THAT'S ALL FOLKS!
Jackson's Diary: Oneshot: Inspired by chapter 131-132: Jackson centric: Angst: Hurt no comfort: No beta we die like exer: Jaxer(?): Could be read as platonic
And My Blood Will Freeze For You
Jackson has always been used to the cold, ever since his mother died alongside the emptiness he always felt winter had made a home in his heart.
Today was different, today the usually quiet winter raged a storm. He can feel the frost spreading from his ribcage and through the rest of his body ever so patient yet quick, his blood turning into icicles that would cut his skin from the inside to make it's way outside of his body leaving a bloody mess in the painful process.
The rain was pouring outside, the sound of each drop like a song that rhythm with his storm; quiet and almost unheard to the outsiders yet rining in his ears loud enough he can drown in it, and there will be nobody to save him.
Nobody to reach their hand to him, to chase him down a hallway or constantly ask him if he's feeling ok even though he won't talk and he would deserve it
He would deserve drowning for the entire night because he fucked up and hurt Exer
Jackson grinds his teeth and without even knowing it, soft tears start forming in his eyes.
Jackson had spent a long time wishing that he could go back in time to his childhood and do something anything to save his mother, now he wishes more than anything that if only he could go back and change the results of what had happened for Exer.
His mind scrambled at all the things he could've done. If only he never picked up that dairy. If only he never reached out to Exer again. If only he had told the truth. If only he never went to the forest earlier today. If only he ran after David instead,
(If only he never warned David about that rock. A cruel part in him whispers)
Jackson pushes the possibilities away, now only focusing on replaying the events in his head again and again and again and again until the scenes crash together and he can see himself in Exer's place.
He focuses his thoughts on that imagine, his cold blood spilling out. His body laying beneath the rock, his breath shallow as he breathes out cold smoke. Maybe if he tries hard enough he could believe that this is what had happened, that he's the one in the hospital bed and Exer is waiting out with Pamela and David,
Because that's what should have been. That's the reality they should be living in, not the real one he's forced to face right now.
He should've been the one hurt, not Exer. Never Exer
And the worst part is that this won't be the last of it.
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THAT'S ALL FOLKS!
Keep dreaming!
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So I have a theory that Jackson's Diary is less of a supernatural and more of a story about two mentally ill people with magic involved and I decided to reread it and keep notes on anything and everything that supports that theory
PS:much easier if you read the chapter after or while reading these notes
Chap14 notes:
•Jackson cutting exer off and giving him an angry look is a sign he knows that exer is on to ruin things for him, also that and the screaming feel like previous hints at what jack could be like when he's actually angry but here he's still holding it together unlike when exer told him the truth and Jack pieced things together
•the look up at exer glaring as jack explains after cutting him off and holding his glare afterwards, this is tied back to the previous note that exer is infact fully aware jack didn't do anything wrong but he still want to set him up as the bad guy, I also think exer is mad that Jackson can infact defend himself even when he's antagonized. Exer will keep glaring at jack until the end of the chapter
•Jackson forgiving the reds and even saying it was his fault anyway, this here was the first big sign on his people pleaser's behavior as nobody would forgive someone like this after being wronged
Thinking about "I love Amy" as a story about breaking the cycle of abuse
How Amy feared cars for most of her childhood because of what her mother did, but ended up getting a driver's license so that she could drive her kid to school
How she was so terrified of falling in love and hurting her loved ones like her mother did, but ended up striving to be the kind of partner that Bibi needed
How the abuse Nick experienced made him resent Bibi, how Bibi got sick of losing everything she loved and ended up seriously hurting people in her attempts to get what she wanted, how she ignored Amy's wishes for such a long time, but when Amy ran away and Bibi found her, she decided to give Amy a choice. Bibi would bring Amy anywhere she wanted to go.
How Bibi is described as a yandere, but "not a yandere to Amy. They just love each other."
Done. Of course there's some smell left but that's why we have 18 sprayers
No time for questions *sprays febreze on you*
What the- ASHSSGSSGHSAAAA MY EYES
#Raven CLOCKING lenore: Gurl just ain't good enough🙄😔
Annabel hun your eyes' colors are changing to green
Let's just ignore canon for a moment and just pretend that Annabel is being a sappy gay disaster
I ship Eliavid (I came up with that ship name btw)
HEAR ME OUT
ok just hear me out-
You (David Miller) shipped with . . . .
wait for it . . .
*drumroll sounds*
. . .
Elijah?
no offense to elijah but NO. just no. never. sorry dude, i got my dude already
I have joined the devious gang
Welcome
Our numbers grow every day😈
Alright I'll try...
Jackson - Merlin from Red Shoes
Exer - Marshall Lee from Fiona And Cake
Timothy - Nine from Sonic Prime
David - David from Camp Camp
Elijah - Anthony from My Student Spirit [English dub]
Ronald - Kuromaku from 13Cards
Ken - Jax from The Amazing Digital Circus
Pamela - Marceline from Adventure Time
Brenda - Rapunzel from Tangled
Jolie - Meg from Hercules
@lebknees @hyper-dragon @ceaselesswwatch3r
Jackson's dairy voice claims:D
Exer-Eric from Micheals vs the machines
David-N from murder drones
Jackson-Izuku from My hero Academia
Pamela-Ragatha from The amazing digital circus
Brenda-Charlie from Hazbin hotel
Ron-Shoto also from my hero academia
Jolie- Uzi from murder drones
Ken-Jax from the amazing digital circus
Timothy-Henry from Minecraft movie
I'm too lazy to make others
@xx-midnight-candy-goblin-xx WHAT DO U THINK
FINALLY IT'S OUT HERE. I was dying to say something about the Jackson hates lucy posts
im so glad u care about lucy-furr deep down even though she hates u cus it was the right thing to do but as someone who doesn't get along with animals i Know it was hard
Yeah, that cat owes me one.
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