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life is so good when ur reading a book and taking it w u everywhere like your little child

reader's block is killing meeeeeeeeeeee

I'm like a girl who wants to read more books but doesn't

what am i smiling at ? the made up scenarios of course

must be nice to be able to let things go, unfortunately everything that has ever happened to me never leaves my mind

Iconic Things I heard today while I was walking down the street.

"Did your brain finally collapse on itself from the weight of your ego?"

December 12, 2023 8:47 pm

Me and a friend of mine were discussing about my train of thoughts. i told my friend that my train of thoughts doesnt necessarily need to be defined as over thinking. the track of my train does go in a continuous loop from time to time but most of the time it goes straight with slight bends and curves.

I told him there were happy thoughts in here too. nice and comforting ones. and the ones that save me too. And he asked me if i could give him an example.

I told him about one of my realization thoughts i had recently. it was one of those thoughts that just stuck with me. I realized i find my cosmic insignificance very reassuring. We are always waiting and ready to be alive and do something and exist. I know I am. To the point where it drives my anxiety. Existing becomes my greatest fear. Existentialism, something i have craved from as long as i could differentiate souls and objects, becomes so horrifying. So, at times like this, it is comforting to realize that universe might just not give a shit about me. Like the universe doesn't care that i messed up that one time two days ago. and the stars dont care wht i do. i exist on my on terms so i don't owe this life to anyone. and sometimes that thought really helps calm everything down.

Sometimes I think i relate with Amanda from the poem 'Amanda' by Robin Klein and I just wanna climb up that tower and stay there and never let my hair down for anyone.