Girly Thoughts - Blog Posts

unfortunately i'm back at uni

I genuinely was dreading this since the day I landed back home. I am still considering dropping out, taking a semester or year off, and just returning home. Worse case, I'll transfer to a uni back home and have no friends, but at least I'll be home with my family, and somewhere that's familiar, and I know by heart. Another part of me wants to stay and battle it out (also, I'm afraid of what others will think of me if I drop out/take a break). I went through so much my first year, and I'm afraid of going through them again. Depression sucks! Anyways, classes start in a few days, and I'm so stressed about it. I made a deal with myself to last the first month and then decide if I wanted to go back home. Hopefully I'm better mentally by then so I can stay here without being worried that I would be a danger to myself, If I am then I'm going back home to get proper help and to be with family.

I desperately miss my cats.

grief hits in funny little ways always trying to remind you what you’ve lost.

i realized i never speak abt how im feeling and i keep everything in bc i don’t want ppl to perceive me in a negative way like i already do with myself. i already think this way about myself i don’t need anyone else to do that too.

everyday i hope and pray this is all just some terrible dream and i wake up 7 years old again when all I had to worry about was what storyline my toys would have to put up with today

i wish i could just fade into nothingness and everyone would forget about me

i have spent so much of my life keeping things in, I genuinely don’t know how to let it out

i need someone to desperately fall in love with me rn. i swear i’ll be good🙏

i fucking hate this trend (it is the most understood i’ve ever felt)

i desperately miss how i used to be. i hate who i am now. i feel like who i am now is the worst person alive. my old self was kind, sweet, happy. now i’m just tired and self conscious. i hate who i am today. I want to be 17 again.

lowkey (highkey) feeling like im a terrible person and thats all what people see

just spent 3 hours painting my nails 😛

manifesting a challengers and saltburn summer 😛

oh how i love patrick zweig

raw!! i mean awww

me with the guy i told everyone i hated

this and lana del ray

brunettes with big noses come my way 🙂‍↕️

me after a long day of dealing with bs

i love her tights

my way of flirting

as if!

me when a guy responds yes ma’am when i tell him to do something

(im getting him pregnant)