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Making a Lazarus dr..

Don’t mind me trying to cling onto any type of joy cuz the world is going to shit 🥲

Is it just me who likes to make most of my drselves tragic?

Me last night bc I shifted (for like a second but that just means it’ll be even better next time) and had a dream about instant manifestation 😛

that feeling of total fulfillment when you know you don’t have to do a damn thing, and it’s already complete and unfolding perfectly for you, and you remember this is supposed to be fun and easy, and this is a land of your creation—your imagination, your choosing—as god because there is only you, and there is no other, and it’s all perfect. it’s always been perfect. because you are perfect. how can you ever be without when you are all things? all realities? all possibilities? all outcomes? all potentials? you’ve always had it. you’ve always been it. you’ve always been them. and you know in your heart the red carpet is being rolled out for you, almighty sovereign of the universe. because you are the light of world. without your light of awareness, there is no world. you don’t need the desire, the money, the SP, the DR, the success, the win—it all needs you. it doesn’t materialize without you. you’re the center of it all; you’re the cause of it all, so rejoice and be glad. you are the promise land.

Yall now I wanna shift to MHA, preparing for tonight 🫡

I made a new dmc dr where I’m with Vergil instead but I’m caught by DARKCOM and get questioned and talk to Dante and then I somehow either get out or make a deal with them 👍🏾

I was rewatching my babysitter’s a vampire and I was thinking of making a dr for it, I honestly have to think some more cuz I’m shifting to devil may cry right now

Ok yall so I homeschool and I was going through my final exam in music too fast so I thought I wasn’t gonna pass so I was like nah imma make a 90 and guess what..

I shifted

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Ok so I made a script for Dmc and I was just adding random stuff in and I decided to shift and I’m pretty sure it was around 12 like on the dot and Idk for sure how long I was trying it didn’t even seem that long and after doing what I wanted to do (ion really feel like going into it too much) I looked at the time and I SWEAR it said 12:52 and I get on tumblr and it says 12:25 and I was like wtf?? That was a lil trippy but I put on some music and before turning off my iPad my battery was at 4 and I turned it back on after the song was done and my battery was at 8..

Waiting for dmc to come out so I can make a dr for it

Remembering when I was younger, before I found shifting, I used to ask myself why the shows I watched weren’t real and how my heart used to ache cuz I wasn’t there with my cc’s 😭 and it wasn’t too long after that I had found shifting

Does anybody think about their boyfriend and get all giddy and do this stupid laugh in their head?? Cuz I’ve been like this for 3, almost 4, days now 😭

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Definitely did a bit much with this but that’s alr I’m still learning 🫶🏾 this is my School bus graveyard desired reality !! Gonna try my best to make this look cute so ya 👍🏾

Enjoy :) !!

(Will have to post more about it soon cuz it wouldn’t let me add anything under my face claim 👎🏾)

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MY APPEARANCE AND GENERAL INFO —

Name ? Flare Golin

Age ? 15

Birthday ? Sep 12th

Backstory ? I grew up on the more country side, lived in a pretty big house as my parents are very successful. They didn’t name me till I was 3, decided that I should have a meaningful name, the called me little light for 3 years.. until they came up with ‘Flare’. When I was 13, we moved to where we are now. School was never tuff for me, I loved it, loved putting my knowledge into my every day life. Sadly lost that spark when I turned 15, highschool can definitely be as harsh as middle school teachers make it seem.. the stress is real. Or is it?

Signature color ? Sea teal

Signature scent ?

Face claim ?

yes. all of this will be done in my dr

˖˙SIDE QUEST IDEAS FOR FANTASY DRS

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break a curse

put together dreams for people

guide a soul to the afterlife

create a potion

collect moonwater

deliver letters to creatures from different realms

collect materials needed for potions

untangle spiderwebs spun in the wrong places

help the toothfairy out by taking her job for a day

paint patterns on butterfly wings

design new plants/animals

sprinke dream dust on childrens pillows

dry the wings of bugs that got caught in rain

help out bugs that got stuck in bodies of water

plant flowers

about my better cr...

Intro:

Name: Ngozi Sabrina

Age - 18

More info:

In my better cr, I got an internship at what is now my future job/life career when I was 16. it was a very well-paid internship. after a year of working, I was able to save enough money to get a down payment on my house (second photo) and move out of my mom's house when I was 17. I also graduated at 17 and was offered my current position in my workplace and I took it. ever since then I have been healing my childhood wounds and living a life with people who love me

My better cr...

There's a lot that I changed about my cr, the usual no sexism, no racism, the orange man croaked etc. but these are my personal favorites that I added:

america has a wonderful train and bus system that connects even the most rural of areas

good transportation in general

mental health is treated as real as physical health

women's health/safety is not only is not just a right but an international agreement among all nations and is enforced heavily

public healthcare for all

children are seen as living, autonomous beings and have freedoms and rights as such

any and all abuse is taken seriously no matter what

free education for all

public housing for those in need no one deserves to be homeless

what i'm excited for...

There's honestly a lot of things that i'm excited for. i'm mainly excited about my house. It's basically my dream house with an office, a living room with a fireplace, a kitchen with an island, and a backyard that has flower bushes, berry bushes, and apple trees and if you go past my backyard you'll be in a beautiful forest with remnants of moss architecture older residents left behind such as, a well, a statue lady pouring water, a swing just to name a few. it's a cozy property, my forever home. there's also nooks and hidden spots built into my house as well which make everything more fun

I also have two cats. Nyx and Frigga. they're my halloween cats and i love them so much

Nyx is my black cat and is the younger one whilst Frigga is my ginger who is older. I adopted them when i found them on my property. they were a year old and not chipped/claimed so they became my lovely companions. other than this reality, there is no reality where me and my girls aren't with each other. they're my soulcats (soulmate+cats???) and they are with me no matter what. I'm truly excited to hug them tightly. they're my babies.

Anyways, that's my basic introduction to my better cr. it's also worth to note that my better cr is my permanent reality. like once i go back there im forgetting this reality. but if i hope this is enough of a general background to my home life.

Alr so I've been in this shifting stuff for like… 4 years now off and on?

and i'm still not conscious of/remember a shift.

however, I will say that I've recently found out about something called the gateway tapes, which aren't necessarily for shifting but I'm pretty sure you can use it to help you shift.

I believe I still have it in my drive, so if you want that I can send that over to you ☆

It's okay hon, you're already there, whether you realize it or not (ik this is easier said than accepted but idk how else to say it) <3

I HAVE TO SHİFT TONIGHT

I really can’t with this reality anymore 😭

Drop all of your shifting tips please please please

Because it’s been 2 years and nothing has changed in my shifting journey and I really have to shift tonight. I don’t have enough power to stay here anymore. I attempt to shift EVERY SINGLE NIGHT and even if I want to take a break, I cant. I have to shift so bad. I’m not good. I don’t feel good at all. I’m so tired. Please someone help. Please. Please. Please. I beg you

I know you all will tell me no one can help me because shifting is something that only I can figure out what works for me. But I can’t anymore. Idk maybe something will click and I will shift.

Thinking about how I could literally shift as any renowned figure in history. Be it Mozart, Napoleon, or fucking Steve harvey bcs why tf not!!!!

I would witness the age of light, the apes of evolution, the fall and rise of ancient cities.

I would witness, learn, and most of all remember the lives of those that aren't written in books and articles. People who marked the earth and left without legends, a legacy, a story to withhold.

I would live the life of a being, not of mortal nor divine, but inbetween of immortality and death.

I would meet the gods and goddesses that once roamed the earth; I would learn their culture, their traditions, with the ability of recreating it back here. The current reality.

All that was lost, buried, and forgotten, can be revived. Can be witnessed. Can be heard and remembered.

And that's the beauty of shifting.

꒰ WAITING ROOM INSPO ꒱

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So uh....before anyone gets disappointed,very probably this blog will be deactivated,so no storytime bc I'm not planning on coming back there.

Just to to warn y'all

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i don’t call this reality the “current reality” . its my pain-in-the-ass reality. my boring reality. my ‘wow! everything sucks ASS’ reality. would 100% recommend not calling this reality your ‘cr’. it helps with not giving this reality so much power yourself!!!! because it is as real and mundane as any other reality you wish to perceive!!! so name it like you name your desired realities your ‘marauders’ dr or ‘90s fame dr’, maybe it may help with a change of perspective. idk. i am no expert . just works for me 😌

yeah ted talk over BYE (did this make sense???????? i am sorry if it doesn’t haha)

the way i'm going to be clinging onto tom for HOURS when i shift to my hogwarts dr ....... we'll be on that long ass train ride to hogwarts anyway . NO WAY he is getting rid of me in those hours lmfao

and FUCK the ib exams i am shifting tonight and never coming back!!!!!!! oh the joy!!!!!!! the relief!!!!!!! i will be feasting on grapes and nutella pancakes and pasta in my waiting room come next morning ……. so excited .

i have too many drs i want to shift to.

i want to make a pjo dr but like. change almost everything. add different quests. i will be a daughter of dionysus but less wine aunt vibes more unhinged god of insanity vibes . do i make myself fall into tartarus ? idk depends on how i’m feeling (i won’t do that. i think. i don’t hate myself THAT much)

i am eternally in my percy jackson era. Just like i’m in my harry potter era all the time. i read them at just the right age and now they are cemented in my mind. i make dam jokes and make fun of jason grace ALWAYSSSS

anyways i don’t know what this rant was for. i want to be percy jacksons scary girlfriend. that’s all. bye

the way my dr s/o’s are all weirdly similar to one another . like. they’re all tom riddle. some are a bit calmer . just a bit. i like them unhinged and challenging and annoying and annoyingly charismatic idk . they’re composed with everyone but me. yeah. its nice to notice this stuff. same person different faces lol

btw he pulls me on his lap and reads along with me when he’s bored. btw he tickles me on mornings when i don’t want to leave his bed. btw he thinks he’s sooooo smooth and suave but i’ve literally caught him staring at me like he has tunnel vision thousands of times. btw he slips me notes in class after vehemently refusing to sit next to me because i am “distracting”. btw he doesn’t just let me walk away from conversations and always pulls me back by my waistband. btw he scratches my back until i fall asleep. btw he has lovingly caressed a picture of me he keeps so many times it has worn down (he periodically magics it to restore it) . yeah. i miss him 😭🙂‍↕️😌🥲🥲🥲😭💀

i unfortunately will never come back from a shift to tell you guys about it . like once i’m out i’m OUT. getting tf out of here permanently because this reality really isn’t worth it like…………………. i’d much rather being actually FREE and SAFE. i’d much rather be valued as a person and live in a world where the concept of being a man/woman doesn’t exist. i’d much rather live in a world where governments don’t dictate. i’d much rather live in a world where people can do whatever tf they want whenever and wherever they want. yeah that’s all.

ooohhhh the URGE to make a co-ed kpop group and make yoongi my s/o………… i’m reverting to my old ways guys . the armyblink in me is returning.

my scripts have gone from strictly organized to messy and not-gramatically-correct purple prose rants . i've abandoned all sorts of organization and sanity. and i prefer it that way

writes his little plans about achieving immortality with his unicorn glitter pen. i see you tom. i get you .