Hell-atus Shows Rec (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ

you’re telling me, there are people out there who aren’t constantly overwhelmed by the feeling that they’re not doing enough with their life? everyone’s biggest fear isn’t inadequacy? it’s not a universal experience to be terrified of dying nothing more than a tiny blip on the timeline of the human race, without making a significant contribution to society? wild

Feeling heard alleviates tangled emotions for me. I often don’t need an action taken, just to feel heard, so that I can move on from the feeling.

Things I allow myself to do now that I know I’m autistic:

- stim more

- no smile unless I mean it

- have low ex days

- isolate myself properly

- say what I mean and not what I think people want to hear

- struggle (this one is so important) with driving/shopping/going to the bank etc without feeling shitty about myself

- cry more

Not masking feels so nice, but it’s sooo hard

Anyone else relate to these ace moods?

1) thinking you just have really high standards

2) thinking you have a very specific type which you haven’t found yet

3) thinking other people are joking

4) not realizing the song was about sex

5) thinking movies and tv are over dramatizing it

6) thinking movie and tv is accurate but like how???

7) not knowing which one it is

8) wondering when you’ll turn out to be gay

When it becomes who is right or wrong you lose sight of understanding or being understood.

For those not having a diagnosis.

It’s difficult to explain your obessions right? 

It’s difficult to explain why you get tired after just 2-3 hours of socializing right?

It’s difficult to explain why making decisions takes so long right?

It’s  difficult to explain your sensitivities, the noise around you, people walking by, the light, the jokes that make you feel uncomfortable?

It’s difficult to explain why your overthinking is actually just you thinking right?

It’s difficult to explain your needs and wants to your friends, or your parents saying that they shouldn’t click their pen, shake their leg, shouldn’t be too close right?

It’s difficult to explain why you can’t relax and stop obsessing analysing people right?

It’s difficult to explain your wordfinding difficulties or the reason why you’re talking too fast right?

It’s difficult estimating if you’re friends or not, if you’re friends enough to go up and talk to someone right?

It’s difficult not to obsess about something you like and then after a few months find another obsession wondering if you will ever find your calling right?

It’s difficult to explain why you feel so down and tired and keep focusing on the negatives even after a pretty good day, your obsessive mind keeps reminding you of the little details people dont even remember you doing or saying it right?

It’s difficult to be in this world where ‘’other’’ people seems to know it all, seems to have it all. Nice group of friends, amazing socialising skills where it seems so easy to come up with new stuff to talk about right?

With or without the diagnosis you know you best. it doesn’t make your problems less real with no diagnosis.

Ait thesoundoftheriver: “Nothing is worse than how it feels to not be able to verbally express what you’re trying to get across to someone.”

30 days of autism acceptance

April 22: What are some social rules that do not make sense to you/that you don’t understand?

So many-

- Eye contact

- Hand-shakes

- Small talk

- The fact that you come across as a smart ass when you correct someone’s wrong information, whoever nicely you say it

- Saying hello to a stranger as you pass them

- The concept that harmless weirdness is bad or creepy

- The stigma against stimming as a whole

- Dropping hints instead of just saying it directly

- Don’t think this really counts as a rule, but flirting

April 23: Do you have any internal rules? What are they?

I’m not quite sure what this question means. Do you mean like morals? Or OCD stuff?

Day 26 – ”Ace pride”

Cause this week is Ace awareness week!✨And yes, it’s part of the LGBT+ community, and every orientation that falls under its umbrella is totally valid!

Bojack horseman had a lot of good scenes this season about being asexual and looking for a partner but this probably one of my favorite scenes