1 Truth

Fashion by Sadan Vague

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Someplace unfamiliar

with every step. 

I move further from this earth. 

This being ive become. 

clouds once looming over head,  

now just a haze someplace below. 

That place. 

One I never knew and will never know. 

Could never know. 

With every wish Ive held my breath. 

let down. 

Im running out, t 

urning blue as that very color fades from it. 

Those calming words you spoke to me. 

That calming voice, 

bringing sanity. 

as there once was… 

again nothing will be. 

Prolonging pain. 

Inducing change. 

a short glimpse at clarity. 

The night provides the day. 

fire, the beauty of the flame. 

And the ashes, 

the perfect place, 

a clean slate. 

reality loop error

connecting all the dots now.

a circle has no end.

i make this lone circuit.

do you understand?

i look back with sorrow.

the things that should have been..

i walk forth so blindly.

my eyes are wide open.

the past will always be here..

i will never change.

the future holds yet nothing.

nothing stays the same.

memory now failing.

the time has come you see.

everything a reflection.

never skipping beat.

no way to start over.

mistakes ill soon repeat.

reality is fading.

become dark fantasy.

im the virus in this program.

Error in the registry.

who is in control here?

monkey or machine?

Who best to play the fool.

indentations  on your skin. slight discoloration. the truth is sinking in, like your nails along his back. the thoughts are breaking in. oh and if I could Id have given everything. just to make it end. the images in my head. I know its real and that enough for me. its just too much you see.

Life is...

I paint with my pencil graphite on paper heart on display an image, a word evoke emotion but will never mean what it did to me when it occurred. Just a reminder a place holder in time a memory as art.

The undead.

I live like a ghost. invisible and stuck to the corners and dim lit ways you never walk. observing without being seen or felt. as life unfolds around me, I burry the burden. this skeleton in my closet.

Hopeless devotion.

you were so good.

never better.

every word.

every letter.

meticulous.

flawless.

right down to... the way you dress.

Everything... in its place.

that soft look... on your face.

those promises... that we made.

you said they meant... everything.

all your hopes... and all your dreams.

never suspected... anything.

you were so warm.

I melt for you.

Ill do anything.

Just ask me to.

weak but still standing.

all the words that flow through me, never ending verbal sea. none of which amount to anything... not near what I think they mean. All these thoughts Above me circling. pondering if, and what if there was... some meaning? What could it be. What will this bring? wounds in mending. shaping me. Tear it down, now build it up. break my heart but you cant break me. no matter how close you think I seem.