Latest Posts by the-froggy-jester - Page 2

Entry #18, 9/16/19

Hello, fellow sinners. I'm currently in hell once again. I woke up waaay more tired than I went to sleep. I wonder what I did wrong? Maybe it was too cold? Or I didn't sleep enough? Maybe I'm just overreacting and I just slept bad? Nobody will truly ever know. But I don't care too much. In a few days I'll have forgotten this anyways, so why bother.

I'm reading a book about schizophrenia to block out the students in my class, trying to keep the conversations people try to strice up once in a month as short as possible, but still working on the assignments the teacher gives us. I know I'll be able to do this, it's the life I want. I don't want to be loud, I don't want to be forced to tell people why I don't want to talk, and no, nothing's ''wrong''. I just think that if I don't like you, why should I talk to you?

''No trust, No entry.''

That's my motto now. Yep, I'll be an edgy teenager to the ones that I don't like. But if I do like you? Hooooo boy, a whole different person. I'd even say the exact opposite. Outgoing, trying to be funny, flirty (even though it's just for fun, but heyyy) and sooo damn obsessed with Anime and Hamilton. I could easily one of those ''not like other girls'' girls, but I just think it's normal not to like make-up, or horses, or pink or stuff like that. It's not making anyone special. Everyone's different. The girls from my class just seem to be... exactly like those ''other girls'' that the girls that end up on r/notlikeothergirls describe. And that exact thing is so annoying! They love horses, make-up, pink and everything you could imagine that's called girly! Shoes, dresses, clothes in general, their favorite YouTuber is Bibisbeautypalace (a really famous make-up-lifestyle-etc Youtuber), the list goes on and on.

That was my rant for now. Goodbye, Sinnamon rolls!

Entry #17, 9/15/19

Ah, my big sis just asked if we were home. I don't know why, I just kind of... get uncomfortable talking to her. It's more of a forced niceness, I don't really trust her... she's asking a lot of questions, too. I mean yes, it's okay to ask, but she's just so... blunt about it. And she wants to know everything. Not just some things, no, every information there might be. And I can't tell anyone near me about this because they'll judge me. ''She just cares about you'' ''stop being so sensitive'' ''she just wants to be up to date'', heard it all before. On other occasions, that is, since I never told anyone about this. And I feel way better now I got this off my chest... emotions are such a weird thing, aren't they?

I don't get the whole point of emotions. They say ''the positive emotions you feel make life worth living''. Does that mean my life isn't worth living? I mean, they don't bring anything but pain and suffering, right? Ugh, I'm such an uneducated potato when it comes to things like this... I just don't get the whole point. Think about it, then tell me what you came up with. I'm curious to hear what others think.

Anyways, to the events of the past few days. Yesterday and the day before that I was outside, for at least three hours each day. It was fun being outside, away from everyone. I went to the fields nearby, watched the sun slowly but surely set over the woods, it was just so... beautiful... I love that place, and I'll definitely go again some time soon!

That was all. Goodbye!

Now this is a beautiful picture. Majestic, mysterious.... just perfect.

Entry #16, 9/11/19

Currently in the bus, on my way to school. I thought I'd quickly tell you how my therapist reacted, since I promised you said info: he apologized, multiple times, and- well, we had other things to talk about, so I changed the subject after a while. He recommended a book (about psychology), and I'm hopefully gonna be able to get it soon. I mean, if someone, whose profession is psychology, recommends a book, it has to be good, right? It's about childhood and trauma, and how to detect one, too, I think. I'll take a look at it later. See you!

Side entry #1, 9/10/19

The fifth grader I talked about, that looked like me, you remember her, right? Turns out she's growing to be more like me; she has a little- twist, let's call it that- and already wanted to stab someone in the hand with her scissors. I couldn't be prouder. Such great potential, in such a small human... a fragile one for the time being. But she'll grow stronger, I know it, I can feel it...

Entry #15, 9/10/19

Oooh, on my way to my therapist's. I'm thrilled to see his reaction when I tell him what happened because of a single, innocent question... and after I asked him not to mention it, too. But the past is in the past. It was only a week ago, yet... it wasn't his fault, so why would he have much of a reaction?

Entry #14, 9/10/19

I survived (obviously). The food was definitely not worth the price, but hey, at least it was edible. I should actually get ready for school right now (it turned 5:54 this second), but who cares. I just wanted to say that I'm alive, and stuff has been going easy on me. I'll go to my therapist later today, so that'll be something to look forward to.

Someone else apparently had my block recommend to them (or a post) again, and decided to like it. Why is this even shown to anyone? And in which universe would this be interesting?

Anyways, I'll go now. So bye!

Entry #13, 9/6/19

Please, send help. I'm in the outside world, around people i don't know, and I have to listen to polker. HELP. ME. GUYS. I have to stay until 8 pm, and the minute I'm writing this it's 19:21. Please I'm begging you, get me out of here.

Statusupdate 19:27: I'm allowed to listen to my own music through earphones! Yes, I'm saaveeedddd! By the way: my favorite Band is MISSIO. Awesome music. Something else, not the normal pop, not kpop, not anything I can't stand! They're awesome! I'll see if I can get Band-T's! Oh, Someone just asked me what I wanted to eat. There's food? So this wasn't complete bullshit, only mainly crappy! I is happy as long as there's food. I'll keep you updated.

I'm so very sorry to announce that I, Mary, am starting to watch ''a lot'' of shows and animes lately. My apologies.

Entry #12, 9/1/19

Ah, if I'm here, I might as well... nothing has really happened. I've been at my therapist's. He told me to look around for some activities that include talking to people, since I don't really know anyone near me that I can talk to on a daily basis. I just don't trust my family members, or classmates. Nobody around me is to be trusted, they'll turn against me. I know that as a fact. They won't listen properly, and if they do they either make fun of me, or they don't try to help. They are not to be trusted.

Anyways. He (my therapist) told me, that I needed some human contact. In person. I don't know anyone around that likes me or that I like though,so that could get hard. I've decided I just take the compliments people give me. By that I mean I'll listen to my two best friends, I don't get compliments from anyone else.

Did I already let you know that I'd be getting away from my class, my problems, and almost everyone I know for a while? Just for about 3 or 4 weeks, but I'll be somewhere far away from my worries. I'll go to an island on the east coast, alongside my mother and sister. Fortunately, there'll be a psychologist, too, so I'll have someobe to turn to. I'm already saving up so I can give myself a bit of a luxury treatment, and I trust that it'll calm my nerves and make me stronger, at least for some time. My birthday is also in that time where I am gone, so I

Firstly won't have to worry about a party (even though I wasn't planning on celebrating in the first place), and

Secondly will be able to be all on my own that day. Sitting on the beach, watching the waves, listening to the calming sound of the sea... what an amazing picture. But of course, there could be rain on that exact day, or the beach is crowded, or, or, or. But I still hope it won't be that bad a day.

So, that's all I have to say. Goodbye, my friends, readers, and fellow humans. I'll see you around.

Hamilton with bnha

Quirk, Quirk

Angelica

Quirk, Quirk

Eliza~

And Peggy

The hero sisters~

It's 1:50 guys pls help

Yes, yes it is.

Entry #11, 8/17/19

School started again, and I volunteered as a helper for the 5th graders. And one of the girls was looking just like me when I was younger. She had the hair, the features, even the height. I didn't talk to her, because today was only the ceremony where the 5th graders are let into the school and introduced to their classmates, but from the look in her eyes I can tell that she's pretty damn innocent. Thinking that she can make friends left and right.... I hope she doesn't end up like me and gets bullied. I want her to be taken into the class softly, not thrown into the cold water like me. When I see the kids on Monday, I'll make sure they all know they can trust me with anything. I hate giving myself compliments, but I think I'm a pretty good listener. I don't give the best advice, but I still can help people out (somehow).

Moving on, I've been drawing a lot of flowers lately. I'll show you later, in a separate post. I'm not good, but I've improved quite a bit over the past couple of months.

Nothing else really happened, and since I could only spill tea about my neighbors, I'll just say

Peace out, my dude/ettes/(nonbinary word for dude)s!

Entry #10, 8/8/19

So as you might know: I'm a German. And you might also know that Germany started and was involved in quite some wars. Now, let me state my case:

There was a plane/drone/helicopter flying very, very low. It kept on flying over ''my'' part of the city, and only that part. I am so fkn paranoid when it comes to war and apocalypses and all that, so I am currently trying to figure out what it was. I know, I'm making wayy too much drama, but I'm just very very very careful when it comes to these kind of things. Plus, another worrying fact: it's 2 in the morning. Everything is pitch black. That was the only sound to be heard in the silence of the night, and I goddamn hate it.

Entry #9, 8/7/19

I've finished Diary nr. 11. Number 12 is fortunately not blank on the inside, and has lines I can write on. I still think it's very pretty.

Pesto's gonna talk to his crush today, and they'll meet up soon. I hope the meetup will lead to more action between them.

Pesto has asked me, if I wanted to translate a script for him, and maybe I'll get the chance to voice act! It'd be awesome! I love voice acting.

Nothing more happened. Goodbye, seeya!

Entry #8, 8/5/19

I kept up the schedule. Right now I'm waiting for Pesto to start the stream. Yes, he streams. For 12 hours straight today, from 10 am to 10 pm. And 10 am is in 16 minutes.

Sophie is at her other best friend's today. From 10:30 am to 9 pm. So I basically have the whole day for myself. Finally, some alone time, and since my mother and sister are in a nearby town today, I have the flat for myself too. This day is gonna be very quiet and very relaxing...

Outside in our garden are some gardeners, they are taking care of the bushes. It was high time they've got trimmed.

Nothing else was happening. I may ''upload'' a very basic sketch I did later. But for now:

Goodbye, I'll seeya ''around''! ^^

Entry #7

I started working out yesterday, and I kind of scheduled my days now. Until 5 pm: cleaning and free time, from 5-6 pm: working out, 6-7 (or 7:30) pm: cooking. I like my life more when it follows a schedule, since everything is planned through and nothing new comes my way. I need a structure in life, else I'll feel uncomfortable.

Pesto was just joking. He's not with her yet, but they get along better with every day. I'm really proud of him.

I started watching Boku no hero academia and Death note. They're good animes, I recommend checking them out someday.

I've got nothing left to say. Goodbye!

Entry #6

Pesto got together with his crush! After one and a half years of trying, he finally managed to win her over. I'm so proud of him! Now I'll just hope she makes him happy.

It's still really warm, but I'm able to sleep so it's fine, I guess.

Otherwise, nothing happened. Bao!

Entry #5

So today, nothing much happened. Sophie couldn't text until about 21 o'clock, and Pesto was busy too. But he sent me the link to his YT-Channel, and up until now he has three videos. One of which being a recorded stream of the game ''Outlast''. Since I really, really enjoy psychic-horror games, I jumped riiiight in. But I'm also paranoid when I watch let's plays like that, so I was excited but terrified at the same time.

The weather didn't change that much. It got a little colder tho, so I guess that's good.

Jesus... I can hear my neighbor snoring, and he lives an apartment over me. I can hear him loud. And clear.

... how does his family put up with that???

Anyways... nothing else really happened. Goodnight, sweet dreams!

Entry #4

It's still very warm, but not too hot. The weather app I use says it'll be around 19° at 3 am, so I guess I'll be able to sleep. At least it's colder than the nights before, and it's supposed to get colder over the next couple of days.

My best friend (the girl, let's call her... Sophie) has a doctor's appointment today, so she couldn't answer me until now.

I had the day for myself. I was writing in my diary a lot, just going through the people that are dropping out of my class or out of my school completely, the ones that are new, etc. There's no big difference, but we will have a new student. How about we refer to him as Justin for now? As I said, he'll be a new ''member'' of my class, and I really hope he's a nice dude. All of the other guys are just such imbiciles at times. Most of them hate me, some just can't stand me, and there may be a few that kinda like me, but wouldn't talk to me alone. So my hopes are high that he's actually someone reasonable. We'll also get new teachers. Nice ones, hopefully. Maybe I'll get back my old french teacher; he was way better at teaching than the one we have now is. Or had before vacation started. I also dislike my German and Math teachers a lot. They are both pretty annoying, and don't give a floop if you need help or not. ''YoU cOuLd HaVe LiStEnEd WhEn I wAs ExPlAiNiNg It'' too bad they both can't explain for shi-

Anyways. I think I should give some important people in my life names... so here goes.

Best friend (male): Pesto (that's his actual nickname.)

Best friend (female): Sophie

New student (male): Justin

Teachers: Imma start with that when I know for sure which teachers I have

My mother: Mom or Mum (too lazy to think of a name)

My oldest sister: Jessica

My older sister: Silvia

My younger sister: Lou

That's everything that matters for now. Maybe I'll add some people later.

Have a good one! ^^

As I said earlier, I prefer no or foreign vocals, but of course there is always an exception. So here, have more good songs. Good in my opinion, that is. Pun intended.

Another song I seem to like. Fortunately, it doesn't have vocals. I prefer songs without many vocals, or vocals I can't understand, so there's still room to imagine what it might be about or what might be happening.

Entry #3

The weather didn't change. It's 17:00 at the time I'm writing this, and there's not really anything else to do.

My other best friend has fever, but it's gotten better over the past few days. She had a few fever hallucinations, but that might also be because of her schizophrenia, and that it's ''mixing'' with the fever. It's very hot where she lives as well right now, so she has a chance of getting worse. But she seems to be doing quite well up until now, so let's just hope it'll stay like that.

I think I might actually finish my diary in the next week, maybe even this week, who knows. Then I can finally start the new one! I might post a picture of the new diary later, when I start using it. But until then, it's gonna stay a secret.

I'll keep you up to date, bye ^^

Entry #2

Right now it's 00:16, and way too hot to be comfortable again. A couple of days ago (as I might already have mentioned) it was so cold I could cuddle up, now I can't even have my blanket on my legs without sweating. Wonderful weather in the Land of Bier, or at least in my region.

One of my two best friends is making progress with his crush, so things are looking good for him. I really hope they get together.. he put so much effort into getting her to like him, suttle moves and nothing that could make anyone uncomfortable... they've started talking more, which is absolutely perfect! I myself don't really like his crush, but then again... I've never really talked to her. But after what he told me, I can just hope she treats him right. But for now I'd just say ''as long as he's happy, I'm happy''.

I'll let you (whoever may read this since there is apparently someone who found entry number 1 and liked it... thanks kind stranger ^^) know when something's up, as always. Ciao!

A song I currently enjoy a lot.

Entry #1

So... well I'm just going to start this blog as a kind of second diary, and since no one will ever even find this, I'm currently asking myself ''well why the hell not?''. So here I go...

Some background information first:

-Female

-Sexuality: questioning, but probably either bi or pan

-German

-No, I do not drink beer for every meal. In fact, I'm against drinking and smoking, but I don't give a floop if you do either or both

-I really don't care what other people do or like or think or whatever

-Except for anti-vaxxers and homophobes. Why, humans, why???

-I like Hamilton and Creepypasta, both a whole lot.

So, now that that's done... I guess I can start with the blog?

Alright. It's summer vacation, I'm basically in my room all day, talking to a friend or two...But today, I had to leave my comfy bed :( I went to the store, and I wasn't really expecting any heat at all, since it was quite cold in the part of Germland I live in, but of course the sun had to kill everything in a 100 kilometer radius. So it was flaming hot outside, and everyone I passed by looked either pissed or exhausted asf. When I came back from the store though, it just got way hotter, so I decided to lay in my bed and check whatever social media like the lazy ''person'' I am.

I'm also really hyped about finishing my diary. I have another one ''waiting'', so I can't wait to start that one. I did write a lot in it today, because I was so bored.

I also started drawing my OC Sophie, cuz why not? Not like I had anything better to do, anyways.

So yeah, that was my day. I'll maybe write again tomorrow, or just when something happens.