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why are dudes in fanfic always getting hit with freight train orgasms. why not an orient express orgasm, classy and romantic. where are the shinkansen train orgasms? his orgasm hit him like the TGV atlantique breaking the passenger rail speed record. like the shanghai maglev, his orgasm was a feat of engineering but something of a commercial disappointment.
Mutual One: Kutner
Mutual Two: Cameron (u know I’m right)
Mutual Three: Wilson
Mutual Four: Chase (trans chase truther either way idc)
Mutual Five: Thirteen
Mutual Six: Taub
Mutual Seven: House
Guy you followed because you like their art: Vogler
Mutual Eight: Foreman
Mutual Nine: Everyone else that works in PPTH
dash simulator
mutual 1: im going to kill myself tonight im not fucking joking
mutual 2: chappell roan music video gifset
mutual 3: highkey in love with oomf?
mutual 4: i think im transgener
mutual 5: what if will graham was a lesbian
mutual 6: look at this picture of my cat :-)
mutual 7: does anyone know where to get ketamine
guy you followed because you like their art: trump isn't that bad actually
mutual 8: uhhhh i just got evicted from my apartment and lost my job?
mutual 9: house md is kinda like gay porn if you think about it
Sent my friend my unpublished, unfinished House MD fic and they don’t watch House MD so the fact they asked earnestly me to send them my fic after I talked about it instead of telling me to stfu makes my head swim a little
But then they actually read it and complimented my writing and said that I needed to put it on ao3 because it would get so much love and now I can hardly breathe and all I’ve been thinking about is writing more not just bc writing it would give me satisfaction but because I want them to read it
Like I usually do most of my writing for myself but this fic…it’s for myself and them
Still thinking about the Hilson fic I read where at one point Wilson puts his hand on House’s knee and leaves it there for awhile and House couldn’t stop thinking about it and then I read “following the knee incident (5 dead, 17 injured)” and lost my damn mind
Yes that line is very much a tumblrism but I also feel like House would think that if he was having a crisis bc ofc he’d have to hide the crisis behind dark humor
God I love (sometimes) mischaracterizing these middle aged men
Manic episode has taken on a new phase in which I have taken on the terrible parts of the fictional characters I have been hyperfixated on and now Icannot stop making strange jokes, laughing crudely, or having lustful thoughts about those around me
Ok ok so yes angst that builds over the course of the narrative and ends with A and B fucking absolutely NASTY is fun and all but consider:
The arc *starts* with A and B fucking nasty once or maybe even a few times (because what else would be a better inciting incident?) and it catches the reader off guard bc isn’t this supposed to be angst? What’s the plot? Is this just self indulgent smut (which is still fine but not what the reader was expecting)
Bc A is happy about it, thrilled even. Feelings have been acted on, things are looking up…even tho they went from 0 to 100 with B it feels normal.
B on the other hand, is a disaster. Repression with a side of pride and a dash of comphet for good measure. It wasn’t until they were literally in bed with A (or a closet, or the back seat of a car) that they even considered A to be an option. At least consciously.
THATS where you get the angst, babie! The angst and the new build up comes in the same way. Arguing, distance, confusion, manipulation…but instead of it being “will they, won’t they” it’s “will they ever again” which is just so DELICIOUS!!!!
Like every time their fingers brush or there’s lingering eye contact or an absentminded comment is made it is colored even worse because THEY’VE ALREADY DONE SOMETHING! SOMETHING HAS ALREADY HAPPENED! A and B both know there’s something there because they broke the bed (or the closet door, or the car seat) so of course they wouldn’t be rejected…right?
And of course after thousands upon thousands of words of angst and slow burn and self destructive behavior they fuck nasty AGAIN but they don’t pull away from each other after
Fic over! Boom! Done! Give me your wallet!
I spent the past 2 weeks in a feverish depressed state I haven’t felt since before I started medication and over the past few days that has been cured by the following (in no particular order):
1) Tomadachi for the switch being announced
2) The Crane Wives tour that I got tickets for
3) Hilson content on my dash (I’m not even that serious about House MD)
4) Seeing my friends :)
5) Will Wood and the Tapeworms Tour
6) Getting into my dream grad school with a partial scholarship
7) Visibly Queer Androgynous Baddie called me hot
Thank u that is all :)
*sits u down and shines a bright light in your face*
Do you actually have a hard time differentiating platonic and romantic feelings or are you hopelessly lost in your feelings for the one person in your life you can’t bear to lose right now? Is the idea of rejection equally as crushing as the idea of having to live with unspoken words? Is rejection really that bad? Or is the yearning the worst part? How can you live with this, and how far are you willing to run away from yourself? Is the person you’re “confused” about worth the phantom pains in your chest? Why do you do this to yourself? Is this better somehow?
DEAD POETS SOCIETY (1989) // HOUSE M.D. (2004-2012)
so i went from black sails brainrot to further watching house md bc i found out where i stopped last time and. and there it is again. you sound exactly like him? more like you're sleeping with me
my first reaction was 'oh! this is about house's addiction! wdym we must never stop cleaning house?' is this a sign to stop my 7th rewatch or am I too far gone? hmm
the house will never be truly clean. and yet we must never stop cleaning the house
house might be an asshole to everyone but to wilson, he's just greg and he will never not have wilson's back (even it's in his own fucked up way)
the episode 'Wilson' is sooo interesting because it's from wilson's perspective which means we only see house when he's interacting with wilson and he's! helpful! he's genuine. he's sincere. he's vulnerable. he's still an ass, but when it's weighed against house 1) trying to help wilson with his case 2) trying to keep wilson from getting hurt 3) running around the hospital on the hunt for a donor for wilson's patient ignoring his own case 4) admitting without wilson he'd be alone, a moment that catches the both of them by surprise by house's honesty and vulnerability 5) sticking by wilson's side post surgery making him laugh and keeping him in high spirits.
like.
house is a Grad A asshole, but with wilson??? from wilson's perspective?? he's sweet and protective and he is still prickly and terrible, but he's a good friend.
"I lied. I don't wanna be in pain, I don't want to be miserable. And I don't want him to hate me..."
"Well, you can't always get what you want."
the absolute desperation, misery in his eyes, the way his voice cracks is just so soul-crushing that no matter how many times I've seen it, I still sob every time. I was gonna skip this ep bc it hurts too much but I just couldn't.
oh house...
2nd addition to Tumblr callout posts. I really need to start making a list.
a collection of hilson quotes i found
"Hilson is toxic" yeah but they make each other genuinely smiles so it's okay.
Gay sex as a metaphor for friendship
I am begging you for one little peek of any fic you're working on
okie here's that alternate meeting age gap fic i kept threatening to write where house hires wilson as a diagnostics fellow and becomes wilson's big gay awakening
i actually do think house and wilson should go on a big romantic weekend in the poconos but they joke about doing it purely as an experiment to see if they actually do fall in love, because everyone else already thinks they are but they swear they aren't, and they planned it while super drunk and made several huge, non-refundable deposits so they kinda have to see it through to the end. so they go, and they can't stop laughing at everything, and it feels awkward and silly and they can't take anything seriously because everything is covered in rose petals and candles and they keep getting served champagne and chocolate-covered strawberries. there's no way they're in love!! they can't even soak in the heart-shaped hot tub together without arguing!! so they ditch the final night of their reservation and hit up the casino and a club, where they do end up fucking in a dirty bathroom stall where the door doesn't even lock. turns out reckless gambling and doing bodyshots off bartenders is the romantic push they need
i think hilson is great because seperately they're very smart medical professionals etc etc but together they share one brain cell
my inbox is always open for fic prompts btw
i urge you to move swiftly while the hilson hyperfixation still has me in a death grip
hi i think house and wilson should accidentally run into each other at a sex addiction support group meeting on the outskirts of town but wilson was actually attending to get legitimate support for his sex addiction and house was lurking around in the parking lot waiting to meet fellow sex addicts he could entice back into addiction. it would just be funny i think