I Yearn For A Boyfriend. I Yearn For Romance, Which At The Same Time Is Also Friendship. I Yearn For

I yearn for a boyfriend. I yearn for romance, which at the same time is also friendship. I yearn for a deep connection with another human being that no one but us can understand, a connection that can't be put into words.

I yearn for those late night deep talks. Tell me what you're feeling, what's affecting you, and all the things you regret not doing. I'll tell you what im struggling with, what used to be, and what im scared of. While we hold each other, talking about anything and everything without fear of judgement. I want someone to understand me and someone I can understand.

I yearn to be near him, to touch and feel him, to feel his touch. I wish we could meet every day and do stupid shit together. He'll show me his favourite places, and I'll show him mine. We'd go on stupid little dates, have picnics, explore the woods together.

I want someone I can love hard. Someone I can love passionatley and obsessively. Not the toxic-obsessive kind of love. I want pure and raw emotions, rough touch, bite marks, honesty, and unyielding affection. All of that willingly from both sides. I want someone I can make gifts to, someone I can hold and touch, someone I can whisper sweet words to, someone I can just sit in silence with. I want to cook for him so we can have dinner together while he tells me about his day, and I'll listen.

Im bad at putting my emotions into words, I will never be able to express all the weird things im feeling by transforming them into words. But writing this down might help.

I dont know if im asking for too much, if im too needy or too picky. I dont even know if im able to love properly or if it's even possible to love me like that.

I just want someone.

I want someone to love me.

I yearn for love.