Trying-to-study07 - Trying-to-study

you’re going to love again, find a job again, create art again, do what you love again, feel powerful again. you’re going to be back on track. i don’t know when, but you are going to feel like yourself again, eventually. this isn’t the end. hang in there.

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

The life I want to be living is this: going for long autumn and winter walks listening to podcasts, coming back home to a flat with enough natural light and the ability to get fresh air, my environment and belongings being clean and organised, running a hot bath to read in and feeling the water heat up my chilled bones, working on my own projects and writing, cooking nutritious and tasty food, having a comfortable sofa to sit on in the evenings.

coffee & notes & alka-seltzer

Universities love to make their websites a fucking maze

not me forgetting to update my dop after 1 day, can u tell im alrdy struggling

01.26.2022

dop ~ 2/100

went to uni early to get my lab manual and equipment

went to class, almost fell asleep

had my first ochem lab and it went pretty smoothly!

saw a very cute bunny on my way home

01.27.2022

dop ~ 3/100

cleaned !! my !! room !!

finished a whole unit for my microbial diseases class about innate immunity

started making anki flashcards

reviewed more ochem 1

enjoy this beautiful picture of my little sisters orangutan stuffy

01.28.2022

dop ~ 4/100

went to lecture

more ochem 1 review, literally forgot i had notes from 2 sems ago

worked a closing shift

until tmrw ~~~~~╰(*´︶`*)╯♡

online library so far:

margaret atwood

the brontës (the complete works is a MASSIVE file fyi)

anne carson

hélène cixous

bell hooks

clarice lispector

audre lorde

virginia woolf

compilations

feminist theory

academic writing (both books and articles)

everything here is in pdf format so you should be able to download and read it on any device. it’s slow going because i have a lot of epubs that i have to convert before uploading and the folders i’ve listed here are neither complete nor comprehensive, but it’s a start! 

there will never be anything that compares to finding new pieces of yourself you didn’t even know you would discover. i think that’s a big part of life i’ve overlooked. not only will i grow up more and more but i will also meet more of myself. that’s terrifying but exciting and something to look forward to. maybe at 25 i’ll realize i love a certain food or at 30 i’ll want to learn to play piano or at 50 i’ll take an interest in scuba diving. i don’t know yet all of who i am but i really want to know more.

shades of green in Van Gogh’s paintings

(via)

something about the arrangement of these spines is really doing it for me <3

frohe mitternacht (ish) btw! 🌙