THE MATRIX (1999) Dir. The Wachowski Sisters

“Why are so many trans girls into werewolves and robots and slime and monsters?”

Because society views us as monsters. And when you’re viewed that way you have two options.

The first, you can break yourself. You can take a knife and carve off all the corners, take sandpaper and smooth all your rough edges, you can take everything remotely variant about you and you can try and obliterate it in order to make yourself acceptable to people who do not know you and never will.

The second option is that you can say “okay, if I’m a monster I’m going to enjoy being a monster. I’m going to take those rough edges and rough them up some more. I’m going to take all my sharp corners and make them knife edged. I’m going to embrace how weird and broken and fucked up I am and I’m going to make it a part of me. I’m going to love, fight, live, and die as a freak, but I’m going to do it on my terms and no one else’s”

I’m never going to be cis. I’m never going to be straight. In fact I’d rather die than be either of those. So I’m going to take what I am and make it my power instead of my shame.

Imagine

If LEGO made a TTRPG system, providing you an encyclopedia for every kind of piece/item/block they've ever done, including stat modifiers depending on quality. They'd ruin Hasbro without even trying, and might accidentally create a quasi-monopoly on player character figures, due to the ease of customization.

It could also work if that was the premise for another LEGO Movie: group of friends invite the younger brother of one of their players to fill in for him/her, in a TTRPG campaign where they use LEGOs. Our protagonist (both the real guy and his character) feels out of place, that he cannot fill in for his sibling, even though he really likes LEGOs. But through the power of imagination, he finally gets into the groove, providing everyone a wonderful time and successfully defeating the big bad that the GM created for the campaign.

I have come to the realization that I might be gay. A little bit. This is news and a struggle I have been working through since valentines day. It makes sense in the context of my struggles with relationships, but it also is another confusing thing in this transgender life. I can’t tell him how I feel. I don’t know who to tell this about that would understand. It is so freeing yet so complex at the same time.

journaling

what do i fill the pages with? words? hard. drawings? bad at them. ideas? need to arrive.

D&D Quote

"I wanted to be Princess Sueplex Guillotine so bad I started working out." - Maya

I don't know who needs to hear this but please please please please please explore the settings. Of your phone, computer, of every app you use. Investigate the UI, toggle some things around and see what happens. You won't break anything irreperably without a confirmation box asking you if you really mean to do that thing. And you can just look up what a setting will do before touching it if you're really worried ok?

Worst case scenario you just have to change the settings back if you don't like what happened but it is so so so important to explore the tools available to you and gain a better understanding for how the stuff you use works.

Even if you already know. Even if you're comfortable with how you use it now. You don't just have to accept whtever experience has been handed to you by default and it's good for you to at least know what's available to you.

the way that taz balance, in the stolen century and in the finale, used bonds as like, a mechanical thing? absolutely choice.

like it's just a box on the character sheet in dnd 5e that most people probably don't really fill out. to take something that's abstract like that, just a flavor element, and make it have like... tangible gameplay utility and repercussions?

i can't put a finger on why but it resonates with me just so much.

🏚️ haunted house commissions are back! 🏚️

is your house (or apartment, or rv, or a house you really like from down the street, or a house from a story) haunted? do you wish it was? for a small fee, i'll put ghosts in it for you!

i'm trying out a google form for commissions this time around rather than a first-come-first-serve model. this form will be open for a limited time. probably till around the end of may. i'll have a handful of commission slots to begin with, and i'll pull from the form response pool once more slots start opening up.

want a haunted house? fill out the form here! (reblogs are super appreciated to spread the word! 🫀)

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kaylee rowena's haunted house commissions form!

Hello there! I'm trying out a form-based system for commissions this time around. Fill this out if you're interested in getting a haunted ho