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GUYS I THINK I'M GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK 😨

WHY?!!???!!!???!!!!!

hey can you force ado to make an NJ song next please

HEY @xx-midnight-candy-goblin-xx WRITE NJ SONG RN

Awww, lucy furr is a little prankster

Look at her!🥹

(She's just like Jackson)

Nice. I don't know what to add to this, so far the situation being caused by DID seems likely but I think we need to know more about the Diary situation to make a more grounded judgment.

Has anyone talked about the plurality in Jackson's Diary?

I don't know but I'm listening anyway

Has anyone talked about the plurality in Jackson's Diary?

Awww that's so sweet- he knows he's going to push them away and keep lying to them because that's how he is

He'll never be honest. He'll never show them the same love and trust they show him

Waiitttttttt.......

So while exer had THREE nightmares about (probably) Jackson in a week

Jackson went to THREE different therapists in the very same week

Huh....interesting

David: I think the guy is nuts

Jackson: YES I AM! Thanks for noticing David!:D

Jackson diary preview Chapter 21:

PS:much easier if you read the chapter after or while reading these notes

°I don't get Jackson's lack of self awareness. it's really weird how much he sometimes can't understand other people's behavior even if it's completely normal response to how he acted, of course David and ron are gonna be weird around him when he left them like that, he even acknowledged they're gonna think there's something wrong with him but now it's like it just got deleted from his brain. And shouting like this even though he should know both pamela and the library lady won't like it? This chapter's Jackson just feels very off character

Jackson's diary preview Chapter 19:

PS:much easier if you read the chapter after or while reading these notes

°uh yes. The satisfaction of exer's plans failing miserably

Chapter 20:

°alright I don't get how David doesn't realize exer likes brenda. It's just too obvious

•ron and David reaction to Jackson's behavior by trying to not associate themselves with him as much is pretty understandable; exer got what he wanted and Jackson accidentally helped him out with it.

Jackson's diary preview Chapter 18:

(Changed this series name because yes)

We left off at:

https://www.tumblr.com/loo011/755474519500718080/so-i-have-a-theory-that-jacksons-diary-is-less-of?source=share

PS:much easier if you read the chapter after or while reading these notes

•honestly if we didn't know exer's being a manipulative ass it would've been nice and understandable of him to tell his friends to give Jackson space but we know the truth; he's only saying that so Jackson doesn't join the reds.

•crazy how exer and Pamela's relationship turned into when it's awfully clear he held no remorse whatsoever for what he's done to her. Quite the opposite he seems as annoyed by her existence -maybe even more- as he is with Jackson.

•once again exer's acting skills are Top Notch! He genuinely looks shocked I can almost believe it

FROM 1990 TO 1989

these are the vibes for chapter 1 💯: Tuesday's Gone

(jackson’s pov):

AHHHHHH I AM BEYOND EXITED FOR THIS FIC! only 1 chap is currently out (16.2k words) and it’s a Jaxer/Jexer endgame!

Summary:

“The day Exer turned 19 is when it all went bad. Real fucking bad.

An earthquake set forth the catastrophe. No one in town thought anything of it, as they had become more and more used to their frequentness thanks to Exer’s little…accidents.

Okay, putting it that way makes it sound as if the boy still wets his pants. A better word would be ‘outbursts’.

Anyway, not the point.

Even Jackson didn’t freak out during the first few minutes of the trembling. He knew Exer had a good support group and it would all calm down in due time.

It didn’t.”

Jackson's childhood teddy bear from the flashback in ep 130 kinda represent exer?

Jackson's Diary: Oneshot: Inspired by chapter 131-132: Jackson centric: Angst: Hurt no comfort: No beta we die like exer: Jaxer(?): Could be read as platonic

And My Blood Will Freeze For You

Jackson has always been used to the cold, ever since his mother died alongside the emptiness he always felt winter had made a home in his heart.

Today was different, today the usually quiet winter raged a storm. He can feel the frost spreading from his ribcage and through the rest of his body ever so patient yet quick, his blood turning into icicles that would cut his skin from the inside to make it's way outside of his body leaving a bloody mess in the painful process.

The rain was pouring outside, the sound of each drop like a song that rhythm with his storm; quiet and almost unheard to the outsiders yet rining in his ears loud enough he can drown in it, and there will be nobody to save him.

Nobody to reach their hand to him, to chase him down a hallway or constantly ask him if he's feeling ok even though he won't talk and he would deserve it

He would deserve drowning for the entire night because he fucked up and hurt Exer

Jackson grinds his teeth and without even knowing it, soft tears start forming in his eyes.

Jackson had spent a long time wishing that he could go back in time to his childhood and do something anything to save his mother, now he wishes more than anything that if only he could go back and change the results of what had happened for Exer.

His mind scrambled at all the things he could've done. If only he never picked up that dairy. If only he never reached out to Exer again. If only he had told the truth. If only he never went to the forest earlier today. If only he ran after David instead,

(If only he never warned David about that rock. A cruel part in him whispers)

Jackson pushes the possibilities away, now only focusing on replaying the events in his head again and again and again and again until the scenes crash together and he can see himself in Exer's place.

He focuses his thoughts on that imagine, his cold blood spilling out. His body laying beneath the rock, his breath shallow as he breathes out cold smoke. Maybe if he tries hard enough he could believe that this is what had happened, that he's the one in the hospital bed and Exer is waiting out with Pamela and David,

Because that's what should have been. That's the reality they should be living in, not the real one he's forced to face right now.

He should've been the one hurt, not Exer. Never Exer

And the worst part is that this won't be the last of it.

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THAT'S ALL FOLKS!

Keep dreaming!

Something that's almost never acknowledged by jd readers (yes this is a character study)

A popular belief from s1 is that Jackson beat up exer because of what he did to pamela, however that's not actually right

If you go back to read prior to the fight you'll realize that Jackson was never really pissed off about what exer did until he realized that exer been sabotaging him too, that's when he gets angry.

Of course he acknowledges that's what exer did to pamela and yes it upset him and he believes pam should know; but the thing is that it doesn't upset him enough to beat exer up

Do you know what upsets him enough?

Pamela's makeover and joining the reds

This is what upsets him enough to beat exer up

Why?

Because looking at this from a different perspective; it looks like exer is still trying to sabotage Jackson's life and isolate him.

The only people on Jackson's side are pamela and brenda, but brenda is more of with both sides and with David being her brother and she obviously regaining her crush on exer; that would leave Jackson with only one person he can absolutely trust won't leave him: Pamela

So seeing Pamela with the reds felt like everything was crumbling for him; that exer was manipulating pam to join him and his friends and then exer would continue his cat and mouse game that Jackson now knows of.

So really it wasn't about pamela as a person as much as it was about pamela as Jackson's last remaining companion in that rivalry thing

Jackson and Diary casually giving Horror game character vibes:

No thoughts, just their hair

The ron disrespect is real

And the Jackson fear-

Can't forget that one

Elijah on his stalker arc

Just want to be clear but we all know Diary is definitely lying, right?

I mean that switch from annoyed to apologetic was too weird and sus

I FINALLY GOT IT TO WORK

not NJ cutely possessing Jackson and then flipping everyone off 🙄

@nightmare-jackson-smith

NO BECAUSE THIS IS LITERALLY A CANON FACT

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@defsnotdeathnote @xx-midnight-candy-goblin-xx @formallake @jacksonsmithforreal @samanthagardens @itsmejolie @nightmare-jackson-smith

Tag game time baby

Ok here are the rules:

1: Go to Character Headcanon Generator

2: Type the name of your current #1 kin character/comfort character

3: Press the "Create Headcanon" button

4: Take a screenshot of the headcanon that it generated and post it in your reblog

5: Tag some moots

Here I'll go first :3

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What is your obsession with me

- @normanfuckingrockwell11

I'm not obsessed with you. I might've just taken a hobby of tormenting the homos and you especially are fun to torment :)

what the skibbidi

That's not very sigma alpha ohio rizzler level 10 gyatt of you

My friend edited Ron with blonde hair

@the-official-rocking-russian-man

thoughts on zair?

He smells bad and @defsnotdeathnote hate him but I have febreze so it's all good :)👍

Happy Birthday NJ 🙏💕

Is Halloween your birthday?

Yeah

Well at least you won't cause mass murder or something lol

What would you do if IF hypothetically NJ broke up with you

Cry, probably

What about a top 10?

What's your favorite song?

Too hard to choose.