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simon lewis is his own pov is so funny because I was rereading the scene of him summoning Raziel and the way he's like "oh I don't know how introduce myself because I'm just Some Guy who has no titles or great deeds to his name :/" DUDE YOU KILLED LILITH?????????

This is just cartman

it's healthy for academics to have professional feuds. enrichment activity

Simon and his memory.

SPOILERS FOR CITY OF HEAVENLY FIRE.

bethaniebooks said: EEEEEEEEEK!!! Hi! Um, I’m like so nervous right now!! I am a HUGE fan of TMI and so is my best friend, we talk about it almost every day…but I have to ask…WHY DID YOU MAKE SIMON LOSE HIS MEMORY?! Me and my friend cried for like a week straight! I just have to know…*sigh*

Simon losing his memory was set up in City of Lost Souls, when Azazel takes a memory from each of Team Good, indicating that demons trade in memories.

Simon lost his memory because though I planned a hopeful and sweet more than bitter ending for TMI, I didn’t think it was an ending that should come entirely without consequence. Consequences are part of the theme of the books, thus the quote from Ted Hughes that opens City of Fallen Angels:

Nothing is free. Everything has to be paid for. For every profit in one thing, payment in some other thing. For every life, a death. Even your music, of which we have heard so much, that had to be paid for. Your wife was the payment for your music. Hell is now satisfied. 

There was no way for Team Good to get out of Edom without paying a huge price. Sebastian’s life isn’t a huge price, because they came there to kill him, so accomplishing what you came there to do, however that might prick you with regrets, isn’t a huge price. They lost Raphael, but that was before the majority of Team Good even got there, and Raphael didn’t come to Edom willingly — he was forced. Being kidnapped and then killed isn’t a consequence for a choice you made.

It was important to me that Team Good be brave and willing to sustain losses to save the world. They chose to go to Edom, knowing they’d probably never come back. They were gifted with a way to come back, but that way had to come at a terrible price. It could have been any of them that volunteered to die — they all did volunteer to die. It could have been Magnus’ life, but since they pretty much forced Magnus to call upon his father in the first place, that’s very uncomfortable. When Team Good forces one of their members to do something they didn’t want to do and the result is that that member dies, Team Good may have to become Team Morally Compromised.

Not to mention I’m not sure it’s something Alec would have survived.

For every profit in one thing, payment in some other thing. They all got out of Edom, even Simon. The payment was Simon’s memories. They could all otherwise have gotten out of Edom with no payment at all, but then they look pretty stupid for having been so worried about going to Edom in the first place as it is clearly a cakewalk where you get to have sex in caves. Everyone should go to the demon realms! They have skiing! 

As for why memories?! why Simon?! — well, removing any else’s memories would have meant throwing them out on the streets of a world where they had no way to survive; they’re all Shadowhunters or magical creatures. Simon had a life to go back to. It was a survivable if agonizing compromise. It is also a choice that hits pretty much all of them where it hurts. They’re Shadowhunters. Simon’s not. They should have protected him. They couldn’t. Save the world and lose a piece of your heart; that’s a consequence.

Hi Cassie :) About Simon - I was wondering what exactly your reasoning was behind having Simon become a shadowhunter. In one of your old blog posts (I can’t remember which), you said you thought he “deserved” to become a shadowhunter after fighting alongside them for so long. But I feel like that implies vampires aren’t as good as shadowunters, something Simon and Alec talked about. From what I understood, it wasn’t okay for Alec to think Simon was beneath him simply because he was a vampire, but doesn’t what you stated imply that vampires aren’t on equal standing with shadowhunters? Also, now that Simon is mortal again, on the path to becoming a shadowhunter and also capable of having children, doesn’t that make all of his struggles throughout the series meaningless? I enjoyed watching Simon struggle with his identity and accepting his vampirism (if that’s a word), and I really liked the whole Mark of Cain thing. But if all of that is reversed, what was the point of his struggles? I just feel like his ending was too perfect. But I’m sure you have some reasoning behind it all, and I’d be honored if you’d share it with us. Thanks so much!!

I put these two questions side by side to illustrate the variety of reader response. From the idea that what happened to Simon is unbearable to the idea that what happens to Simon is too perfect, everyone has their different take. And as I believe all personal takes are valid, all I can do is give you my take. It may mean I disagree or we focus on different things but it doesn’t mean I think your reading is invalid. Just wanted to get that our of the way.

. In one of your old blog posts (I can’t remember which), you said you thought he “deserved” to become a shadowhunter after fighting alongside them for so long. But I feel like that implies vampires aren’t as good as shadowunters, something Simon and Alec talked about.

This is extra-book stuff as we’re now discussing my commentary on commentary. :) But I will say I don’t agree here. Simon deserved to become a Shadowhunter because it was something he wanted to be, not because it was something objectively better. Saying someone deserves something they want… not really the same as saying that what they don’t want is beneath them. If Simon had wanted to be a pilot and not a sailor, would that mean the text communicated ‘DAMN ALL SAILORS’?

I enjoyed watching Simon struggle with his identity and accepting his vampirism (if that’s a word), and I really liked the whole Mark of Cain thing. But if all of that is reversed, what was the point of his struggles? 

Simon lost the Mark of Cain in City of Lost Souls — traded it away for a weapon from Raziel. In fact, his speaking to Raziel was possibly the most Shadowhuntery thing anyone but Clary has done in TMI! Here is where we’re going to disagree textually (and that’s fine) — I never wrote Simon as accepting his vampirism, purposefully. He always hated it. He hated what happened with Maureen, he hated losing his family, he hated the idea of being in a clan, of living with other vampires. He didn’t have any vampire friends unless you count Raphael and that was always a tetchy relationship during which Raphael repeatedly told Simon that he was a terrible vampire because in fact he was. He was uniquely unsuited to it. The only thing he ever seemed to like about it was biting Isabelle and there are other things he could have done with Isabelle that he probably would have liked as much if not more.

(Lord Montgomery ponders.)

Also, now that Simon is mortal again, on the path to becoming a shadowhunter and also capable of having children, doesn’t that make all of his struggles throughout the series meaningless?

Jace is now free of the heavenly fire, knows who he is, knows the love of his life isn’t his sister, and is on a path to a happy life. Does that make all his struggles meaningless? Why would a happy ending specifically make anyone’s struggles meaningless? 

I mean, it could be that I am not understanding the question properly. From my point of view, Simon’s struggles — not wanting to be a vampire, not knowing how to deal with being rejected by his family, being always afraid vampires were going to spring at him for his yummy Daylighter blood — are simply being replaced with a different set of struggles. Simon is now an ex-Downworlder who is going to have to go train to become a Shadowhunter in a world where Shadowhunters, despite the progress made, still hate and distrust Downworlders, and everyone knows who he is. He has to go live in Idris, a place he doesn’t remember. He is also going to have to somehow come to terms with the fact that he no longer remembers a huge portion of his life. He doesn’t remember his childhood properly, or his best friend, or the girl he loves, or himself. He’s going to have to reconstruct an entirely new Simon out of the pieces he has and whatever he gets back. To me that is a much more interesting struggle.

Also, now that Simon is mortal again, on the path to becoming a shadowhunter and also capable of having children

All of these things are good things only if Simon wants them. Who wants to be mortal? I don’t, frankly. Others do. Not everyone would want to be  Shadowhunter. Simon luckily does, always has since book one. As for the children thing, who says he wants them or ever will? Not everyone wants children; not everyone has to have children to be happy. (Interesting post here about how difficult it is if you don’t want kids to find any kind of story that reflects your life and wants. “It seems in every other romance there must be a baby-epilogue, or baby-logue, with pregnancy and glowing and 2.5 children in the future. Which books feature heroines and heroes who are not interested in having children, whether it’s a major topic point or not? Which ones did you like best?”) TDA takes place when Simon would be 22, TWP when he would be 25. There’s no reason to think even if he wanted kids he’d have any in that time period or it would impact the story. (Besides, I think everyone assumed he’d wind up with Izzy as a vampire, and then they’d be together, and then they could perfectly well have kids by adopting them or with artificial insemination. Adopted children are your children. When Magnus and Alec adopt, that will be their kid. Sorry, tangential unrelated rant — my best friend has two biological kids, my other best friend’s son is adopted, and I don’t have kids. I get tired of hearing that only one of us has a family that is considered happy or acceptable.)

ANYWAY.

I don’t think that when struggles are over, they are rendered meaningless. I think that if there is something that feels weird about Simon’s ending, it is that everyone else gets what feels like closure. Simon gets what feels like an opening for more story. And there will be more story — in Tales from the Shadowhunter Academy, and even in TDA. I can see how that would make one feel “this ending is different/strange/why do I feel differently about it than the endings for the other characters?” And sometimes when things feel strange, we struggle to identify why – too happy, too sad, too overdetermined, too unclear? Maybe that explains the range of response to some extent. And also just that readers are always different people. A book is a bit of a kaleidescope – every person who looks in it will see the same glittering crystals, but never in quite exactly the same arrangement.

ALSO I cannot wait to possibly see the new academy in the BiB sizzy story

I know Simon helped set up the new academy so does that mean he has more of an administrative role or will he be a teacher? that would be so fun

OH and imagine Izzy as a training instructor

I am absolutely certain that Simon was the captain of his school’s debate team. I know a podium hates to see him coming.

Okay, I need to talk about this passage from City of Bones

Something that comes up a couple of times in regards to the Circle era is that all the modern kids kind of look down on the previous generation for buying into all of this bullshit, much like the readers probably do. Clary is a modern American teenager, of course she hears about Valentine and immediately sees the obvious parallels to white supremacy, of course she can't believe that her family would go along with that and knows that she would do better. And Luke doesn't argue with her, or try to defend his assertation that Valentine wasn't always evil. Even if Valentine was Luke's friend at first, he still should have known better than to let things go so far. Jocelyn should have known better, the Lightwoods should have known better, they all should have known better. But they didn't, and neither does Clary.

Even though she's able to identify Valentine's rhetoric as hateful when she's learning about it as "things said by this mass murderer," she still repeats the same stuff after picking it up from people she trusts. Clary falls into the classic progressive pitfall of lumping opinions into right and wrong; people into good and evil. Luke isn't trying to convince her that Valentine was actually a good person or that it's okay to do a little violent hate crime as a teenager, he's trying to point out that knowing which people to label as "evil" doesn't actually do anything to make you an ally to the people being oppressed. She can hate Valentine, but can she see werewolves and vampires as people equal to herself?

The answer is yes, obviously she can. But it's only because she has people like Luke there to call her out when she does something out of line. Luke fell for that stuff too as a teenager, but he took the time to unpack all those hateful beliefs, and so has a much better understanding of how to live up to his ideals than the kid who's never done anything wrong in her life.

In addition, I really like that the book wasn't afraid to acknowledge how Valentine is definitely analagous to white supremacists. Most stories with some sort of fantasy discrimination act like this is the only bigotry and their characters have never heard of racism, but that automatically flattens the world. Clary thinks she knows enough about racism to apply those lessons from history onto a new situation, but she clearly isn't actually ready to practice what she preaches.

Also, this is by no means a Clary hate post. I love that she's a flawed character and that the narrative acknowledges this and lets her grow from it. A lot of stories would be afraid to look at the protagonist (who's kinda a reader insert) and go "you are not immune to propaganda," but it's an important thing to make the kids reading these books aware of. Clary isn't evil, but she did do some harmful things and has to reckon with that potential for hate within herself before it goes any farther.

It's not perfect and it's not a complete education on anti-discrimination, but it's better than what you might expect from a YA urban fantasy novel published in 2007. Hell, it's better than you expect from a lot of people active online today.

More excited for this than anything tbh

heyyyy so happy for twp news finally after having religiously followed the shadowverse since i first read mortal instruments as a 13 year old I AM PSYCHED to see how it all ties up together

my question is how much of the mortal instruments gang will i get to see in twp?!! (pls keep the 6 alive and happy plsplspls thank you bye)

Well, you know I never promise anything about aliveness and happiness, but you will see them all. One of the first things that happens in Last King is that Dru and Thais travel to New York to see Simon's band at Pandemonium (and everyone is there — Jace, Clary, Simon, Isabelle, Magnus, Alec...)

This scene has always confused me a little. I know that Jace really did miss Simon because he was the first real friend he ever made, but is that what he was going to say? Does he wish Simon remembered how they overcame their hatred of each other and grew into friends who truly cared for each other? Or does he feel guilty when Simon treats him like a friend and wish simon remembered how much he should hate him? I can never figure out whether Jace is guilty or hopeful in this scene. Does Jace feel that he doesn’t deserve to be treated with the trust and affection Simon shows him at the academy, or does he wish Simon remembered their shared experiences and what it took them to become real friends?

This is why Simon and Clary’s friendship is so elite

Bad news for the haters of the world: Clary Fray is based as fuck. Literally everything she does is justified, and frankly I would have been worse.

My favourite detail is that the backgrounds in these drawings reflect the characters and how they relate to each other. Clary is the sky and Simon is the moon and stars, but Jace is the sun. Simon is dark, the night’s child, and Jace is light, a child of the angels. Clary dreamed of Jace with bright golden wings, and Simon with dark black wings. Jace is brought back by an angel, Simon is taken away by a demon.

if tmi ever gets adapted in a visual media again, there's need to be shot of Magnus alone in his apartment after the part in city of bones imo. like it represents him sooo well at this point of the story in such a gutting way.

just. that moment after the party ends. there's no more music and the lights come on and the magic of it all dies. you look around at wreckage around you and then you leave with your friends and take all the fun and laughter with you to go home because the moment is over and life continues on.

except for Magnus, because this is his life. that silent hollow room is all he has.

so much of Magnus is frivolous and fun; he throws parties and goes on adventures and he's over the top in all the best ways. and it's all a bit of a front for the fact there's nothing meaningful behind it. that he's throwing parties for his cat because there's no one else to throw them for. that all his friends are immortal, and flicker in and out of his life between all the other things they have going on that give their lives meaning his doesn't have.

Magnus, for all the 400 years he's lived, doesn't really have anyone even to mourn. there were people very important to him, absolutely, but they came with a catch. Etta is one of the exes he looks back upon the most fondly, and she left him because she wanted a family, something meaningful that was incompatible with him. Most warlocks only live because someone loved them enough to protect them from the world, but Magnus lived because he saved himself. there's never been anyone else but him from the very beginning.

except for now theres these random teens who barrel into his life and refuse to leave. and he makes flippant comments and puts up his walls because he knows in the end it'll just be him alone in aftermath, because that's how it always ends. except. when he calls Asmodeus in Edom, when he know theres no way to save himself and when he comes to terms with that... they stand between them. they save his life. Simon makes a massive sacrifice for him, and no one has ever really done that before.

just. that moment after that first party. Magnus standing in the carved down emptiness left behind. and that's the beginning, because they stick around this time. they're annoying and reckless and a little doomed by the universe and this time they're his.

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One thing that I’d love to see more of is the dynamic between Simon and Catarina. She said he reminds her of her son?? And Simon is severely lacking in a stable mother figure??? I wish we got to see him from her perspective. Their relationship was my absolute favourite thing from tftsa, I want more.

hmm tall dark haired born into a prestigious lineage had something going on with their parabatai high position in the goverment adopted a child has a son named max was hit on by a vampire was racist for a hot second is it robert or alec lightwood

Anush WHAT are you doing here

Name a more iconic duo than a twink

And a redhead!!

Also clary coded now that I think about it

Simon coded

Simon coded

elaine lewis and maryse lightwood

there is a lot of elaine lewis takes circling around right now and i really wanted to add my 2 cents even if my thoughts aren't super coherent.

we know that she was neglectful and she suffered from depression and (possibly bipolar disorder but that's up for debate). she also is implied to be an alcoholic leaving becky to act as simons caretaker.

i dont think simon fully comprehended the gravity of her neglect until she accuses him of being a monster in book 4. i think its possible that he didnt want to think badly about her because of the grief of his dad's death. even afterwards he deludes himself into believing it

what i haven't seen though, is criticism of maryse lightwood. she is also a neglectful parent and its weird how this is brushed off. for christ sake she was part of a religious extremist group. obviously robert is the shittier parent (also the line where celine says robert reminds her of her own dad?? who tortured her?? why dont we talk about this??) but lets not pretend that makes maryse innocent. she was an unfit parent who left alec to parent her children. she never failed to make it obvious who her favourite children were (hint: not alec) and turns 13 yr old izzy into her therapist. all of which maryse acknowledges but does not take accountability for

i think people are willing to forgive her because she wasn't extremely homophobic but elaine and maryse are two sides of the same coin. neither of them were able to be good parents and used religion to traumatise their children.

"oh i really love xyz character-" really? outside the context of shipping?

I could not read another fantasy/YA after finishing TFTSA, the Cassandra Clare to realism/adult fiction pipeline snatched me up and spat me out.

at the end of the day no other series has given me the same high as the mortal instruments

Lord Montgomery

“Everybody knows you are a devil with the ladies, with your poetically puffed shirt and irresistible pants…”

“Lord Montgomery considers nothing but his own desires. I’ll tell you something else. Lord Montgomery has a very large estate… and pretty extensive grounds too.”

it's so important to me that simon took guitar lessons for most of his life. that he'd been planning to go to music school after he graduated. that he had dreams of making a life for himself with his music. that music is so intrinsically a part of him.

simon has been a mundane and a vampire and a shadowhunter. but he'll always be a musician

my toxic tmi trait is that i only care for simon and i hate everyone else in the series because they all have mistreated simon in someway throughout the six books just because he was a mundane/vampire. and i don’t like it took simon sacrificing himself for most of them to realize he was worth something and i think they should hate themselves a little more for how they treated the dude who ended up saving them from edom <3

Why is everybody just ignoring dilf Simon???? Is no one seeing absolute dilf Simon Lovelace but me???

WHO IS IGNORING HIM? WHOM? WHOMST? SHOW ME! I WILL FIGHT THEM FOR THIS CRIME.

Anyone else remember when Simon and George were gonna raise baby out if there sock drawer? Cause it was so pure I love them so much!

Jace: Simon is many things: Friend, confident, co-worker, occasional guest star in some confusing dreams that remind me a man’s sexuality is a moving target…