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When I say "connect with nature" I don't just mean the aesthetic forests with deer and beautiful flowers.
I mean the weeds growing through concrete, the fungus that grows on the rotten shed, the nettles that always seem to return and the scary, spindly cellar spider in the corner of the bathroom.
Nature is not always pretty or magical - the pigeons and seagulls you swat at are nature too, the wasps and flies that hover by your meals are animals too, store-bought strawberries and the leaves that fall from your neighbour's tree are not all that different from the Giant Sequoias and it's seeds.
If you want to connect and understand nature, I mean *really* connect to it, in it's entirety, you have to seek out and learn about the ugly, scary and mundane things as well. You don't have to like it, just don't forget that it's there.
Herb's Properties
Basil: money, luck, prosperity, happiness
Bay Leaf: energy, cleansing, can be charged with almost any intention
Camomile: Caring, kindness, luck, growth, self-love growth, confidence, avoiding negativity, happiness
Cinnamon: passion, quick success, fire magick
Chia seeds: Growth, health, kindness, Property
Chilli flakes: Pride, confidence, power, strength, Passion
Cumin: Courage, bravery, protection, loyalty
Dandelion: wishes, charisma, success, good luck
Dill: sexual love, luck, protection
Eucalyptus: cleansing, healing, purifying, relaxing, comfort
Fennel: hate, anger
Flax seeds: Prosperity, growth, new beginnings
Ginger: fiery passion, success, and personal power
Jasmine: love, dreams, sensuality, luxury and kindness
Lavender: love and attraction, purification, relaxation, restful sleep
Nutmeg: luck, Health, Fidelity, Love, Prosperity, comfort, loyalty
Oregano: comfort, love, warmth
Paprika: Pride, confidence, power, strength
Parsley: Cleansing. purification
Peppermint: healing, purification, love and energy, cleansing, prosperity
Poppy seeds: protection, intuition, self-assurance, hexing and cursing
Rose: love, beauty, harmony, romance, attraction
Rosemary: cleansing, purification, wisdom, protection
Sesame seeds: Prosperity, growth, health, nurturing
Spearmint: love, cleansing, renewal, blessing
Sunflower seeds: happiness, growth, joy
Thyme: beauty, strength, courage
Turmeric: confidence, creativity, energy
Vanilla: love and sexuality
tip jar
27 NB New to ED MDNI 5'
sw : 225lbs
lw: 161.5 -4/25/25
cw: 163.7lbs
gw: 145lbs
ugw: 110lbs
I am pro-recovery for everyone but myself
shoutout to the men with 3ds
shoutout to the trans people with 3ds
shoutout to the overweight people with 3ds
shoutout to the adults with 3ds
shoutout to the people with 3ds that aren’t 4n4 or m1a
shoutout to the people with 3ds that have never been hospitalized
shoutout to the people with 3ds that nobody knows about
shoutout to everyone with 3ds. you are so so strong, and I see you.
Shout out to the 4n4 girlies (and guys) who ARENT anywhere close to societally presentable as 4n4.
The ones who go to the doctor and get told to keep losing weight
The ones whose family hasn’t gotten worried yet
The ones who feel like they can’t mention 4n4 without being disbelieved/told they should starve more.
I see you and I hear you and you’re valid.
Where are all my adult anas?
It's a different world stepping into Eds shoes again half way through life.
I don't have to worry about my parents getting mad at me
I don't have to worry about my school teachers getting mad at me
I don't have the typical teenage drama that spurred this mentality shift
I remember Ed being a call a shout for help just to be seen and cared for as a teenager. But now no one sees me, I have no watchful eyes on me. No one whispering under their breath, no parents staring at me across the dinner table as I play with a half eaten plate, no boy trouble or pubescent drama fueled by hormonal rage and indifference. I'm not doing this to impress the boy I like or try to fit in with the popular kids.
I am invisible
Except from myself.
I'm in a strange state of visible translucency. I tell people I'm fasting and they believe me, I tell people I'm too tired to come meet them for dinner they believe me.
Fuck, even my live out partner whose been here for the last 3 days who I have said the words 4norexi4 to and who has watched me consume nothing but tea for 3 days doesn't question my choices.
How different a world it is when you're seen but not seen. I am validated but I remain a shadow.
To have those ribs.
Stop pretending you’re trying when all you do is sabotage yourself.
You swear you want this, but your actions prove otherwise.
Do you think change happens to people who give in every time their stomach begs for food? It doesn’t.
Change happens to those who know how to suffer—who choose to suffer.
You’re weak because you keep choosing comfort over progress. And if you don’t see a difference in the mirror tomorrow, you have no one to blame but yourself.
Hunger isn’t the enemy.
It’s the only path to freedom.
Do you want to be proud of yourself for once in your miserable life? Then stop feeding your failures.
Every time you eat, you’re choosing to stay disgusting.
Every time you listen to your cravings, you’re proving you don’t want this badly enough.
Hunger is your friend. Embrace it, suffer through it, and let it carve you into someone worth looking at.
Be hungry, or be disgusting.
The choice is yours.
But don’t you dare whine about hating your body if you can’t even endure the price of fixing it.
