Using The CMYK Colour Model

i love when a character has something terrible happen to them and as a result they see themself as, essentially if not literally, a ghost. and so that means they only can (and have to) do what ghosts do, ie get revenge and then cease to exist. easy as that. but then halfway through this ghost vengeance they realize hey actually i might still be a human person. with human needs. that’s incredibly inconvenient, considering how much i’ve invested in this whole ghost thing

I have not stopped writing the trilogy. It was not even supposed to be a book and I tried to drop it multiple times but now that I have reviewed a plan it probably will be a trilogy... It's been a decade.

I AM ALMOST COMPLETELY SOULLESS!!!!!!

I AM INCAPABLE OF BEING HUMAN!!!!!!!!

I AM INCAPBALE OF BEING INHUMAN!!!!!!!!!!

I AM LIVING. UNCONTROLLABLY!!!!!!!!!!!

the hadron collider is like an angel to me

how it feels "trusting the process" as a writer/artist

hey, so i just read "the psychology of the transference" by c.g. jung bc my psychoanalyst told me to. all of the misogyny, rampant racism and overconfident speculation on the role of incestuos desires for the human psyche aside (lmao), i found it a worthwhile read. one of the main points that he seems to make in regards to alchemy is that it wasn't *really* about chemistry/material processes, but more about the images and metaphors used to describe the alchemical process. and jung compares this alchemical imagery, which in large parts revolves around themes of divisions and fusions, to subconscious (psychic) processes that in his opinion also revolve around divisions and fusions (like dissolutions or integrations of the self, contradictions in gender relations and other social relations, etc). and idk, that part makes sense to me. did alchemists really care about the physical world? or did they care about gender, sex, identity, art, death, the horrors, etc?

YES. THE TEXTS HE IS TALKING ABOUT ARE PROTO-CHEMISTRY WORKS.

Alchemy was demonstrably, overwhelmingly, about the physical world. Jung's psychological interpretations of them are --and I cannot stress this enough-- entirely invented ahistorical bullshit.

I cannot overstate the amount of damage that Jung has done to alchemical scholarship. His interpretations of alchemical texts have caused literally thousands of historical proto-chemistry texts to languish in the historical wastebin of "Psychological mumbo jumbo" or "it's just old therapy language tee hee!"

What's worse is he actively misrepresents many of the actual religious or mystical ideas present in the texts he cites. For example, many alchemical texts in the Arab world we're the result of Isma-ili mystics from northern Africa and more gnostic-influenced parts of the early Muslim world. Their equivocation of Hermes Trismegistus with the biblical Enoch, and unique relationship to both hermeticism and Jewish apocrypha, gets ENTIRELY sidelined in Jung's reading, in favor of "it's just early psychology."

Furthermore, Jung tries to make the argument that these images present in alchemical texts are somehow representative of some deeper, universal structure within human psychology. Which is, --again I cannot stress this enough-- howling clown bullshit. Alchemical texts are similar because chemistry works the same wherever you are on the planet. He actively ignores the hermeneutics of different alchemical theories, which change RADICALLY depending on culture and location.

All this in service of adding a pseudo-historical foundation for psychological theories that are about as scientific as astrology.

i think laios touden is cis purely out of convenience. i think he feels absolutely no attachment to gender one way or the other, but he's in the dungeon so that's like the least of his concerns at the moment. i think if he sat down and thought about it for more than a few seconds he would be some flavor of nonbinary but gender is not monsters or grilling so he doesnt give a shit

me: hmmm. I wonder why fangs and horns feel like they'd be gender affirming? I think perhaps it's because experiencing transphobia is so dehumanizing, and knowing that people find my body monstrous makes me feel very small, and if there were something about me that were actually monstrous, something about me to fear & hate that truly isn't human, I could lean into it, revel in it even, delight in the discomfort my body causes other people and be proud of it and love myself. maybe I could learn to feel that way anyway. Mayb 12 year old me, manifesting into the room with her nintendo DS: it's because fangs are hot. they're sexy. do you wanna play nintendogs or are you too esoteric now