Hannibal (2013-2015)

Perfect ref for Dutch

every time eric bogosian talks about daniel molloy like they're the same person an angel gains its wings

we'll be in hell together after all

shoutout to daniel molloy for being horny not in spite of the horrors but because of them

I need to see the “your wife counting down your thrusts” scene in s3. Daniel has a flashback of him and Alice fucking and he thinks that she’s the one who’s looking at him bored and probably counting in her head but then it switches to Armand just sitting there bored out of his mind while he counts Daniel’s thrusts out loud: “1,2,3… come on boy is that the best you can do? Fuck me harder, faster.” And Daniel is shaking, sweating, crying out of pure humiliation. He wants to satisfy Armand but Armand is cold towards him, making fun of him and continues to count Daniel’s thrusts until they finish finding enjoyment in Daniel’s suffering.

At a point Armand considers to flip Daniel and ride him so they can finish faster but he wants to see how long Daniel can last.

I literally hate every job in the world. I don’t want them. I don’t want ANY of them!

lbf has given me the so-called ick seven times, i have borderline cyber bullied him on tumblr with everyone + used him as a human niche white boy shield for our shared morrissey appreciation, and generally would have not considered him a man i’d go to war for so imagine my surprise when i saw a comment of genuine lbf disdain today and was suddenly filled with the rage of a thousand riots and arsons

We need to do the same level of "abandon this completely" to neil gaiman as we did (and should continue to do) to jkr. Im serious. If i catch you buying more sandman comics or a different good omens copy you dont need or more of the graveyard book or coraline i will lose it. The man is a rapist. Full stop, all caps RAPIST. He doesnt deserve more money. The pratchett estate wont die out if u stop buying good omens. Theres plenty of authors who probably write leagues better than him and arent evil predators. He needs to die penniless and obscure.

Thinking about how, whether he is conscious of it or not, Armand has already partially broken the cycle of abuse he was subjected to, simply by not turning Daniel when he was young.

The precise nature of Armand's very existence is a permanent reminder of what he was forced to live through, regardless of if he even has the ability to process the trauma in the first place. If he so much as catches his reflection out of the corner of his eye, he is reminded of the coveting and commodification of his youth and how the most innocent time of his life was weaponised against him. He is frozen there. His face looks so innocent because it creates a satisfying contrast with his actions narratively, but its also because he was. He was innocent. And that was stolen from him by selfish, greedy people who pretended their actions were out of love.

By letting Daniel go (assuming Devil's Minion era happened in the seventies), Armand protected him from this. Daniel experienced his entire youth and what it was like to age out of it without the fear of no longer having value like Armand did, and then came adulthood. He has lived to an age that Arun never could have dreamt of, that Amadeo was forced to realise, at one point, he would never experience, not in the human sense at least. He'll never have lines on his face like Daniel does. His worry lines and smile lines will never deepen. He won't develop crow's feet from squinting in the sun, which turned its back on him long ago anyway. His hair will never grey. Marius made certain of that.

But Daniel got to have all of that. His beloved got to live his life, fuck it up over and over and make a million mistakes. He had the freedom and the agency to do it. Armand will not see it, but he gave Daniel exactly what was taken from him so long ago. He is not just evil. He does not destroy everything. He gave Daniel the real gift, and now they get to move onto the next stage of Daniel's life together (after a couple seasons of slow burn I would imagine).

Just as he sees the tragedy of his past on his own face, he sees the potential he has to be different on Daniel's. He has immortalised true beauty in Daniel. The beauty of having lived a long life.

"My sleep was deep and invigorating." (Try to cover up the blood seeping out with your hands.) He's still worried. You must have really thrashed and squealed in your sleep.