Very Intense Could Be Brutal Torture, Gore, Life Or Death Situations, Dark Psychological Horror

I like to think that Chuuya understands why Dazai left and wasn't all that mad about it at first.

I think the hurt of being left built up over the four years. I think the first week or so Chuuya was like "Yeah? Well good for him I guess, better be quieter around now" and then he turns to tell Dazai something on a mission and he's not there. Of course he shrugs it off, no big deal he just need s a brief adjustment period. Shouldn't take long I mean how much can one person really affect your life?

And then he finds himself looking for Dazai to ask the name of the musical that has that one song. It got stuck in his head. Again. And it's annoying him and he makes it all the way to his living room before remembering Dazai's not there.

And then he sees the lump of Dazai's clothes on the couch and goes to tell him to at least put it away and he opens his mouth before remembers.

And then he makes food and when he's setting up his plate he notices he made enough for two. He won't admit it but he's not sure if that shit will remember to feed himself.

And then he's still buying the shampoo and conditioner Dazai likes. Not Chuuya's problem anymore, he thinks as he puts them away. Better to stalk up in case it's needed later.

And then he's still leaving Dazai's favorite blanket on the couch, he's still keeping bandages in his bathroom, still driving by the river to make sure there aren't any limbs sticking out, still watching the movies Dazai showed him and he wouldn't tell anyone but Dazai being gone affected everything and he's happy for him- really but if he ever sees him again he better have been just as fucked up.

And then he sees Dazai again, four years later on the day he came back from a mission. And he looks. Fine. Better than his Mafia days, better than when he was with Chuuya. Lucky him.

-E

This with Dazai and Atsushi

here's something i've actually said that could probably be a solid incorrect quote:

character a: *sick with a cold*

character b: *brings them cold medicine* you took one pill this morning, right? you can take one more now that it's the evening

character a: i can take as many as i want?

character b: no, that's not what i said-

character a: hAND THOSE OVER

character b: no-

character a: I WANNA FEEL THE FIFTH DIMENSION. I WANNA SEE SOUND. I WANNA HEAR COLOR.

character b: nO-

Weathergirl by Flavor Foley is so rimlaine coded

YALL SEE IT RIGHT

Maybe I'll work on a Rimlaine animatic after the atsushi one

Or, you know

Finishing writing those fics

Ooooo that sounds fun too

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I'm not sleeping tonight, am I?

( you've been booped !! )

reblog to give the mutuals a boop critter

OK because the game thing doesn't work with how I want the timeline in this AU to work, and since it's an AU, I'm gonna change it up and pretend you can totally read the Sad Diary before finishing the friendquests.

The story reason? Siffrin is a curious and stubborn child who says screw trauma I wanna figure this out so touching the spoopy star book it is!

Currently creating an ISAT AU because why not

ANYWAYS HEAR ME OUT

what if, when Siffrin loops back during the suspicious event in Act 4, he instead loops all the way back to the beginning, and Odile is now stuck in the loops with them?

Odile freaks out when she's back in the shop, and books it to where Siffrin is napping yelling for him. Siffrin, meanwhile, just woke up and is very confused. They hear Odile and turn around to see her staring at him. And he just looks horrified. Because Siffrin just trapped his family in here with him.

The new version of the game is cool and all, but am I the only one bothered by the intro?? Bc it's all white and calm: Rafayel paints, Xavier looks at his cd and Zayne works and then it's boom! Edgelord on the rooftop.

I propose all schools go back to teaching their students cursive.

Why?

BECAUSE I WRITE IN CURSIVE AND NO ONE CAN READ MY FUCKING HANDWRITING BECAUSE NO ONE TAUGHT THEM CURSIVE

I SPEND FOREVER MAKING IT LEGIBLE AND NOW YOU CANT READ IT NOT BECAUSE ITS MESSY BUT BECAUSE YOU CANT BOTHER TO TEACH PEOPLE HOW TO READ FUCKING CURSIVE

I just said stars as a replacement for 'god' or 'lord' unironically

I think someone needs to force me to back away from In Stars and Time a bit

okay y’all i have a ✨thought✨

what if, whenever atsushi regenerates, he’s physically fine but for some reason, his body still feels the pain of the wound he received??

like immediately after it happens, he’s fine if not a bit more tired than usual.

and then he wakes up the morning after and the afflicted limb (it’s the leg. you KNOW i mean the leg i mean come on, it’s practically a bright red target atp) is just screaming in pain.

and eventually the pain starts to ease up and he’s able to function again but he’s still left with flair ups sometimes and just general chronic pain.

again: especially the leg i mean SERIOUSLY THAT POOR LIMB-

but yeah basically chronic pain atsushi. (totally not in the process of writing a one shot for this with a sprinkling of sskk)

anyway, thoughts? feelings? helpful commentary?

Here we go y'all, one year of relating to this sad sack