Upstatecbguy - UpStateCBGuy

Sex is not a goddamn performance. Sex should feel as natural as drinking water. It should not require confidence. Sex should happen, because the moment is ripe. Ripening lips, ripening labia, ripening cock, ripening pupils, ripening state of being. Ripe and augmented and brimming. Your energy goes to your pumping heart, then to every external nerve, then to theirs, on fire. You bask, roll, play in it. You sigh, moan, laugh. It’s not about being “good in bed.” It’s about being happy. One should never worry if they’re doing it “correctly.” Sex is not factual. I don’t want your cookie-cutter sex, I don’t want your meticulously crafted, calculated, fool-proof fuck. I don’t want a show. I want you. Let your instincts, urges and whims define that. It’s enough. What do most girls like? Forget about it. Statistics are meaningless when there’s only one. Hello, here’s me. Here’s you. Don’t worry about taking it too slow. We got time. We got infinite rhythms, combinations, possibilities. Explore each fuck. Take our time. We can do a different one later. Don’t worry about making me come. I’m here. Right where I want to be. I am overwhelmed by wanting; you don’t have to convince me. I want you because I like you. So don’t put on a front. Don’t taint this. I’m frustrated—it’s just authenticity I want. It’s originality. It’s passion. It’s joy. Don’t say that something I like is ugly. Don’t compare yourself to the rest. You will live and die with and within your experiences like everyone else. If someone thinks you are amazing, they are not wrong. Their universe is as real as any other; it is forged through perception. I don’t care if you accidentally slammed my head into the wall, if you slipped out, if my arm cracked, if the delightful pressure of your wet lips on my anything made a silly sound. There is no right way and no wrong way. “Good in bed,” what. You’re good in my bed. I’m pleased you’re there. I feel it suits you. Shove your technique. Let your memory swallow it. Fuck me like you’d fuck me, fuck me like you feel. This isn’t a test.

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This is beautifully written, and true.

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Me:makes a reference only i get and then laughs about it because i saw what i did there

Thinking about locking up again, but I don't have a key holder right now. Suggestions?

The early hours of Feb 7th, and I'm starting my lockup. I've been promised sex on valentines day, and have otherwise given up control of my junk until memorial day.

Locking up soon.

For around the last year I have had a very physical job. During this time I have only been able to lock on my CB on days off. This is different for me since in the past I had been locked 24/7 for several months with it only coming off for cleaning and sex. Every time I lock up the first couple days are the roughest, but then my body adjusts and all is well until the next time. Well, I have good/bad news. My position in the company is about to change. The amount if physical work I have to do day to day is going to decrease dramatically. I hope/expect to be able to go back to wearing one of my CB's full time again. Since my GF/KH doesn't live with me, or even in the same town, I dont expect to be unlocked often. 

I know I dont have many followers here, but there are a couple of you, so, any input from you all would be great. I am excited, if a bit nervous, for this change.