coming up through his teeth in a mighty growl. Jam leaks through his clenched fingers as he curls into himself, his Soul Jam crying in the hollow of his throat, calling for its traitorous other half, ringing, ringing, ringing, RINGING. "YOU--"
āNO! No, no, no, that's not right either, absolutely not. Let's take it from the top, one more time.
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived a humble shepard.
The shepard was sweet and languid as honey, content in spending his days tending to his vulnerable flock. He had no interest in the world at large, though he welcomed any travellers that passed through with friendliness, making peace in his little meadow.
One day, another shepard, hooded and pale, arrived at the meadow with a single sheep trailing sadly at his heels. He asked for a place to stay for the night, as he had recently lost the rest of the flock to a wolf and, in his grief, took to wandering the lands as a nomad.
The shepard, sweet as he was, agreed. He led the hooded shepard to his flock, where the hooded shepard settled his sheep in for the night. Then, he led the hooded shepard to his little cottage, where the hooded shepard settled himself in for the night, right beside the shepard in his small wooden bed.
Little did the shepard know, the hooded shepard laying beside him was, in reality, a wolfherd. Little did the shepard know, the sheep he had allowed to rest in the comfort of his poor flock was, in reality, a wolf bundled in sheep's wool, trained to behave mildly in the presence of Cookies.
When morning came, the shepard was horrified to find that his flock, which he had dutifully nutured since young, had been eaten whole. The wolfherd's wolf, smeared in red with its woolen disguise hanging off it in sticky clumps, trotted up to its master lazily as the shepard helplessly fell to his knees.
For a blissful moment, there was just the shepard's sobs as his world crumbled around him, ready to be remade.
Then, the wolfherd came up to the miserable shepard and lunged.
He pinned the teary shepard to the damp grass, bathing him in lamb blood as the wolfherd bared his fangs and dug his claws into dough, shedding a disguise of his own.
A thin throat gave way under the wolfherd's teeth, and he discoverd that the shepard really was as sweet as honey, all the way through, as jam spilled into his mouth. He made cracks as the shepard weakly tried to struggle, tearing into his dough in reprimand, in retribution. The shepard deserved it.
He dug into his chest with his wet teeth, pulling out his jammy heart, his pulsing Soul Jam, his writhing soul. He savoured it as he swallowed it whole, as the shepard went obediently still beneath him, because he deserves it, this is his, he is his, and the shepard deserves it too. He deserves it, he DESERVES it, HE DESERVES IT--
āHE DOES, he does, but not quite like that. No, no, something's still off. Maybe a change of angle is needed. A change of perspective.
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived a liar.
He was beautiful, magnificent in his dark robes and rough around the edges in a captivating way. He watched the world from the top of a spire, looking down on Cookiekind from above with dozens of golden eyes, turning his back on Truth.
The liar was not alone. At his side, and he at his, was the beast that strung the world in shimmering strings, playing the universe like a grand orchestra to seranade his companion. Their power did not just blend harmoniously; it was a singular one, feeding into an endless cycle between the two of them, driven by the thrum of their Soul Jam.
For a blissful forever, they stood together, casting the veil of Deceit over the world, dampening the blistering light of Truth until it coalesced into the shadow of Deceit, becoming what it always should have been. The two of them were unstoppable, bowing to nothing and nobody, rising above it all. They were unstoppable, they could have been, they would have been unstoppable-- IF--
āIF THOSE GNATS HADN'Tā IF HE HADN'Tā
(Stupid, traitorous, weak fool!)
āNo, no, enough, enough, enough. This still isn't getting anywhere. How about this?
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived a saint of Truth.
He was blindingly bright, too bright, and he could drive the shadow monsters away with a single swipe of his staff, so radiant was he. And yet, for all his shining power, he was also a complete idiot, driven by his soft, squishy heart.
For instead he cleaved the monster out of the shadow, held out a hand and said, "Let me be your...friend."
Friend. Friend. How ridiculous! Laughable, really, in its absolute stupidity. The saint's eyes were so soft, gentle in contrast to the harsh edge of the light, gooey like melted chocolate, like the saint was doing the monster a favour even though it was the other way around, it was SUPPOSED to be the OTHER WAY AROUND--
āNOPE, no, that's no good either. Come on, what else, what else, what elseā aha!
Once upon a time, in a land far away, there lived an angel.
This angel was once a shepard, once a king, once a hero, once a saint before he ascended to the light of the heavens. He was beautiful and benevolent, warm as sunlight, sweet as honey, blindingly bright and infuriatingly beloved. Until he wasn't.
You see, when the angel had ascended, he had thought that he had risen from the rock bottom of the river. He had foolishly believed that he now knew everything, that he had captured the essence of Knowledge through a brief meeting of two halves of a single Soul Jam.
He hadn't realised that a new rock bottom can always be created ā all you need to do is dig.
And so, the demon did, dragging the angel down from the picturesque heavens and back to him, backed by a symphony of screams.
The angel tried to reason with him, with his faulty logic. The angel tried to fight but wouldn't risk crumbling him for good. The angel tried to reach out to him, like he really, truly believed it would work.
In the end, the angel lays crumpled at the demon's feet in a heap, cheeks wet with tears but eyes tired and wild. His painful light dims into something bearable, close to snuffing out entirely, flickering weakly like a candle in the wind.
"You were right." The angel whispers, about his hope, about his kindness, about anything, about everything. "You were right. It was always going to end like this."
And when the angel looks up, it is as if he is giving all of himself to the demon. Properly, this time, no clever tricks even passing his mind. His life and soul forfeit.
There. Perfect.
Shadow Milk sighs, a heavy sound that thickens the air. He is not quite satisfied, because he cannot be, not with his dough crawling with restless viciousness, but he is satisfied enough. With the story, of course. Not with anything else.
Just thinking of that, Shadow Milk scowls, finally looking back down at his hands. He had forgotten about the little plush doll he was holding. It's a cute little replica of Pure Vanilla, small enough to fit neatly into the palms of his hands. He had been fiddling with it for no reason in particular, mostly agitated boredom.
In the midst of his storycrafting, he must have tightened his grip too hard. His claws have ripped its chest in half, stuffing bubbling out of the wound like sea foam.
He stares at it blankly for a moment, claws idly toying with the fluff. Then he narrows his eyes, growls, and twists his claws deeper into the tear.
Lonely, Pure Vanilla had said, with the absolute gall to act like he could read him perfectly. Like he could understand him.
As if! There was no way he understood him, and his new little light show only proved that. Whatever understanding Pure Vanilla thought he had was conjured by his own mind, his poor little heart's attempt to find a peaceful solution. It's like Shadow Milk had told them ā in the face of the unknown, Cookies tend to fill in the gaps with whatever fits best with their existing belief system, and what they want to believe is true.
Shadow Milk huffs, finally pulling his claws out of the Pure Vanilla doll. It's a sad looking thing, droopy with the lost stuffing. He considers it for a moment, before gingerly beginning to push the stuffing back in, tuft by tuft.
There is one thing Pure Vanilla got right, though. He really is the only one with the potential to truly understand Shadow Milk. He was close to it, even, tantalisingly close before he pulled himself back out again, but he hadn't gotten there yet.
Shadow Milk knows that he hasn't. Because Shadow Milk knows what it will take to get him there, and it involves tearing him to shredsā
Shadow Milk summons old marionette strings, now mostly unused, and begins to sew up the open chest of the doll with lazy flicks of his finger. Despite the casual movement, the stitches are precise and perfect. Once he's done, the doll looks almost as good as new, but inarguably altered.
ābefore fixing him back up in Shadow Milk's design.
Only then would Pure Vanilla really be able to understand Shadow Milk. Only then would Shadow Milk believe it.
Shadow Milk rubs his thumb over the doll's cheek, something ugly twisting in his chest. His claws twitch, eager to tear the doll apart again, to have an outlet, but he refrains because he does have self-control and he just fixed it.
Instead, he lifts the doll up and presses a kiss to the little stitched star on its forehead. No, not a kiss. It's more like a curse, a harsh press of lips with the slightest snarl of teeth, with enough pressure to create a dent in its soft head.
Yes, this isn't the end. They have eternity, after all. The wait may be agonising, but eventually, he'll understand him. Shadow Milk will make sure of it.
The something in his chest loosens just slightly, as if relieved.
It's absolutely fast thing and not something complicated. But I really wanted to do it with this song because....uh..I really have to idk sorry
Song: Alexander Rybak - Fairytale Programs used: Procreate + AlightMotion ā¦WATCH ON TIKTOKā¦
I just COULD NOT resist character design analysis.
High res. Top. Bottom.
A zoom in on Smilk's little corner. (I made this chart recently, but I was having theories before his Beast Raid update is crazy what.)
(Newer version of this analysis coming soon...)
Adding this composition analyses, too.
Now, HERE IS MY PREDICTION.
I blame @computerful for dragging me into this mess. You're fucking welcome for connecting the dots out and literally everything for you btw.
Ethereal beings?
Raw, hot, steamy, next question
(another quick sketch :3)
a little late to deny the kiss pv
be careful who you take advice from
inspo: this preview from the Korean CRK stream and also the idea/headcanon of SM and Bill hanging out
Forgive the quality I drew this quickly at 4am, had to get in out of my head sjsjsj
My favourite part about Jinshi and Maomao is that Jinshi thinks that his charms are not enough to work on Maomao while she thinks that Jinshi is so beautiful that he could topple over nations if he wanted.
She said something like "if a woman saw him she would lose her mind and a man would immediately pounce on him"
Been rereading TGCFā¦
My favourite part about Jinshi and Maomao is that Jinshi thinks that his charms are not enough to work on Maomao while she thinks that Jinshi is so beautiful that he could topple over nations if he wanted.
She said something like "if a woman saw him she would lose her mind and a man would immediately pounce on him"
I need help finding a Xingyun fic. I last read it in November 2023. The basic premise (what I remember) is that a clan invaded and took over Liyue. Xingqiu (as with apparently many other "upper class" Liyuens) was taken as a hostage. Then for some gross reason, was taken a concubine (š¤¢) by either the main bad guy or his brother. There is plenty stabbing and burning of things. Pls, I will do a free fanart commission for the person who finds it! (NO NSFW)
More Zhongven content! Also I was sick real bad so I couldn't answer asks :( I'll get to it soon promise!
Also venti is is saying "lay wine in my grave" in German
I know Iāve spoken about it before but I think I have a form of face blindness that makes it impossible to tell apart conventionally āattractiveā white men beyween the ages of 25 and 45 and it makes it really difficult to watch movies sometimes.
you know whatās a trope that never gets tired is when theyre bouncing around in the plot and suddenly an important name crops up- itās blorbo bleebus. and some dude is like who the hell is blorbo bleebus. and we immediately cut to our new friend blorbo bleebus pulling the most absolutely buckwild shit youāve ever seen
Why the fuck is the Devil in the Cuphead show so fucking fruity?! SIR YOUR VOICE?!
"The Astral Express. Your friends smile warmly behind you."
2024 the year of toxic old man yaoi
Art dump (Mostly Fanart)
yuri and yaoi are some of the best, most sacred things in the entire world
School mcfuckin sucks, I am so tired. Gonna dunk my head in ice water next week, then possibly desecrate a body. (Cadaver Lab)