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...well that's a new memory that I just unrepressed.

That's definitely something that a 12 year old me was told and repeated to herself whenever something happened...

I tend to think that it wasn't so bad and that I've remembered all the big bad stuff but I guess I haven't. Leads to the memory of my twelve year old self admiring her friend because he's using tough love and he's so honest to her about how bad of a person she is and helps her fix it.

(She didn't really do anything wrong, but he yelled at her about it and hit her)

Seriously, what is today?

And that’s why they didn’t get DLC first.

TW: BLOOD

Starscream undergoing his redemption arc

Windblade: Okay Starscream what have we learnt today

Starscream: Being a narcissist is wrong

Bumblebee: FINALLY WE D-

Starscream: Cause only I'm allowed to be one

Bumblebee & Windblade: Ffrrrraaaaaaggg

You gotta hear me out okay he's so bipolar with his feelings for obvious reasons and he's so emotional yet barely has any emotional connections he's just like me fr.

Also apologies for the shitty pic

Starscream kicking ravage in Skybound-

Ulchtar in his head throwing up, crying and screaming: NOOOOOO HOW COULD YOU DO SUCH A THING KYS NOWWW

Ulchtar was shown to love bugs so I feel like he would have absolutely loved the humans and animals and would find ravage cute.

Guys I swear I will post doodles soon but hear me out on this song idea/analysis like last time

Thanks, I Hate It by Simple Creatures but it's about Starscream 's and Megatron's relationship (not romantically unless you view it as such) from Starscream's pov.

"Am I good enough for you" portrays that no matter how he acts, loyal, disloyal, submissive or resistant Megatron will always seek the opposite or still view it and therefore him as disgusting making him the perfect punching bag simply for Megatron's very own amusement. In every universe, with the main ones with this problem being armada and prime, he gets treated as somebody with potential by Megatron yet he also denies Starscream that growth.

"I don't owe you anything" is something that Starscream himself would only think in his anger towards Megatron but may have only truly processed those words as true after the war (in the versions he survives for a bit after, such as him in the Windblade comics). This reflects how he -and every other abuse victim- doesn't and shouldn't offer their abuser anything no matter how much your life is centred and controlled by them, they don't deserve you.

"But I gave you everything" shows the fact that Starscream sometimes and maybe in the beginning of everything did try so hard to please Megatron. But he didn't need to do all of that as it only buried the hole he was getting swallowed by even larger and more difficult to escape from.

"Watch you pile it up and sing - Thanks I hate it" summarises Megatron's mentality and actions when it comes down to Starscream. Megatron will rarely accept something he gives and when he does praise is rarely given which may mirror any abusive relationship (I view it as an abusive adopted Father and their dysfunctional son that becomes even worse with the abuse - though see it however you want).

"No you're never satisfied" is Megatron's constant berating and thirst of Starscream's agony.

"Now you wanna run and hide" resembles how in the many times Megatron has been redeemed he has never apologised to the person he influenced and corrupted the most. The exception of this was Earthspark but even then Megatron was warning everyone how Starscream is worse than he ever was. He showed care for the other decepticons well being yet was inconsiderate of Starscream's. He's too scared to face the truth of his actions or view it as important to his path to peace, therefore hiding himself from his second in command as if everything will be dropped and sorted out.

The point is- Starscream should be accountable for his actions only if Megatron will be as well and if we brush everything he's done then we should do the same for Starscream. Yet Megatron should still face him either way if he truly is a "good guy". Starscream deserves that closure even though he thinks that killing and taking his place will ease everything it wouldn't.

Little Skybound Starscream Character analysis or breakdown of SMT that I saw nobody mention. Bear with me.

So the basics are - Starscream was first Ulchtar and changes name after his friend died and his eyes also turned red. So we have that down but if you look at the words Starscream says

'My name is Starscream' but also when we learn he is still alive after his fight with soundwave he says

'Starscream that's my name' which mirrors the words when he changed his name. Also it's more of a reassurance that that truly is his name but there's nobody around so the one he's trying to convince is himself. If that's not enough he chose his name from Genvo's last words and in the picture above he is saying them again to Genvo's first words that we as readers hear. (So that gives a lot more depth and it may not seem that much but further down it does help tie some ideas together.)

Also in this scene it could be viewed as Starscream arguing against the voice he hears almost as if he doesn't remember that he had a different name before and is probably why he himself hasn't brought it up afterwards because to him it was a hallucination that got his name wrong. Or it could simply be him not wanting to remember it as he knows the last him would regret what he has turned into. But I do think he might have forgotten some things if the past at least and that may be due to Megatron but I'll do that part in a different post.

So my point is - Ulchtar and Starscream are not 'exactly' the same person they are like different points in life but instead of it being like a sequel it's more like an entire reset to the story.

Sorry if my writing is bad I'm literally a kid and tho I cook in my English writing NOW it was not without failing really badly I EVEN CHEATED MAN.

But I spotted the name thing out as I first saw it and I connected the dots and it did in fact almost make me cry but is anyone going to see this.

NOOOOO!

2.1 spoilers

-ominous piano starts playing-

First thing that came to mind when playing thru this part fr. When the persona brainrot morphs with the hsr brainrot things like this are meant to happen. So silly doodle it is.

Transcript cuz my handwriting sucks:

Future Aventurine: I am your shadow, your true self.

Aventurine: Nuh-uh.

F. A.: Fuck you mean "nuh-uh"?!

I think eldest daughters are usually closer their moms and tend to have more issues with them while youngest daughters are closer with their fathers and have issues with them

party poison drip !!

some covah sketches. 

Jack manifold

Statue of Apollo covered in tulle netting

A copy of the Greek bronze original by Leochares (330 BCE)

Blanton Museum of Art

Relationship Headcanons

Fandom: BSD -Bungo Stray Dogs

TW: none? I think? 

DAZAI 

I said it in my Soukoku fic, Dazai wouldn’t know affection if it slapped him in the face ten times 

Like he might realize when someone is showing interest in a sexual kind 

And he would probably notice if someone is crushing on him 

But like, if he likes them back? 

No 

Man is blind 

He’s too busy panicking over read denying his own thoughts and feelings over you to analyze your actions 

He’s busy trying to think of anything but how pretty you are when he sees you -thank you very much 

No joke though, this can be applied to pretty much anyone he cares about 

I mean he practically had a heart attack when Atsushi gave him flowers 

Anyways if he finally admits to himself that he likes you then I could see him trying to push you away if I’m being brutally honest 

He doesn’t want to lose you and he believes that anything he wants that he obtains, will be striped from him sooner or later 

But…, in a perfect world he would eventually work up the courage to ask you out 

He would probably avoid directly asking you but this is Dazai so he could defiantly figure out some round-about way to ask 

As for the relationship? 

He would still be his teasing self 

But he would tone it down 

Not because he doesn’t want to annoy you but more so because he actually lets some of his masks down when alone with you 

He defiantly is very clingy to you 

Man has been touch starved for a long time and he fears attachment too much to be touchy with the ADA members 

But now he has you, who not only tolerates him but has decided to stay with him? 

Of course he’s not going to let this chance slip from his grasp before all this inevitably ends (he’s still in denial) 

He never cared much for holidays like Christmas or Valentines 

But now he wants to experience them, with you 

He’s always thinking, plans and outcomes racing through his mind, what ifs and regrets  

But like, if you ruffle his hair, his brain just stops. 

Like no thoughts, he short circuits 

When his brain returned to him the first time it happened he panicked 

Like, who gave you that amount of control? 

After that first time he continued to try and get you to do it without asking 

He needed his brain to shut up every now and then, and now he has a reliable source 

Anyways, he likes to be a spoiled princess 

No one can change my mind 

For all his predictions he will never be able to predict your love and kindness for him 

CHUUYA 

Someone give this poor man a hug 

Ugh, my heart 

I can‘t imagine him wanting to date a normal citizen, too much of a risk 

So you’d probably have to work in the Mafia 

Even then, dating you would still be placing a huge target on you 

He would actually take you out on dates before asking you out 

Dates with him would be romantic 

Like dinner by candle light vibes 

He’d be strategic on where you guys sit 

No need to be precarious on what you order, it’s all on him 

When he does ask you out he would be slightly flustered but it just makes him adorable 

Say yes, he doesn’t deserve to be hurt any more 

He would spoil you to no end 

If you want it, you can have it 

You’re the only one allowed to call him short 

He might get flustered from PDA in the start but will gradually warm up to it 

Nothing clingy, just hand holding, a hand around your waist, a quick kiss here or there 

But if he sees some guy hitting on you? 

Down right possessive, arm snug around your waist, shoulder to shoulder 

And if he’s drunk? Even worse 

Like he’s pulling you onto his lap just to make sure that asshole knows your taken 

If you do work in the mafia with him, he likes going on easier missions with you 

And while he knows that you can handle yourself just fine, he can’t help but imagine something bad happening to you when he isn’t there to save you 

He’s lost too many people in his life, please, don’t leave him as well 

He loves when you rest your head on his chest and listen to his heartbeat 

And while you do that he’ll run his fingers through your hair 

Chuuya loves to spoil you rotten as I stated, it’s his love language 

So sometimes he’ll just hand you his black card and let you go shopping with friends or something 

In fact, he encourages you to buy what you want 

FYODOR 

Honestly? Where do I start with him? 

Like congratulations if you meet him and make it out alive 

I don’t know if I should congratulate him taking an interest in you though 

I feel like he believe that the interest he had in you was purely innocent curiosity 

But I also don’t think he would try to delude himself for as long as Dazai does 

Eventually he would notice that something was different about his interest for you than usual 

And while he would hesitate to put a name to it so quickly he would eventually give in after realizing there was no stoping this feeling from festering in him 

After coming to terms with his romantic? Feelings and interest in you he would definitely begin to manipulate you into feeling the same way for him 

If you don’t already that is 

If you don’t confess then he’ll definitely do the same thing Dazai did 

And when you agree, he of course knew you would, he makes you move in with him 

He can’t let his dearest other slip from his finger now can he? 

I feel like before ever getting into a relationship, you would have been made aware of his ‘work’  

Please, make sure the man eats 

And takes his iron pill 

Nikolai is getting a little tired of that daily routine despite how much he loves to be around Fyodor 

Anyways, dates aren’t a very common thing in fact, very, very rare 

I mean… what did you expect? 

Man’s a literal terrorist 

That being said, from time to time he’ll leave his ‘lair’ to spend time with you 

If you ask, he’ll gladly play the cello for you 

If he snaps at you for ‘bothering him with pointless things’ when you bring him his iron pill or food just listen 

Don’t bother him with such things 

And then same thing the next day 

And after some 4 or 5 days he’ll stumble from his room 

Staggering as he tries not to collapse or faint from both his lack of energy and his iron deficiency 

And when he walks into the kitchen trying to get the iron pill bottle open? 

Let him stumble his way over to you and ask for help before you finally do as such 

And he realizes just how dependent on you he’s become 

It’ll happen again eventually 

But as of that moment, it’ll at least be awhile before the cycle repeats 

(That last part of Fyodor’s was based upon some fanfic I read for him. I'm not sure who it was by, but I’ll tag it if and when I do find it.) 

A/N: anyways, believe it or not, I love Chuuya just as much as I do Fyodor and Dazai 

I’m just not as confident in his character. Since I’m a lot like Dazai, he comes easy to me and by substitute, Fyodor does as well 

But Chuuya? Despite him being one of my 5 favorites along with Dazai and Fyodor, I just don’t resonate personally enough with him to write him really well

Im making a kakoshnik embroidered with beads.

I just started planing everything with sharpies and my hands are already green.

God help

Wrote a Higuruma/Kusakabe fic in two days, fuelled by my desperate need to avoid writing my thesis and the immense emotions they had me feeling these last couple of chapters. Hope you enjoy it!

Uh yeah me as a turtle too

i got tiktok. uhm here's a repost of an art comp submission over there

dude idkdjks ((oc by @/siiyuqv on the clock app

Hihi have you ever thought of planetlord as a god at all? I always get "a god born from the stars" vibes from him. ^_^ what do yoh think hed look like and what his personality would be like

Y. YOU. THANK YOU FOR ASKING THIS QUESTION.

okay. so i've never really thought of a concrete origin for him, however i've always drawn him with lots of astronomy-related imagery.

well. apart from my first ever drawing of him. which is rather dull.

but here are some of my more interesting early drafts

my current Planet design, however, does look rather godly

i do quite like the "god born of the stars" headcanon though because it's rather vague and fits into my whole idea of him having unknown/uncertain but decidedly (though ambiguously) divine origins, which is sorta close with my similarly unconcrete headcanons for Spoke (headcanon being that he's some humanoid creature that's possibly immortal and has probably been around for a few millennia)

i'm loaded with design headcanons though, namely; Planet's hair is fuckin,, like those god ponies from mlp in the sense that it's all flowy and cloud-like. it also reflects different stars and constellations at different times. meanwhile, his cloak is a glimpse into the distant universe, though pinpointing the exact location is rather difficult

i guess i sort of see him as a keeper of space knowledge? like he's a living record of where the heavenly bodies of the universe are and have been.

tldr i see him as having an ambiguous astral background. he (like my hc for Spoke) is possibly immortal and has been around for at least a few millennia (though has only recently, ie lifesteal, interacted with mortals). he's a walking talking record of the universe's heavenly bodies (planets, stars, etc) and it's all really cool. that's all. can you tell i like Planet.

all fanart i've drawn this week has either been in class or past one am i am so very sad. anyways cake. as someone who never draws food ever and only really did this for school

there are two wolves in you: draw Vortex as a dragon or draw Vortex as a Normal Guy(tm)

cause on one hand: dragon

on the other hand: this poggies lineup

Hey guys I’m back and I have art! This is a speed paint (Is that what you call it?)from me practicing drawing clothes. This was inspired by beyonce and as you can see I tried to draw a face. I didn’t though because it was difficult and not the point :b... But, I’m back now!

me when the character has a uniquely fucked mindset. me when the character's fundamental views of how the world works lead to them being hurt and/or hurting others and not seeing the problem with this. me when the character is a little freak who does weird shit because their beliefs, inspired entirely by their environment, are fuckeddddd

​sorry to my like five regular followers who might see this horny ahh repost and nonsensical rant

I whole heartedly agree it’s genuinely annoying and honestly stems from some sort of societal sexism Yk all that good shit 🙄 it also sucks because like mentioned it becomes all about the one w the dick (and I’m a sucker for smut w feelings) but by that point there’s NOTHING!!!! Not even any foreplsy no pussy acknowledgment Jusr pussy neglect and dick 😡. AND IF IM READING EOMSN WOMSN ITS FOR WOMAN ITS FOR THE PUSSY!!!!! LIKE YOU CANT JUST GIVR THEM A DIVK AND EXPECT ME TO BE OLAY WITH THAT!!!!

why do fanfiction writers always tend to make the already rare female werewolf character have a cock 💔 it's just so hard to find one fanfiction that doesn't do this...and they do it like it's part of the transformation too? like it doesn't matter if the non transformed version of the character has a pussy, when they transform they must have a cock apparently 💔 this has absolutely nothing to do with the character being trans or not because they also do this when they write the character as a cis woman 💔 what does the world have against werewolf pussy? WHY NO PUSSY???? IM SO fucking TIRED OF COCKS AND KNOTS!!!!!!!! WHY THE KNOT??? WOLF JUNK IS NASTY AS FUCK IT LITERALLY LOOKS SO UGLY?? I've seen car crashes less nasty than wolf dick so WHY WOULD YOU RUIN A PERFECTLY GOOD PUSSY FOR THAT?? I don't get it. i understand that part of the internet is into that, furries and stuff, BUT STILL stop giving KNOTS TO THE FEMALE WEREWOLVES PLEASE !!!!! just let them have pussies please 💔💔

im so sorry for lashing out this is not who i am but this is a tendency I noticed and it frustrated the shit out of me last night 💔 id post this on my main but id look unhinged

i nedd you to understbs that everytime i wrote soemthing complaining about abo tbid was in my mind the entire time but i didnt say it becwyse i thoight it might be too specific ot a proboem but YEAH !!! I DONT LIKE COCK !! I JATE DICKS I JATE READING ABOUT IT I HATE EVERYRHING ABOUT IT AND I LOVE PUSSY AND READING ABOUT PUSSH !!! and it just feels so weird to me like im guessing its becayde dicks have the ability tonget hard so its easiee to show horniness theouth thst wsy snd put the characters into a situstion, im guessing its becwuse peopoe who weite abo sre also udually really into cum and huge monster cocks but i sctuslly despise ir !!! i am reading fanfiction between teo cis women and suddenly its hest time ot some fucking shit and BOOM one of then gets a dick. its so lazy in my opinion, it comes across to me as not being able to weite like sex without a dick, especslly since theres never sny fingering or foreolay involved after the girl gains a dick. its just full on alwsys dick insode oussy, thrusr, cum s few times, and thats it. in my opinion, its lazy.

also we do just need more werewolf pussy like actually give me s girl wirh a bush you get me ? give me a wereeolf girl with a pussy that squirts or some fuckong shit, its like vaginss can also show horniness youknow !!! and it just feels so boring because then the giel gets a dick becsudeo heat or whatever fucking bullshit abo does and she gets s dick snd then ALL that the author focuses on is the dick, when ig gets hard abd starts twitching abd precun and thats it. there is zero focus on tbe pussy, especially in a smut story where rheyre BOTH horny apparenlty, but its never shoen for thr girls with the pussy ? it actually just feels lazy to me i cant tell you how lazy it feels its so boring to read like oh look at that another abo where all that happens is the girl thrusrs inside her a fee times and cums snd thats it, no foreplsy or nothing.

AND !! I DONT LIKE DICK !! HAVE TO MAKE THAT CLEAE !!! i dont like sex that involves dick, strap ons ? yeah !! lets fucking go love that !! dildos too whatever because theyre nor dick !! so when im searchinh for a girl x girl relataionship, who both girls are cis, then i dont want to see a dick suddenly becwyse its fucking abo. its fucking stupid, make the pussy horny !! describe thr thumping feeling, the wetneess !! holding her thighs together !! fingering !!! please !!! we need moee pussy in smut !!

also, fuck knots. fuck wereeolf dicks. i hate them all with a burning passion like genuinly its so annoying and stupid !!! and its not even hot !! there are SO MANY shios that involve a character rhat has a dick, they coukd choose to weite about them maybe. and i understabd that peope can wrirr ehatever they want, im all for that ! if thats what yoire into then go for it im not going to be kn the comments like fuck you becayse its not my business, but when this happens for EVERY SINGLE SHIP WITH A WEREOLF IN MOST FANFICS AND EVEN FANARTS, it gets really annoying. 0/10 abo sucks

BEAHAHAHA

I had a horrible realization after seeing my bedhead and I needed to draw it. Look at my plight. Btw it did not help that it was bedhead specifically. If you were curious.

The people in the comments I’m sobbing 😭

I don’t think I would willingly eat more then 4 chicken nuggets tbh breaded things make me nauseous :/

How many chicken nuggets do you think you could eat in one sitting

genuinely like 5

I have a small stomach

This hits me right in the guts and my heart at the same time... like wow... damn... I dunno wat I was expecting but definitely not this

which ao3 tag are you?

This is hilarious and honestly, Capritello is AWESOME.

Casey: Can I buy you a drink?

April: I have a boyfriend.

Casey, counting his money: He can only get something small then.