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the full moon last night 💌💌💌

my first favorite hobby is yapping. second is being extremely quiet and not talking ever at all ever.

Wednesday, August 9.

Space.

Yeah, science b*tch.

Space is, and let us make no bones about this, the cat's whiskers. The news each day is grim, and seemingly only ever grimmer. So it makes a refreshing change once in a while when those fine folk in the whitecoats deliver some fascinating, albeit existential, updates. But even here, there is better and worse: for better, for example, in the last year alone a rogue black hole was spotted on its own for the first time, NASA’s DART Mission hit an asteroid in a first-ever planetary defense test, and astronomers revealed the first image of the black hole at the heart of our galaxy. Very nice, very cool. Very space.

However, it seems we never learn when to leave a good (and very big, scary) thing well enough alone from the claws of capitalism, as Virgin Galactic plans to launch its first space tourism flight. In any case, we can't exactly blame their curiosity. The study of space has captivated our tiny minds for millennia, and it remains a beautiful, fascinating, frightening, and silent enigma. There are endless mysteries up there, and the question for us is whether they are best left well alone. Or, in the immortal words of Ian Malcolm, "Your scientists were so preoccupied with whether or not they could, that they didn't stop to think if they should."

So let's give it up for the magnificent beauty and ceaseless, elusive terror that is #space. 

Don't allow others to consume you. If they don't call, go to sleep. If they don't message you, put away your phone & have a good day. If they are distant and refuse to tell you what's wrong, go home and do something fun. You live for yourself first. They are secondary.

i'm like a whore that's shy and also kinda quiet and moody and secretive and mysterious and reserved

all haters die eventually. and so do your loved ones. and pets. and your first crush. and that one memory you couldn't let go of.

Being a girl without close girl friends I spend time with feels like some sort of spiritual jail I've been put in for this particular lifetime and it's such a walk of shame in this day and age like I can't count how many reels or tiktoks I see of girls saying stuff like "girls who don't have girl friends??? RED FLAG!!!" Or like jokes about when you befriend the girl who has no girl friends and then you realize why...yikes! Cause she sucks and is toxic and unlovable! And I'm like ouch, that's tough to hear. I know those narratives are popular because girl friendships can be painful and I'm sure there's lot of people out there who have been deeply unkind whether on purpose or not but I guess it pains me to watch people make laughable comments about lonely women. I feel like being a lonely woman is such a derogatory notion already deeply imbedded in society and sexism that I feel like it's just sort of being reframed in the new age as like "she did that to herself" and that's never true, we are all the result of the love we get or don't and it's definitely our own responsibility how we act and how we heal or don't - but it feels so judgmental sometimes to further "other" women who don't have friends

the weirdest fucking thing to me is how men will be like "it's so hard being a man. no one cares that i'm sad. the loneliness we experience could NEVER be understood by a woman" and then also be like "btw i never talk to my friends and i don't know their names and i love hanging out with men because they don't talk about their stupid emotions all the time. women could never understand a bond like this." like ???

Me, screaming and crying: "WHY DOES EVERYTHING KEEP CHANGING WHY IS EVERY MOMENT FULL OF LOSS IM SO TIRED"

God, dragging me around by my hair and banging me against walls: "IM SORRY BUT IT HAS ALWAYS BEEN THIS WAY. THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS CONSTANCY. EVERYTHING IS DIFFERENT FROM ONE MILLISECOND TO THE NEXT. BUT ALSO ALL THE ATOMS THAT EXIST HAVE ALWAYS EXISTSTED. EVERYTHING THAT WILL EVER HAPPEN HAS ALREADY HAPPENED. NONE OF IT IS LINEAR. I LOVE YOU AND I CANNOT PROTECT YOU FROM THIS"

girls and the inherent loneliness they have felt all their lives

*banging my head against the wall* i have so much love to give

Being a little too cold: brrrr i’m a little too cold !!!

Being a little too warm: i am going to kill the next person who makes eye contact with me.

wanting to talk to people is so fucking embarrassing. literally hi it's me again I wanted to have a conversation with you because I think you're fun to talk to. oh god you can just fucking kill me if you want sorry

are u ever sick w longing. and i don't just mean romantic longing. i mean longing for a place you barely get to see, longing for friends you no longer have, longing for feelings you might have left behind in your childhood, longing for creativity, longing for a rich and more expansive life, longing for less inhibition. longing for more passion. longing for ur life to be so incandescent w something it thaws all the frost in ur bones. are u ever so consumed w it it rends ur heart in two. do u understand me

If it makes anyone feel better I’ve been at several points in my life where I had no friends on any level. To the point where I worried about what would happen to my mom and my cats if I died (sorry morbid), to now knowing there’s people who would take care of my family even if I was just unwell- in the span of a year. Everything can always change please do not resign to doom in your 20s or 30s do not give up do not stop giving a fuck. whatever is happening will pass OR you’ll learn to live with it. And that’s final

Introduction to The Iliad, Emily Wilson

There’s only so many self help books u can read . And so many inspiring quotes u can digest. You can’t run away from yourself. I mean u can try . But eventually you will get really, really tired. Sometimes just sit in silence with yourself . And exist with no expectation. Breathe. You’re alive . Can you feel your blood running through you? Rome wasn’t created in a day. Your whole life won’t happen in 24 hours . Some days your life is slow. Sometimes it whizzes past. What really matters is your connection with yourself . Everything else is good if you are connected with your inner needs….

“i don’t owe anyone anything” is one of the most incredibly callous and damaging phrases to enter popular vernacular. you owe everyone kindness and consideration, always. understand the idea of a social contract. you cannot reap the benefits of human society and interaction while maintaining such a cold and thankless attitude about it. i mean you can but you’d be a bad person for it

you never know what someone is going through. for instance i didnt know i was going through anything until about 2 years later. i thought i was just chilling

how to express emotions infront of people without feeling terribly ashamed of yourself tutorial

i thought i was introverted turns out i was just a loser

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btw archive dot org is SUCH a treasury when it comes to out-of-print poetry anthologies… i am having the time of my life, truly ❣️

Just because we aren't seeing more posts about Palestine, doesn't mean the genocide has stopped. Let's keep Praying and speaking up for Gaza, Palestine.

“Palestine can’t be real because there’s no P in Arabic” I’m about to blow your mind when I tell you we don’t say ‘Palestine’ in Arabic

Hanif Abdurraqib interviewed by Ruth Awad: Joy Is Not Promised to You

We will NOT be stressing over people in 2024 when we could be studying and absorbing so much knowledge, learning the piano, taking up horseback riding, upgrading our skincare routines, reading so many more books, spending so much more time off our phones, giving the love rejected by some people to others who want it and return it in kind, learning music theory, taking up a language (French for me), saving up to travel, developing financial literacy, focusing on our goals, revamping our fashion sense, getting good at photography, carrying a camera everywhere w us, expanding our music knowledge, working out more consistently, and learning so many more recipes

mentions of YOU from my journal <3 (ig: jayetart)