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Day 73 2/4/25 (wednesday)

1. Company work (5:30 pm)

Well, i really need to work on my self esteem issue. Just cause my manager didn't ask me what i am working on, doesnt mean i am slow at it. I need to get my things together and focus!!

2. Signals and systems - 10 videos

I couldn't get started, but i should

3. Engineering mathematics - Linear algebra

I paid for the course, but yet to start

4. C programming - 20 videos

I did 10 videos

5. DIP chapter 1

3 pages are left

6. Exercise (walk, dance, stretch,breathe)

I DID!!! ALL OF THEM

7. Bath

Yup!

8. Skin care/hair care

Yup!!

9. Sleep by 9 pm

Lol, i slept at 11 pm

This is the most hilarious thing i have seen all day!!! This is how it should be, absolutely chaotic fun !!

officially-cool youtuber Tech Tangents was working on an old Tandy machine and discovered the most hilarious quit menu in all of software, buried in an obscure astrology program for DOS:

THE "MAYBE QUIT" OPTION!

For too long, computer programs have been asking if we're sure we want to quit, and only giving us a binary yes/no option. Finally we can leave whether we quit or not up to fate.

And yeah. When he tried it out, it failed to quit a few times and then quit. It seems it just flips a coin when you select it and either quits/does nothing based on it.

Day 72 - 1/4/25 (Tuesday)

1. Company work (4:30 pm)

Well, I did, atleast something, but need to automate, so that i can do something else !!!

2. Two meetings (till 8:30 pm)

Yes, I attended, turns out my manager has really good skill and observing images and asking the question why????

3. Give referral to my friend

I did!!! I hope she gets it

4. Exercise - 10 10 10 10 - walk, dance, stretch, breathing excersize

I did the walk part, the dance part, oooo i was actually practicing like Jennie dance heheeheheheje, i did stretch, but breath? I am doing it all day

5. Bath

Oooo i took, i was damn sweaty

6. Skin / hair care

I did, i wanted to sleep like a babyyyyyyyy, i took the meds, but god I've stopped putting hair medicineeeeee... Should do

7. Clean room - 10

I did, i removed some chaos and it felt good

8. Sleep ( 6 hours )

I slept for 7 hours i feel good

I cancelled my spotify subscription and uninstalled it , yaaay?

Day 68,69,70,71 - 28, 29, 30, 31

Hey if i ever say i will do things on weekend, just so you know, i dont, so let me just kill myself

Day 65, 66, 67 (25, 26, 27 march)

-- life goes, just goessss, ive been mentally unwell, spending hours in washroom crying with rage . I have decided not to live for more than a year probably next year one day after my birthday I'll die

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Day 64 - 24/03/25 (Monday)

Started today again at 9:30 am, now i have a girlfriend hermione hahaha

1. Company work - yeah it was satisfactory, i have some more work to do, which I'll do tmooooroww

2. Flow movie - fuckin fantastic , one of the best movie i have ever watched

3. Cherry magic vol 10 - will read in car 🥺

4. Excersize - 10 mins walk | 10 mins dance | 10 mins stretch | 15 mins breathing excersize - yushhh doin

Before sleep - 10 mins yoga stretch | 1 hour vipasanna - will doooo

5. Head bath and complete skin care routine

6. Brush teeth and floss

7. Flow movie blogging/vlogging/journalling

8. Today's journalling

Well good start, i have selected terapist, will go on wednesday

Day 59,60,61,62,63 (19/03/25 - 23/03/25)

I do work, but issues, lots of it, i am not feminist i say i am, i have lots and lots of issue for me to resovle

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Day 58 - 18/03/25 (Tuesday)

1. Company work

-- My career goal is to become a PF

-- First step is to become the M

-- company work hours

-- when no meeting (8:15 am to 7pm)

-- when meeting (8:15 am to 4:45 pm)

-- weekends (8 am to 5 pm)

-- 60% daily work 40% innovation work (everyday 10 hours will be given to company work - 6 hours for normal work | 4 hours for Innovation work)

Semester 1 goal redefined

-- To be a better engineer (G exam syllabus, my master's education material)

-- my own cute/aesthetic web applications

-- To loose 10 kg and get stronger

-- To pass JLPT N5 exam

-- To make my first public blog / vlog

-- Go to park every fucking weekend / holidays

-- To watch good movies in theatre

-- To read atleast 10 books and all of cherry m manga

-- to solve a puzzle

Today's goal -

1. Company work

2. Meetings

3. Excersize

4. Clean room

5. Bath , brush, skin care, floss, haircare

6. Stretch

7. Breathing exercise

8. Meditate

9. Sleep

Day 54,55,56,57 - 14,15,16,17

Let's not talk aboyt these days i just made harvey my bf thats all

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Day 53 - 13/03/25

1. Company work (till 7 pm)

2. Exercise (30 mins - dance, walk, stretch)

3. Bath | brush and floss

4. Sleep yoga stretch | breathing exercise| vipasana (1 hour)

5. Stardew valley (30 mins)

Day 52 - 12/3/25

Why do i do this to myself, why so addicted to r-porn, why do i humiliate myself. Why??

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Day 51 - 11/03/25 (TUESDAY)

I re-started my life again at 7 am today !!

1. Company work (till 4:45)

2. Audio book time (cab)

3. Work meeting (till 8:30)

4. Excersize (1:1:1 - walk, dance, stretch)

5. Bath|Brush|Floss|Skincare (complete everything by 9:30 pm)

6. 15 mins breathing| 1 hour vipasanna| metta bhavna

1. So..company work - I had a bug, and it took me yesterday evening to realise why it was happening, fixed it today (12/03/25), everything is fine wrt that

2. I did not listen to any audio book, my copartner in the car was an asshole and i was also being an asshole ... Eh life

3. Work meeting went till 9 pm, heard someone got laid off , i am like damnnnn okay

4. I did not do it

5. I did not do it

6. I did not do it

I was pretty frustrated with setting up my new laptop, and installing stardew valley and kinda playing it till 1 am !!! So yeah....

Day 48, 49, 50 - 8/3, 9/3, 10/3 ( saturday, sunday, monday )

Eh was babysitting my 16 year old cousin !! Just scrolling and shit and om monday i met with my ex bf told him why he'll be my ex,.we bought some books and stuff. Yeah, oh j wastched you know what , i got a new laptop too

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Day 47 - 07/03/25 ( Friday)

1. Finish 1 task of your company work ( leave at 5:45 pm )

2. Finish going through that one problem we found (leave at 5:45 pm)

3. Read death on the nile girl

-- oh btw, ima follow absurdism in my life from now on !!!

I broke up with my boyfriend, i am decentering men

Day 46 - 6/3/25

Why? What i keep crying. Would you want your daughter to go through what you are going through?

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Day 45 - 5/3/25 ( wednesday )

1. I was going through stuff in my work. Debugged some with my collegue

2. Went for a haircut and pedicure

3. Huge fight in family, eye was sour af

Idkkk i just wanna be alone

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Day 44 - 4/3/25 (Tuesday)

Since i slept kinda late finishing things, i kinda woke up late,but hey it's all good. There was this one thing in my project that was in my head for a long time and i completed it. I did some more things. I need to write them all.

Need to journal/excercise/hygiene/skin care/haircare/pick a laptop

-- all done

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I started today at 6:40 am, and from now hermione granger will the prefect of hufflepuff

Day 43 - 3/3/25 (monday)

1. Company work - what a fucking day, getting a warning for getting phished, my manager saying me that i have been uploading to a wrong file

Damnnnnn

2. Clean room - just cleaned the bed, worked in the night too

3. Cut nail - nopeee

4. Excersize - 1 hour - yuppp almost

5. Bath, brush, floss - bath and brush

6. Journal - nope

Tried to get a haircut but was too late for it sed life

Day 40, 41, 42 - 28/02, 01/03, 02/03

I was nasty af to myself, porn porn porn, didnt take bath, was absolutely filthy. So much of anger and contempt. Way too filthy, of anyone needs a clean girl routine, it should be me

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Day 39 - 27/02/25 ( Thursday )

I am going to restart my life a little better ❤️

Aesthetic i am going for - Academia aesthetics/ lover aesthetics

Theme i am going for - crime in science ❤️. You cannot save it if you don't understand it

I am restarting my life at 8:50 am

Today's goal -

1. Company work by 5:35 pm

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Day 38 - 26/02/25 (wednesday)

I am restarting my life again at 7:55 am. I am a lover girl, you cannot make me not see everything as fun and rainbow.

I have decided to make my life to have a lover/academia aesthetics.

Below images for refn lol -

I want to go to japan - I'll go in december, to play with snow and have fun ❤️

Today's goal -

1. Company work

2. Cmake / Makefile / C program compilation

3. C playlist - 70 videos

4. All different types of color plane in image processing

5. Excersize till you sweat

6. A good bath

7. Your skin/hair care routine - cut your nails girl

8. Physical journaling and updating tumblr

Current Mood -

Day 37 - 25/02/25 ( tuesday)

I -

I cried in front of my manager, worst day possible, it was soo fucking embarassing, why !!!! Just why!!

Ik why, i am not a good engineer who solves problem, rather than seeing things as puzzles, i see them as obstruction, which will not help me in prosper as an engineer. To be a good engineer is to learn always and keep solving puzzles

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Day 36 - 24/02/25 (Monday)

Theme of this work - Self love ❤️

Yesterday 23/02/25 (11 pm) i decided i need a better life. I thought i needed a breakup but i really love him and i would love to live well with him. I took a bath, did my routine, and started Agatha Christie's death in the Nile book. I am planning to start taking therapy and then a couple therapy to heal myself.

Eyes are burning a bit cause of sleeping late. Head hurts a bit.

On march 3rd I'll be taking permission from my manager for the Japan trip. May 10 - May 20 (7 days holiday). That trip is a gift for myself for international women's day and my birthday

Things to do in this next 7 days ( Feb 24 - Mar 2 )

-- find myself a terapist

-- journal everyday

1. Finish all the pending company work

2. Excersize - 20 mins walk, 10 mins dance, 10 mins yoga stretch, 15 mins breathing, 5 mins anapana

3. Bath/skin/hair care - 30 mins

4. No tolerance towards porn

5. No tolerance towards junk food

6. Note down all the food you intake

7. Python course completion

8. Git revision

9. Finish C programming playlist

10. Finish C programming book

11. Ubuntu command line revision

12. Makefile revision

13. C compilation process

14. Sleep by 10 pm sharp

-- night excersize - 10 mins walk, 10 mins dance, bath , yoga stretch, 10 mins anapana

15. Engineering mathematics - linear algebra, calculus , probability and statistics

16. Operation system notes

17. DIP notes

Time table for next 5 days

1. 4:00 am - wake up

2. 5:30 am - excersize

3. 6:30 am - bath

4. 7:00 am - breakfast

5. 8:15 am - Work

6. 7:00 pm - work

7. 9:00 pm - excersize and night routine

8. 10:00 pm - sleep

Day 33,34,35 - 21/02/25, 22/02/25, 23/05/25 - friday was good, saturday i went on a date with my boyfriend and sunday i was the same shit again

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Day 32 - 20/02/25 (Thursday)

C playlist - 20 videos - Did 10 videos

DIP textbook - chapter 1 - NO

GIT video - revision - NO

GIT website finishing - NO

COMPANY WORK - a, b, c, d - NO

Excersize - sweat inducing - NO

Bath / brush / floss - NO

Skin care - NO

Hair care - NO

Sleep by 10 pm - YES

One good thing that happened was i slept well, like really well, had some cucumber and felt refreshed.

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Day 31 - 19/02/25 (Wednesday)

Quote of the day - It won't happen overnight, but if you quit now, it won't happen at all

Goal semester 1 - To be a good engineer

But what makes one a good engineer? - A good engineer creates problems, analyses it, and solves it. She who asks the right question, keeps learning and finds ways to innovate, invent and improve will be a good engineer

19/2/25 (wednesday) - 4/3/25 (friday) -- 14 days

1. GIT

2. PYTHON

3. COMPANY WORK

4. Operating system

5. 30 COA Lectures

6. Signals and systems

7. DIP

8. DIP Lab

9. C book

10. C playlist

11. DIP - 5 Chapters

12.Ubuntu Command line

13. Seminar work

14. Engineering mathematics - 4 topics

Day 30 - 18/02/25

Everything was going fine, idk why i hate myself so much, porn, lateeeee night pushing, ruining the next day ... Why am i like this ?

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Day 29 - 17/02/25 ( Monday)

What do i want the 40 year old me to have -

1. A good skin and hair care routine

2. A successful career

3. A Dr prefix to her name

4. To be a millionaire

5. To live in a place with better standard of living - Switzerland

6. Healthy and Fit and clean

7. To help the women

8. To have a happy life with her family and friends

9. A good fashion sense

Today's work

-- There is this one work that's been pending for so long, literally holding me on choke, i will get it done today by 5:30 pm

Update - I did work, kept doing and doing, still there are things left to do. I need to do. Ima do it early in the morning .....

Girl Blogging - Tristina Autumn 🍁

Day 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28 ( tuesday to sunday ) ( 11/2/25 - 16/2/25 )

It all seems like such a blur, work being slow, me being filthy, why do i do something when i don't like it.Do i even like sex ? Nooooooo

Why do i do it ? They say see for the good in the days, i see nothing but faults. But I'll get up again, cause i have to. I so soo soooo badly want to go japan. I sooo badly just wanna keep walking through the places , thats all i wanna do

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Day 22 - 10/02/25 ( monday)

Japan trip - May 9, 25 to May 19, 25

Kyoto, Nara, Mt fuji, Tokyo

Total budget with buffer - 2.5L

Booking on February 28th, 25

Goals to complete before booking

Git

Ubuntu

C

C++

Os

Coa

Dip

Dip lab

Multimedia systems

Python

Matlab

Engineering mathematics - 4 topics

Finish all the work above and beyond, everyday you rating should be above 4/5

No porn

Everyday, excersize twice a day

Bath x 2

Take all the meds properly

Brush x 2, floss x 1

Weekend compulsory park

Journal everyday / plan for the next day

Play lots of board games

Finish a puzzle

Read 2 books - moby dick, death on the nile

Finish jlpt N5, letters, all kanji, atleast 5 chapters

Be a good fucking friend to people

-- well, i went to office a bit late, cause i was a lazy ass the previous day to book the car. I feel like these procrastinations that i do are literally biting me in the ass. Should not do it, need to practice being focussed in the present. Anyway, did some amount of OOP using python in car, finished my.work, need to get review from my manager....good night ❤️