I Really Wish Ppl Wouldnt Automatically Assume Im Being Rude When Im Actually Just Uncomfortable Yk ?

Person: go do this

Me: I can’t I need space

Person: you can have space when you do the thing

Me: *puts on headphones and ignores everything just to do the thing *

Person: you can’t just ignore us that’s rude

Me: *is too overstimulated and overwhelmed*

Person: ugh spoiled

(I don’t know if this is just me or if other neurodivergent people experience this but) growing up I was bullied/shamed for having any interests whatsoever so now I’ve just learned to internalize any impulses to infodump. like I really want to talk about all these really interesting things, but like even thinking about telling another person just feels so wrong? and dirty? I don’t really know if this makes sense, but it’s basically unstoppable force (the need to share my hyperfixations) vs immovable object (paralyzing anxiety)

I have bouts where I am semi-verbal. I've seen lots of people talk about how when you become semi/non-verbal, it's painful to talk. I don't experience pain with it though.

When I become less verbal, my lips feel like they're glued together. It's not in a scary way either. It's either in a heavy way, where it feels like it takes a great amount of force to open my mouth and say something, or it's in a peaceful/natural way, where I simply don't feel the need to talk anymore.

Usually, I also become less emotive too. I am usually super expressive, but it becomes like my entire face has been drained of the energy it needs to move as much. Most of the time, I can answer very basic responses such as one word answers, or small phrases that don't require thought (i.e. I don't know)

Sometimes I become semi-verbal when I become too overwhelmed. Other times, I become semi-verbal because I've been alone too long, I'm recharging, I'm deep inside my own head, or I've been hyperfocused on something.

What does it feel like for other people who become semi/non-verbal?

like or reblog if you still have plushies/stuffed animals. im autistic and need validation

hearing birdsong outside again is healing me, actually

My old boy enjoying some watermelon :3

resources when your symptoms aren't cutesy and quirky <33

knits you one of those silly little snake sweaters so you don't get cold

^_^ thank you!!

me irl

has anyone else noticed their sensory issues getting worse during quarantine? particularly my sensitivity to sound has worsened. I feel like I’ve had the ability to control my surroundings so much that going out in public now is a real struggle cause it’s just so loud and chaotic.