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Married Life

Plot: You’re married to Loki, but it’s not perfect.

Players: Loki x Reader

Features: Smut, praise kink, orgasm denial, fingering.

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Walking in I toss my keys in the dish by the door, the house is quiet "I wonder where they are?" I mumble to myself.

Rounding the corner into the living room my question is answered, there on the sofa lays my husband fast asleep, in his arms and pressed against his chest is our daughter. Quietly I admire them, so peaceful and sound, Loki's messy curls falling in his face, his shirt crumpled from a long day. She has his hair, our daughter, unruly raven curls, right now they were closed but she has his beautiful green eyes as well.

Running my fingers through his hair I wake him "Welcome home dear" he smiles up at me, leaning down I press my lips to his softly "How are things in the science world?" He asks.

"Sciency" I tease.

“When will Stark stop having you work such long hours?" He asks.

“Its not his fault Lok" I reply heading to the kitchen for some water.

Loki gently sets our daughter on the couch and follows me "I'm not blaming anyone" he insists "But I miss you, Elyse misses you" he motions to the daughter we share.

“You think I don't miss you both too?" I snap.

"Why do you always do this?" Loki asks.

“Do what?" I press.

"Fight with me?" He answers.

“I'm not fighting with you" I shrug.

"Yes you are, it's 10 pm, and when she wakes you'll already be gone, she doesn't know her mother" Loki argues.

"Well at least she has daddy, mister perfect" I mock.

“Stop it" he snaps.

"Right, imagine if she found out daddy was a murderer and a tyrant back in the day" I hiss.

"What is your problem?" Loki asks.

“Every night you play these 20 questions with me Loki! I'm tired of it" I raise my voice a bit at him.

"I ask because I want my wife back, before Elyse and this job....." Loki chuckles.

"What? Finish" I insist.

"I remember a time, quite fondly actually, when I fucked you right here on this table" he says leaning back in his chair.

Flashes of the night play through my mind, tangled limbs, Loki's skin against mine, he doesn't kiss me like that anymore.

I smile at the memory “I guess your attraction faded after awhile" I shrug.

"Oh no, you still turn me on darling" Loki smirks.

"Do I?" I lean forward "Since when?" I press.

"This morning" Loki states.

"Really?" I’m shocked leaning back.

"Oh yes. I caught a glimpse of you in the shower" he admits.

What he didn't tell me was that when it was his turn to shower he fucked his hand to the thought of me, though I'd seen him a few times before, I never knew he was always imagining me. My eyes travel to his groin, his dick was semi-erect, I could see it pressing against his pants, now up to his jaw line, clenched in frustration, I linger on his lips, soft and inviting.

Another flash, my imagination took control, Loki's tongue on mine, panting and moaning, he'd tell me how I was his good girl.

Loki stands, his erection more evident now "I'm going to bed" he sighs, he knows and I do too, that his erection won't take care of itself. I can hear his footsteps in our room as he moves around above me.

Scooping up Elyse I take her to her bedroom upstairs and tuck her in and head to the room I share with Loki. When I enter I see him standing by our bed rubbing his temples "Loki" I whisper closing the door behind me.

“What? I'm done talking" he sighs.

“I don't want to talk" I purr kissing him.

Working quickly I unbutton his shirt taking it off and admiring his still perfect form, light kisses left on the muscles on his chest as I unbutton his pants sliding my hand inside. Taking him in my hand Loki groans, he's so hard I can only imagine how badly he wants it "I'll take care of you" I purr pulling his pants down as I kneel before him.

“No" Loki mutters "I just want to fuck you" he says helping me to my feet.

As I undress he kicks his pants off, laying me down while his lips travel from my neck to my thighs and back up to my lips, he is worshiping every inch of me, savoring this time I've given him "Loki....please" I beg, realizing how badly I want him inside me.

Slowly he slides into me, letting out a moan "I missed this" he groans "I missed you" the latter a whisper as he nuzzles my neck and begins to move inside me.

“I'm sorry baby" I offer leaving open mouthed kisses on his shoulder and neck.

Loki looks down at me "Do you still love me?" he asks.

Yes.....I do...I love you so much" I answer between moans, Loki's cock glides along my velvet walls as he pumps into me, it had been so long I forgot how it felt when we were together, after all our daughter was 6 now and the sex had been non existent since she turned 4. Loki's hand grips my thigh as he pushes deeper into me "Loki....don't stop...." I beg him.

“Not until you're a whimpering mess beneath me darling" he purrs, his tongue delves into my mouth as he tries to ravish all of me.

“Loki....do you still love me too?" I ask.

“I'll always love you my queen" he answers. Arching my back into him my nails dig into his shoulders "Not yet darling" Loki groans.

His forehead rests against mine, snaking my hands up his neck I tangle my fingers in his hair, and unable to control it any longer my cunt clenches around Loki's cock as I cum bringing him with me. Muffling his moan Loki buries his face in my neck as he cums and fills me with his seed, then rolling off of me he lays down next to me panting and smiling, immediately I lay my head on his heaving chest "I love you Loki, I'm sorry I haven't been the best wife" I offer.

Loki lifts my head to look at him "You're a good wife and an excellent mother and I love you" he says.

Laying there in his arms I realize he deserves better, he's always given me everything and been an excellent father to Elyse, the least I could do is fuck him occasionally, the most I could do is try every day to show him how much I love and cherish him the way he does for me.

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In the morning I roll over to Loki still soundly sleeping next me, unbothered by waking him I scoot over and kiss him softly.

His eyes flutter open "Morning darling" he smiles.

“Good Morning my love" I reply, the doorknob rattles and Loki magics clothing onto the both of us just as Elyse opens our door "Morning baby" I say sweetly as she crawls up to snuggle in her fathers arms.

“Morning mama" she answers, Loki kisses her sweetly on the cheek and I wonder what I did to deserve him and this family he's built with me.

Combing her hair from her face Loki smiles as he talks to her "Did you tell mommy what you learned yesterday?" He asks her.

“What did you learn baby?" I ask her.

“I'm special like daddy" she smiles.

“You are?!" I answer excitedly, tears well in my eyes as a lump develops in my throat, I hoped she'd be like him but I didn't think she actually would be.

“Yeah! Daddy was teaching me tricks yesterday!!" She laughs.

“ Oh dear, what did he teach you?" I ask.

"Oh I just taught her some harmless transformations with some rocks don't worry" Loki answers "Meet daddy in the kitchen and I'll get you some breakfast ok princess?" Loki tells her.

“Ok!" She yells and jumps down running down stairs.

"Loki I'm so glad she's like you" my voice cracks.

"I didn't tell her mommy was magic too" he says.

"I will some day, but transformations are your power" I say.

"Come here" he says hooking his hand on my neck and pulls me into a kiss "I'm afraid if I let you go I'll lose you again" he whispers.

“You won't. I promise" I answer.

I wanted him again right there and right now, like I did before when I couldn't get enough of him. I remember one night at one of Stark's parties I pulled him into a bathroom and he fucked me on the counter top.

“I remember that too, that was fun" Loki teases.

"Reading my thoughts! Really Loki?" I sigh.

Loki smirks at me "Remember this one?" Loki touches his index finger to my temple and a memory flashes in.

Rain falling outside the Avengers compound, the warm kind in the summer. Loki and I thought it would be funny to take Tony's favorite car for a joyride and afterward I practically pounced him and fucked him right there in the car. The windows fogged, the car shook and I feared getting caught the whole time

“That was when we first met" I smile.

"Do you remember the first time we snuck in your room?" Loki asks.

“Sort of, why?" I answer.

"It's my favorite memory, that was when I knew I was hopelessly in love with you" He admits "I wanted to stay with you so badly, but it didn't seem right, I felt awful for leaving while you slept" he explains.

“Clearly it had a profound effect on my feelings toward you" I tease.

"Something has" Loki says softly looking away.

“Nothing has, Loki I'm sorry things went off course with us but I love you so much, I don't want anything else" I plead "What if I take Elyse to Tony's this weekend? She can sleep over with Morgan and..." Loki interrupts me with a kiss.

"Please do that, I love her so much but I need a break" he laughs "I think the two of us alone is a great idea" he smiles.

“Wonderful, but for now, she is downstairs and waiting for daddy to get her breakfast" I tease.

"I think mommy should do it" he smirks.

“Loki she went straight to you" I say crawling out of bed.

“Darling you're not here as much, but she loves you" he assures following me out of the room.

Entering the kitchen I find Elyse watching the birds outside the window, she waves her hand and one of them becomes a butterfly "Did you teach her that?" I ask Loki.

“Perhaps" he smiles.

“What are you doing sweetie?" I ask her.

“Playing with the leaves" she shrugs.

“Leaves?" Loki and I both repeat in confusion.

"Yeah, first I made them birds and then butterflies" she explains.

“She's better than you" I tease Loki.

"No she's not" he huffs.

“Hey princess, so I know daddy was going to get you breakfast, but what if mommy makes waffles?" I ask her.

"Can I have chocolate chips?" She asks.

"Of course baby" I agree.

“Yes!" She celebrates.

“Chocolate chips?" Loki asks.

“You want some big boy?" I tease.

“I'd rather have some of this" Loki comes up behind me grabbing my sides and kissing my neck "I love you" he whispers.

After breakfast Elyse runs outside to play while Loki helps me clean up. After drying the last dish I feel Loki's hands sliding up my thighs as he nips at my neck "Loki.." I protest.

“Shhh" he replies, his hand slipping down my into pants to cup my core.

“Loki I have to go soon" I remind him, I was expected at the lab in an hour. Instead of stopping I feel one of Loki's long and dexterous fingers slide inside of me "Oh...Loki....please I don't have time" I groan slamming my hand down on the counter top, in slips a second finger. Using all my effort I stifle my moans by biting down on my lip until it bleeds as Loki's fingers pump and curl inside me "Please Loki...." I moan begging him to stop "I have to get ready" I groan.

"Then be a good girl and I'll let you go" Loki purrs.

“What do you want?" I ask him.

“Tell me you love me" Loki says.

“Loki you know I do" I moan.

“Say it, tell me I'm the only man you'll ever love" he demands.

“You are Loki" I say breathlessly.

“Tell me, you have to say it or you can't go" Loki says, his fingers moving faster inside of me.

"Loki......oh my god....please....please" I beg as he brings me right to the edge and stops.

“You know what I want and I know what you want" Loki growls “I want to hear you say it and you want to cum. Do it for me and I'll do it for you" he purrs.

“Loki please! I'm going to be late" I beg.

“It's a simple request darling" he answers, sliding his fingers out and rubbing my clit.

"Fuck....Loki....I love you, I love you so much. I love your lips, I love your smile, I love your laugh, I love your smell.......I love everything about you" I whine.

“That's a good girl" he purrs slipping his fingers back in and pumping them quickly and before I know it I'm cuming, gushing onto his hand "Loki...." I moan, my legs shaking beneath me and my knees giving out.

“Shh" Loki says quietly, grabbing my waist to hold me up "I've got you baby" he whispers.

“I'm definitely going to be late now" I stare panting breathlessly.

"I'm not sorry" he replies.

“I'm not either" I tell him turning around to kiss him.

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When I finally arrive to the lab I am about 45 minutes late, I didn’t bother to call or check in either.

"You're late" Tony remarks.

“Yeah" I reply.

That's it? Just yeah? No sorry Mr. Stark or anything?" Tony teases.

“No, quite frankly I'm not sorry" I shrug.

“What has gotten into you today?" Tony asks.

“My husband" I answer.

“I’m sorry what?" Tony raises his eyebrow at me.

With a heavy sigh I turn and face him "I'm late because I was fucking my husband. You know Loki? We have a daughter together, you keep me from him a lot" I huff.

“Woah! Woah! Kiddo I don't need any more details!" Tony stops me "But, if you want to spend more time with your family just say it, you only get one shot with them" Tony says.

Now is my opportunity to ask my favor "Well actually I was hoping Elyse could spend the weekend with Morgan?" I ask.

“Why?" Tony asks cautiously.

“I need some alone time with Loki" I tell him.

"Gross" Tony shivers.

“Tony! I'm serious, I'm terrified he's going to leave me, we haven't so much as been on a date since our daughter was born" I confess.

“Who's fault is that?" Tony asks.

“Mine" I admit. Tony sighs but before he can speak.

"We'd love to have Elyse over, she's Morgan's favorite friend" Pepper says.

“Yes apparently we don't have best friends, we have favorite ones, I don't really follow" Tony explains.

“Thank you Pep, we owe you big time" I tell her giving her a hug. Tony and I are working on prototypes and upgrades for his existing tech and new ideas when my phone buzzes with a text from Loki.

Loki: Our daughter has discovered she can move things with her mind, our lives are about to get so much worse darling

Me: It's fine, we will teach her not to abuse it

Loki: Respectfully my lovely wife, you aren't home right now

Me: Do I need to be?

Loki: Technically no

Me: ?

Loki: I'm not saying that things are broken, but I'm also not saying they aren't

Me: Excuse me? Is she throwing a fit?

Loki: She is not

You: I'm confused?

Loki: She just thinks it is funny when daddy panics

I call Loki for more details "Hello darling" he says timidly.

“Give her the phone" I demand.

“Elyse, it's mommy" I inform her.

“Hi mommy!" She chimes.

“What are you doing to daddy?" I ask.

“Nothing" she lies.

“I know that's not true and if you don't stop giving him a hard time I won't let you go to Morgan's this weekend understood?" I tell her.

"Yes mommy, I'll be good I promise" she replies.

"Good give daddy the phone" I request.

“So Stark agreed then?" Loki asks.

“It was more Pepper than Tony but yes" I explain.

"Wonderful" he says "I'll get her ready to go" he adds.

“Loki" I stop him from hanging up.

“Yes love?"he purrs.

“I love you" I tell him.

“I love you too" he replies.

Later on Loki drops Elyse off with me so that Pepper can take her home with Morgan for the weekend "Thanks for brining her down" I tell him.

“Of course" Loki smiles leaning in for a kiss, I turn my face presenting my cheek instead, something I did to him often.

“For god sakes! kiss your damn husband" Stark harasses me walking by.

Turning to Loki I see the hurt on his face, I'm already doing it again. Grabbing him I pull him into me and kiss him deeply "I love you" I whisper.

“Sometimes I wonder darling" Loki replies leaving a kiss on my forehead before walking away.

As I watched him I tried to figure out what it was that had changed, it used to be that I couldn't get enough of him, and now most days I couldn't stand to be around him. He hadn't changed a bit though, he was still the handsome chiseled god that I had fallen in love with, if a bit softer now, maybe that was part of it, Loki used to treat me like his property, dominating me and asserting his authority whenever he could, but ever since our daughter was born he's changed, worshiping me and pleasing me at every turn, I wanted my master back.

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The house was still when I got back, quiet and peaceful inside. It looked like the light in the den was on so after tossing my keys down I headed that way, Loki sat with a book in the big armchair under the corner lamp reading, a strand of hair hanging in his face. He didn't look up when I entered, he must still be upset, taking off my coat and pulling up my skirt a bit I crawl onto his lap taking his book away from him. Making him look up at me it becomes evident that he had been crying.

“Is this my fault Loki?" I ask.

“Some of it" he answers honestly, I lean in to kiss him but he rebuffs me standing up and forcing me off of him.

“Loki..." I start but he quickly interrupts turning to face me.

“I think we should get a divorce" his words strike like a sword through my heart as I crumple to the floor.

It's not that I'm surprised, it's that hearing those words caused a pain that confirmed that I was in fact still irrevocably and madly in love with him. Loki kneels in front of me placing a hand on my shoulder, my anger wants to scream at him never to touch me again, but my sorrow has me lunging at him to bury my face in his chest and sobbing.

“I'm so sorry Loki, this is all my fault" I manage through gasping breaths "I'll do whatever you need to be happy, I'll always love you" I tell him.

"I didn't expect this reaction" he admits.

“What did you expect?" I ask him softly.

“A cold and emotionless agreement" he confesses "Not this, not you falling apart in my arms in pain at the thought of me leaving" he continues.

"Does it matter?" I ask.

“It does, this is someone who loves me still, this is a sign of hope, that we can be happy again still" he says sitting back and pulling me into his lap.

“I do love you, I always will" I insist.

Something about the way he looked took me back to when I first met him, I was unsure if it was the messiness of his hair, the way the light was hitting him or what it was, but in his eyes I saw my old self again, the one that was vibrant and happy, was that all it was? Was it so simple that my happiness was Loki himself and by pushing him away I lost it.

I reach up to comb my fingers through his hair "I'm sorry for pushing you away, I won't make excuses, I don't know why I did it, all I know is that I'm sorry and I love you so much. Loki I would give up everything I have to be with you" I tell him.

“You don't have to give up anything, you just have to stop pushing me away" Loki replies "Can you do that?" he asks.

“Yes Loki, I can, I promise I can" I reply starting to cry again.

“Shhh, I love you so much baby, but lately you've been breaking my heart" Loki confesses.

“I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Loki" I offer.

I know, listen..." Loki says tilting my chin to have me look up at him "I'd rather fight for you than walk away, so if you want to fix this then I'm with you" he states matter of factly.

“I do want to" I answer.

Loki kisses my lips softly, then both my cheeks and works his lips down to my neck "You're still so beautiful, do you know that?" he purrs.

Truth be told I had felt disgusting ever since I had our daughter, I'd felt my body had changed and never returned and that I wasn't really worthy of Loki anymore "No, I don't feel beautiful" I answer honestly

“Well you're breath taking to me" Loki replies "I love you so much" he purrs nuzzling my neck.

“I love you too mischief" I whisper back.

Loki pulls back and stares at me.

“What?" I ask him.

“You haven't called me mischief in years" he says quietly.

“Oh I..." Loki interrupts me with a kiss.

“I've missed it" he mumbles against my lips.

“Are you going to fuck me right here on the rug?" I tease.

“Probably" Loki smirks laying me back "Because your master does what he wants" he growls.