I'm So Ass At Measuring Distance That If I Woke Up In A Saw Trap And The Only Requirement Was To "run

the suffering never ends

I really, really hate how awful I am in regards to keeping in contact with others. I want healthy and fulfilling relationships with my friends, but it’s very hard for me to wholly invest myself. I want to talk to you, but it’s difficult for me to muster the energy to do so sometimes. I want to hang out with you, but isolation also sounds nice right now. I’ll read your texts, but I’m not necessarily in the mood to reply at the moment. Then I feel anxious attempting to reach out when I do have the energy and I am in a good mood because I feel like I pushed you away and you dislike me now, so I usually remain isolated. I feel selfish because of it. And I feel like a bad friend.

I love using "by the way" as a segue into topics that are completely unrelated to the matters at hand. it isn't remotely by the way, quite a ways out of the way in fact. a little adventure

self-sacrifice, praise kink, and non-con surgery/body modification

gonna be real here, this Could Be Worse! Not sure what I'd sacrifice myself for, but generally speaking I'd like to live please

Spin this wheel of ~300 AO3 tags three times.

A bad photoshop will always be funnier than an AI image no matter what

kind of insane that you can go to doctors for years and have them look up your nose every single time and not one of them remarks on the actual state of your nose - not the fact one of your nostrils is 90% deviated and you can't even get a Qtip up there for a covid test - because they're not NOSE doctors - and then you go to the nose doctor at age 30 and he's like "wow your nose is fucked up!!! you've been living like this? lol yeah i can fix this. i do 10 of these surgeries a day. i'm the nose guy. you want me." and it's true

Shout out to people with auditory processing disorder!!!

If your tummy itches when you wear jeans, you have a nickel allergy and should paint the back of the buttion with nail polish. Okay I am going into the woods forever now. I love you.

Dreamt i was in some kinda communal living situation and I could live off of being requested to do favors and help people out on projects and such and that was enough. I had a walkietalkie and people would just ask me throughout the day to be a helping hand on various tasks and it was never something where I was expected to be specialized enough to not need guidance but i was appreciated for it. It was worthy of praise and my needs were taken care of because I was contributing and. Wow that's pathetic, but i yearn for it so bad. Im not built to survive in this landscape im in. It was so nice. Being appreciated for what I could do. Im literally crying at 4 am after waking up from that.