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Please explain warrior nun to me. I wasn’t interested at first but you make it seem so cool I want to learn :)

I WILL explain it to you. Saddle up because I'm prepared to ramble. There will be spoilers. If you'd like another summary w/o spoilers, let me know!

First: our main character, Ava Silva. At the start of the show, she's a paraplegic and orphaned 19 year-old girl who is, quite literally, dead in the first scene. She is snarky, a little clueless but not innocent, and most importantly, she wants more than anything to live.

This is Sister Beatrice!!! She's the love interest, technically, but she's not the only one (just more of an important character than the other), and she's also so much more than that. She is a prodigious warrior who fights for the OCS; The Order of the Cruciform Sword, which is a sect of Catholic nuns that fight demons for the good of the people. She is good at everything with the exception of Not Being Gay, which is, incidentally, the reason she was sent to a Catholic boarding school in the first place. Suffice to say, her parents suck.

There's also a wide cast of incredible characters; we have (from right to left) Mary, who is The Coolest and also, somehow, more of an older sister figure than the actual sisters; Lilith, who's a bit of a bitch but we still love her, Father Vincent, who's also a bit of a bitch but we tolerate him, and then on the far left, there's Camila, who is simultaneously the Cutest and also the Smartest. (also not pictured here is Mother Superion, whom we also love.)

This show has so many good women characters. You will become obsessed with at least one of them. At least.

Essentially, Warrior Nun's plot depends on the use of the Halo, which is a literal Angel's Halo (or is it?) that fuses itself to the spine of one special nun, the Warrior Nun, who is then given the ability to see demons and also other various superpowers. However, because of its immense power, demons and other forces are constantly trying to seize the Halo for themselves, and due to a tragic series of events, a panicked nun has to give Ava the Halo.

Ava, who is dead at the time.

And it brings her back to life. Not only that, but it gives her the ability to walk for the first time since she was, like, four years old. Also, it gives her superpowers, too, but whatever.

So basically, Warrior Nun is about Ava trying to balance her will to live her life now alongside with the new duties that the OCS are trying to put on her. They can't take the Halo out, because it may kill her. Something something jesus parallels, something something taking the time to have the characters work things out for themselves, and you get this show. I cannot emphasize enough the character writing.

(Also it has one of the best sapphic slowburns I've seen in a show ever. They hit so many good tropes in such a well-paced manner. I can't even describe how well they're written. What the fuck.)

So. Watch Warrior Nun. We need a season 3!!

Camila: *walking around in rage talking loudly to herself while cursing in spanish and taking down every training dummy in sight*

Mother Superion: What happened to Camila?

Yasmine: I just told her I saw Ava and Beatrice kissing.

Mother Superion: *stares at Camila* Well, I'm gonna talk to her, she should know that in the OCS we do not judge love, in fact, we believe that love is...

Yasmine: Oh, no, no, she's not homophobic, she's just upset she wasn't there.

Camila: I CALLED IT FROM DAY ONE! I HAD TO WITNESS THESE FOOLS BEING USELESS IN LOVE FOR EACH OTHER FOR MONTHS! MONTHS! AND YASMINE IS THE ONE THERE FOR THEIR FIRST KISS? NO ES JUSTO! MIERDA! *takes down training dummy with one punch then makes the sign of the cross*

Dear Beatrice,

Have you ever been to IKEA?

I saw a movie once where this couple was pretending to live out their lives in a bunch of fake IKEA sets and in retrospect it was a little weird, probably, and super inconvenient for everyone around them, but that’s the point, right? That they were so in love with each other that they were selfish in a way that was okay.

I want to go to IKEA and not care about anyone else or anything else. I want to be dumb and cheesy. I want to inconvenience people in ways that doesn't lead to the world ending. I want to get a free pass for being young and stupid and in love. I want to be selfish like that with you.

Do you know where I’m going with this?

I don’t. Not really. Not right now. But you will, by the time you’re reading this. Because I’ll have told you that I want you to go to IKEA and dance in the rain or share a plate of spaghetti with someone under the moonlight or spin around on hilltops while singing about the sound of music or spread your arms out wide and shout something from the front of a ship. Or… honestly, hopefully I’ll have told you something way better than all that because I’m still working on how I’m going to tell you and I don’t think movie references are the way to go. But you know what I mean. Hopefully, I’ll have told you that I want you to do the things I couldn’t, that you couldn’t, that we couldn’t do together. Hopefully, I’ll have found a way to tell you that doesn’t sound stupid or make you cry or make it seem like I'm taking the easy way out. Hopefully, by now, you’ll know that I love you and in a movie, that would be enough to change the universe and give us a happy ending. But here, we are what we are, and it isn’t.

That’s okay. Or… okay, fine. It’s not. It’s bullshit! It sucks! I want to be selfish and I want to be with you and I want to do all this stuff together! But it is worth it. I’m not going to make it through this, but if you’re reading this letter, that means you do and that’s worth it. Though... not fair. I know it’s not fair. But I’m doing this so you can live your life.

Maybe that’s what I’ll say to you. Because that’s actually pretty good, isn’t it? And it’s the truth too. I’m doing this so you can live your life. It doesn’t have to be the movie stuff that I always put on my dumb to-do lists. But it has to be something. The only way I’ll be able to do this is if I know that you’ll go on and do something that will make you happy. That’s a pretty shitty burden to place on someone, I know. But you can handle it. You can handle anything. (I'm sorry, but that's the truth too.) And I think it’ll be less of a burden in the end, because I think you’ll find something beautiful out there.

So… go to IKEA. Get a tattoo. Help a baby turtle make its way back to the sea. Spend an entire day reading in bed and eating ice cream. Swim with whale sharks. See the northern lights. Go to a drive-in theater and see the end of that stupid movie that I don’t remember the name of.

Live your life, Beatrice, and I promise you’ll find something every day to keep living for. Because the universe owes you that much. And by now, it owes me that much too.

I love you. If you’re right about everything that happens afterwards, then I’ll still be loving you when you read this. I think maybe I’ll love you forever, even if you’re wrong.

I am still stunned by how amazing season 2 of Warrior Nun was because honestly it felt like it filled a whole in my heart. I honestly can't remember when was the last time I enjoyed a show so much and especially the writing for a sapphic couple.

The casual intimacy,the pining, the jealousy, the empathy, the kidness, the cute moments, the lack of any heavy drama and conflict between them, the ride or die and I will get through an army for her.

It's just felt beautiful and most importantly it felt uniterupted, like it had time to develop instead of relying on a few over the top moments and being ignored otherwise. It just felt sastifying

(through gritted teeth) i love being out of my comfort zone it is necessary for my personal development

Happy Valentine’s Day!!!❤️❤️❤️

The first time Ava brings it up, it’s too soon. Yes, they have, by some miracle, not been excommunicated for their actions at the Vatican, but it’s still a raw wound for all of them that it was their actions which set loose a centuries-old demon who was, until recently, safely ensconced in concrete. So when Ava tries to joke, “Well, Beatrice did blow up the Vatican for me,” Beatrice pulls a face.

Keep reading

40 Sapphic TV Shows You Have to Watch or You're NOT Gay*

We've already established I make the rules 😌

1. First Kill

2. The Haunting of Bly Manor

3. Harley Quinn animated series

4. Derry Girls

5. Yellowjackets

6. Skam Espana

7. Dickinson

8. Atypical

9. Killing Eve

10. Wheel of Time

11. The 100

12. Vigil, BBC

13. The Wilds

14. Orphan Black

15. Invasion

16. The Owl House

17. NCIS: Hawaii

18. Motherland fort Salem

19. The Outlaws

20. Everything sucks

21. Shera and the princesses of power

22. Legends of Tomorrow

23. Adventure Time Obsidian

24. True love or true lies season 2

25. Welcome to Eden

26. Fantasy Island

27. Orange is the new black

28. Skins

29. Runaways

30. Feria The Darkest Light

31. In my Skin

32. Station 19

33. Hightown

34. Run the Burbs

35. Kevin Can Fuck Himself

36. The Haunting of Hill House

37. Home Economics

38. Eldorado KaDeWe

39. The Sex Lives of College Girls

40. Astrid & Lilly Save the World

*This is a joke, you're the gayest person ever, I said so and I'm the ultimate authority on this matter. Case closed.

Twinsies 👂

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viv also talked about going through panic attacks and/or depression for years in a dutch magazine. she said club’s psychologist helped a lot esp this season & shes ok now.

https://miedema-evans.tumblr.com/post/686438002639224832/vivianne-miedema-helden-magazine

“I was always the first to walk away from sessions with a psychologist at the Dutch national team. Always said: I don’t believe in this. In fact, when I heard the word 'psychologist’, I thought: I’ll stay away from you. When I arrived at Arsenal, a new psychologist had just started with whom I also didn’t click. After six months a new woman came, I had a good feeling about that. That was a first step. Still, it took me a year to admit: I think I might need you after all…

Thanks to that psychologist I was able to process things from my life, both football and private related. I used to shut myself off from feelings, I didn’t have time for them, wanted to keep going. That came out in different ways. At the 2015 World Cup in Canada, I was under a lot of stress and suffered from migraines. In those few weeks I lost six kilos. After the European Championship in 2017, I suffered from panic attacks. On the football field, when I was at home, wherever. If it was a severe attack, I had trouble breathing. After a panic attack, I couldn’t do anything for three days, then I lay flat on the couch, and I had to regularly skip football practice. But most of the time it happened just when we had some time off. Even if I had the feeling that my body was no longer cooperating or was very tired, I could panic.

It’s good that I bumped into that wall and started talking about my feelings. It’s not that I’ll never have panic attacks or feel anxious again. I still feel bad when I have to get on the tube to central London. Underground, really hot, way too many people… I really think: what am I doing here? But what do you want, I come from Hoogeveen. I had never been on a bus before, now I have to go underground…

When I also have a hard time, it is when suddenly the whole planning is thrown upside down. We get our schedule on Monday. If that suddenly changes on Thursday, then I think it’s terrible and I have to calm myself down. In the meantime I have learned to deal better with these types of panic attacks. It will never go away completely, but if I have an attack now, I can function for the rest of the day.

Last month I had my last session with the psychologist. If there is one thing I should be proud of in my life, it is the journey that I have embarked on with her. For the first time in my career I was able to be more myself at Arsenal this year. My teammates didn’t know what had hit them. They get to know me better, because I’m open. I am understood. They see: Viv is not as gruff and closed as she seems. And that’s up to me, you know, that they’re only seeing that now. I have never opened up to others. When I’m on the football field, I’m tough, I can be a bitch. Off the pitch I’m one of the biggest softies out there, I cry regularly, I’m an emotional person and I’m not ashamed of that.

I am now open about it and try to be the same with the younger girls in the Dutch national team. I know better than anyone what it’s like to break through and deal with pressure. I can help them with that. I regularly check with them to see how things are going and they know that I am there for them. This journey with my psychologist has been more important to me than any prize.” (2021)

“I felt like I wasn’t enough for a very long time, and then somehow I just decided that I was. And I decided that I was enough for me and if I wasn’t enough for him at the time, it wasn’t my fault and it wasn’t his fault either. And it still is nobody’s fault when I don’t fit with another person. Love is beautiful and soft and achy and harsh and I think I’ve decided that not many people deserve to make me feel those things. I think I decided who I’m going to let destroy me and who I’m not. You and I, we deserve that much, don’t you think? I have weak moments constantly. I’m still drowning in love that may or may not return but has been absent for years. Absolutely drowning in it. But I am enough for me and you are enough for you. And whoever is coming or coming back, whoever is for us, we will be enough for them too”

— Emery Allen

My guys. the fact that so many of you are reblogging my post about Justice Thomas's desire to overturn Lawrence with exclamations of "how???" and with such lack of knowledge of our past is really disconcerting.

Gay sex was illegal federally in the United States until 2003 (when Lawrence was ruled on). Before Lawrence many MANY states had "Sodomy Laws" that prohibited gay sex within the state itself and criminalized homosexuality, often using targeting words like "pervert" to describe gay men much the way conservatives talk of "grooming" today. In fact prior to 1962 homosexual sex, as well as certain types of consensual sex acts between differently gendered couples, was a felony with the cost being lengthy jail time and/or hard labor. As of April 2022 14 states have STILL not repealed their sodomy laws. Keep that in mind.

In this last week of Pride month i am BEGGING you. LEARN SOME LGBTQ+ History. The history of your rights, your lack of rights, how recent it all is, how unstable your rights are RIGHT NOW. So many of what should now be our elders were killed during the AIDS Crisis. It is now up to you to learn these things yourself.

Wikipedia Article on LGBT History in the United States

LGBTQ Rights Timeline in America

This country claims to be democratic but 9 unelected people who's values and opinions formed decades prior, who can get into this position without strong or even any valid credentials, can decide to negatively impact or even destroy millions of lives and they cannot be held accountable for it. They can't be impeached or voted out. It's only the most convoluted combination of election-year voting, voter suppression/lack thereof, and idk fucking cowardice from both sides that got any of them to where they are now. 9 people who are cemented in their beliefs and then use the law and constitution to justify their moral opinions that they insist don't influence their rulings at all. We can't vote then out. We just have to hope they retire or die under the presidency of someone who doesn't want to actively kill everything, and eve then we have to contend with any given republican or spineless Democrat in the Senate.

And even then, we cannot get rid of them. Nine people make decisions for 300+ million, affecting their ability to defend themselves, to live peacefully, to lead healthy and happy and safe lives. Nine people can ruin lives for decades to come.

Nine people. Nine. People.

CALLIETTE + Ship Dynamics (r.)

Won't be tolerating any Cal slander when it comes to her being down just disgustingly down... down on the ground for Juliette.

Calliope Antigone Burns pined for Juliette Anastasia Atwood Fairmont so long and so hard that she figured out she was a vampire when no one else did because she couldn't stop watching her, closely.

Calliope not once but twice ditched her plan to stake Juliette in the pantry and only did it when she saw Juliette coming down to bite her and as confirmed by Juliette, Calliope wouldn't have staked her otherwise.

Calliope started to question her purpose as a hunter and what they do because she saw the humanity and the good in Juliette.

Calliope decided to take Juliette home to her parents and show them that she was refusing to be apart from Juliette after her mother gave her a final warning to stay away from her.

Calliope could not eat, sleep or think clearly unless she was physically in the same space with Juliette.

Calliope WAS GOING TO FUCKING LEAVE TOWN - LEAVE HER FUCKING FAMILY- to protect Juliette after they found Creepy Dead Guy and knew a vampire killed him.

Calliope stood up to her parents and Juliette's own parents to defend her.

Calliope came to believe that she and Juliette were meant to be and that together they freed each other from the expectations of their families.

Real talk, just because a character has a somewhat cool exterior doesn't mean they're unloving. Calliope is a trained killer, essentially. She's had this instilled in her -this way that she carries herself. But she's full of mushy feelings inside. She's not mean. She has a good heart. Yes she's feeling extremely hurt and betrayed by Juliette turning Theo. But she's only feeling that way because she loves Juliette.

I’m just over it. I fucking hate the toxicity in the uswnt. I never believed in Vlatko. I know good Coaches when i see one. He isn’t. He couldn’t handle the Olympics. He thinks his little friendlies with teams that barely leave their countries and have 0 money to invest are great to measure his team. He is delusional. He lacks a core team. Most of them are out. I won’t talk smack about any player in that roster but I don’t think it’ll end up being good for the US.

I just wish CP peace of mind and a full recovery. She doesn’t deserve this treatment.

But alas, all futbol federations are little mafias…iykwim. She’s better off.

In honour of Cody’s recent comment. U right Legend.

#11 for supercorp plss

oh this one was so fun :) I had to do it both ways

1) Domestic supercorp with Kara stealing some potstickers - ft. one of my favourite Lena shirts from the last season (which I absolutely believe is a gift from Kara)

2) And an upside-down Lena kiss inspired from a scene in Let Your Damage Damage Me, which is absolutely fabulous and you should definitely read :) (please note fic rating, warnings, etc :))

Spreading the love…fic edition

I saw a tweet from @coffeeshib looking to give some lesser-known fics some love…so here are some fics I have really enjoyed and wanted to share. If you see this I hope maybe you’ll give them a read and also post some of your own well-loved favorites.

dead mom issues by from_a_recklesswriter (@n3wkied0nth3bl0ck)

grief but also all of motley by @c-optimistic

how do you say ‘kiss me’? by catchmeimfalling

Kryptonian Lullaby by @thebluewritingbench

Let Me Count the Ways by @inkedroplets

Lost and Found by Quokkai

love me like you mean it and i know i cannot heal this hurt (but i will hold you here forever, if i can) by nostradamusO

Lover’s Gambit by PaperHatsandPaperBoats ( @paperhatintherain)

Alone Together by oversentimentalgay

echoes of a broken heart by @contagiousiridescence

Last Daughter by @douglasamongus

Mondays are the Worst by @storyiicharacter​

The corner by Sydney563 (WIP)

“For the most part, you don’t hold the people you love in your heart because they rescued you from drowning or pulled you from a burning house. Mostly you hold them in your heart because they save you, in a million quiet and perfect ways, from being alone.”

— Jeff Zentner, Goodbye Days

a comic about meeting your younger self :)

Thank you for reading :)

hey just so everyone knows, It Was A Draft

the supreme court decision to overturn Roe v. Wade is not official yet. someone leaked a draft of the opinion that the members of the court have been circulating and revising (the draft was created by justice samuel alito).

which is insane by the way. it’s the first time that a draft of a supreme court decision has ever been leaked in the entire history of this country.

it makes perfect sense to feel grief or panic or dread or sadness or anger or whatever you’re feeling right now. this is fucking terrible and scary. just for the sake of avoiding misinformation, i wanted to clarify this because i think a lot of the headlines have been misleading, and the info gets even more misconstrued when it’s rephrased on social media and stuff

"You're already six feet deep, stop digging and leave me here to die" vs "Don't you dare say you love me right now because I won't believe you mean it like I want you to"

CP’s first cap // CP’s 100th cap celebration

What’s the saying again?

History never repeats itself…

but it often rhymes <3