shi/hir, 17. autistic and mentally/neurologically disordered traumaendo system. previously known as riotmarrow. do not send dono asks. do not post us to fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. zios, radqueers, and darkshippers do not interact, we don't like you.
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[Image ID: a digital drawing of Kai Satou from Your Turn To Die with a light blue background. He is standing while holding different kitchen utensils behind his back. All colors are muted to match the background. /.End ID]
my wife.....
a term for someone whose internal sense of sex/physical sex is both male and female (NOT synonymous with intersexuality)
a subset of transsexual and altersexual. its like duosexual, but i dislike the transmed subreddit it was coined on and i liked "amphi" more as a prefix
intersex people who are altersex and/or feel their sex is male and female due to being intersex may id with the term.. with that being said, this is a general term for anyone whose sex is male and female and is not synonymous to being inersex
oh my good lord i'm listening to case by case by gloopbloop SO MUCH. literally had to make a local file on spotify just so i could add it to my 18+ hour long vocaloid playlist before it possibly ACTUALLY gets uploaded to spotify (link added because i love the attention, but idk if case by case even shows up on there to other people, never used local files before)
unironically even as someone who doesn't and hasn't watched caseoh aside from a few clips, the utau voicebank is FIRE. like it's so good? it's such a good lower-pitched & powerful masc voicebank especially for utau??? the work put into this thing, that was ORIGINALLY A FUNNY LITTLE BIT, is immaculate. the design by beamothy, plus the mmd model made by lesbardian? IT GOES HARD? ohhhh my gahhddddd this is so peak.
and FINALLY people don't have to use ai for caseoh covers! just use utau like a REAL alpha internetpilled content creator!
the little 10 year-old vocaloid fan in me is so happy rn. even if i hate akidearest now, she introduced me to one hell of an art form (acting like the first vocaloid song i Remember streaming totally isn't insanity by circusp)
sometimes a mutual reblogs the exact same image a million times without tags because they’re excited about something and brother you will just have to scroll. tis the blessed burden of being a tumblr mutual. you will just have to scroll
[hey! here's an sa/sexual harassment warning for the tags of my reblog! abide by it!]
being a system has let me be less lonely, more curious, and more informed. i've seen so many terms and flags and even medical labels that i wouldn't have known otherwise. and these parts of mine, regardless of how much they front, let me know — consciously or not — that i will never truly be alone. and my system formed partially from my own loneliness in this world and at the time of it forming. but now, i don't have to worry so much. somewhere, someone will always have my back.
or.. my brain, i guess.
Tell us something positive about your system/alters/headmates/plurality:
We'll go first. If it wasn't for our system and the ability to relieve each other from fronting there's no fucking way we'd be half as functional as we currently are with the excruciating level of pain we're in. So god damn thankful I don't have to do this bullshit alone.
anti-endos are weird as hell i swear. they'll take any chance to just like.. fakeclaim anyone. especially if they frequent fakedisordercringe or systemscringe. honestly it's kinda laughable. they think anyone who supports endogenics is automatically one themself, when that shit isn't true (take my boyfriend for instance, who is traumagenic and yet supports me wholeheartedly)
Days without an anti-endo thinking this blog is owned by an endogenic system and fakeclaiming: 0
Guys I found the only good thing on Facebook.
what do you mean justin was removed from the team. i thought the allegations made by mil are fake? mil literally supports school shooters and threatened to shoot up an ii meetup but what do you mean justin is gone. their tumblr bio is like. "was here to post wackily long paragraphs" and stuff. like. their profile pictures are blank. what happened what do you mean.
they were one of my favorite voice actors i thought the parasocial allegations were fake? or at least like exaggerated?????? what is going on??? i'm like on the verge of panicking while i'm on call with my boyfriend what is going on what is going on what is going on what is going on what is going on what is going on what is going onnwhat is going on?????
not bro telling our mutual to get off the internet.. bro do that yourself 🔥🔥 no need for needless hatred you absolute fucking bozo
Girl you need to get off the internet
[ HELLO BLATENT HOMOPHOBIA DO YOU WANT A GOLD STAR ?? ]
Superiority-inferiority complex flag ⸻ a flag for those with a superiority-inferiority complex! made with NPD and BPD in mind, but one doesn't need either to use this flag.
the top four stripes are representative of the superiority part: purple is associated with regality and red with power, and the stripes point upwards. the bottom four stripes are representative of the inferiority part: blue is for low self esteem and green is for feelings of inadequacy, and the stripes point downwards. the star-like shape represents the bridge between the two complexes and how they intersect.
requested by anon, made by us!
@radiomogai
very recently questioning hpd (because god forbid i decide on anything in my life) (with narc traits?) culture is looking at these anon's posts and... finding them suspiciously relatable. very suspiciously so.
i crave attention but i'm so socially anxious and fearful that everyone hates me that i only want good attention? and envy. envy is good too.
one of my friends has hpd so i'm definitely gonna be asking her for guidance now
(@worldwidenoises for tag whenever/if ever this gets posted......…)
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groups and shit uh. you don't have to sort it ALL out like this, but i like doing it this way.
obviously i can't put all the examples there because of the godforsaken image limit BUT. you get the gist right.
LOOOOOOOONG simply plural stuff below.
we're kinda renovating our simply plural and figured heyyyy why not share our format to the public. because it's COOL.
click the cut below to uhhh see all that shit
our profile, and system member format, unfilled. enable markdown obviously. this is only part 1. but here are the symbols and formats we use. copy paste on browser because mobile SUCKS.
[ ] (space)
★
☆
ノ (japanese katakana "no" syllable, i personally use this instead of / purely for aesthetic appeal. use what you like)
◞◟
◠
♫
O123456789⠀⠀
﹕
͏͏͏͏͏͏➝
⌗
— (em dash, available on most/all mobile keyboards)
¹ ² ³ ⁴ ⁵ ⁶ ⁷ ⁸ ⁹ ⁰ (exponents, also available on most/all mobile keyboards)
 (please and thank you)
our profile, and system member format, unfilled. enable markdown obviously. this is only part 1. but here are the symbols and formats we use. copy paste on browser because mobile SUCKS.
[ ] (space)
★
☆
ノ (japanese katakana "no" syllable, i personally use this instead of / purely for aesthetic appeal. use what you like)
◞◟
◠
♫
O123456789⠀⠀
﹕
͏͏͏͏͏͏➝
⌗
— (em dash, available on most/all mobile keyboards)
¹ ² ³ ⁴ ⁵ ⁶ ⁷ ⁸ ⁹ ⁰ (exponents, also available on most/all mobile keyboards)
, calls him Karpy (one of the few who can and live)
OBSESSED with Anime
Frequents tumblr AND Twitter, so naturally runs into his ex (Karpy) a lot
J.K. Rowling's former mold dealer...
Used to kin Draco malfoy. Hates to recall his past
Tattoo artist. Gives himself his own tattoos
Pretends to like Jazz and Classical, but is really K and Jpop TRASH
Flamboyant, Loud Mouthed, and Bad at loooove :(
Kermit did NOT want him to have a bracelet, but Joker seems to like him, so...
My Darkest kintype... the one I am most ashamed of...
tw there's a photo of a bee. bee aware. haha get it get it GET I
just putting this out there, i hate the stigma against carpenter bees.
"but they burrow in wood and ruin your house!" skill issue, my house is already in the trenches (constantly dirty for no reason, no ventilation, the floor is broken in quite a few spots, etc.)
"but they can still bite and sting you!" erm, ackshually 🤓 males don't have stingers. plus, the females typically aren't aggressive and only sting if absolutely necessary. and also, if they can bite, why do they like to sniff my hair when i go outside and bumble around just like their cousins?
(picture taken by u/formal-constant2818 on r/entomology)
like, come on. these little guys are absolutely adorable. i don't care about the structural integrity of your house, how can you hate these little fellas? i used to be fucking terrified of bees until i learned that the carpenter bees around my house literally just act tough and can't hurt you for shit
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Tutorial on drawing characters/OCs who have some sort of facial paralysis. It doesn't cover all possible variants because I was using mirror as my main reference lawl
Keep in mind that this is an introductory drawing tutorial and has some generalizations in it, so not every “X is Z” statement will be true for Actual People 👍
Consider supporting me on ko-fi if you find this to be helpful.
I LUV U XIOMARA!!!!!!!!!!!!
This was for an art trade but im also like rlly proud of it so yah..... :) thakb you neil for the killua and gon art....♡♡♡♡hear t ♡ ♡ ♡
[PT: 🪐Headspaceskyic🪐. End PT]
A gender connected to the sky in HEADSPACE from OMORI. It may also be connected to the color purple, stars, outer space, constellations, and dreams!
Image ID in alt text.
@staff @humans @photomatt the extremely broken and easily abused moderation tools on this website have resulted in another trans person's voice being silenced on here without reason and without communication.
please restore the blog of @emil
he has done nothing wrong. there are photos of pets we no longer have on there. memories we don't want to have deleted.
Sometimes I hate being plural, I wasn't fronting this morning and one of these fuckers in my head ate the last slice of my cake 😭
question why the fuck does nobody ever headcanon madeleine cookie as a trans woman. or even transfem. that is a transfem FAGGOT if i've ever seen one.
sincerely, someone who has barely ever been in the cookie run fandom since i fell out in 2021. i've always been a transfem madeleine truther because that is a beautiful GORGEOUS npd-having herbo
🍎 and 💜 for the ask game!!
(plz tag our system blog Xenith screwed up by using our main lol @the-eyeris-collective)
pluh @the-eyeris-collective
🍎 "if you experience amnesia barriers, are there any headmates who have inconsistent barriers?"
a: ehhhhhh not really. don't know how to explain it. we are all kinda inconsistent with these sorts of things but generally we have emotional blackouts/greyouts and we don't remember what the others were doing until later. (can be days, weeks, or months later)
💜 "do you have any age or age-identity that has more people aligning with it than others?"
a: yeah! there's a lot of adults and those with complicated ages. complicated ages for us include chronosians, those who don't have a concrete age, and those who just kinda slide around or some shit. the adults are usually in their early to mid 20's but there are a few outliers who are older
We have asked about commissions. We have an adopt for sale. No one is biting, and maybe like one or two people at the most share our posts.
Please help us stay housed. We cannot be outside with our disabled spouse and a cat. We're trying to find a job but our phone service is OFF and our bank account is -$708, which we will probably lose due to not being able to find work.
Please if you can help do so and share this post. We have 15 dollars so far and need a lot more to be able to get a room for the night.
Please help, we don't have many options right now.
Don't let us end up being another person lost on the streets.
Way to help #1!
Way to help #2!
Way to help #3!
You can only reblog this today.
Hey! I hope you're doing well. I’m reaching out because I really need help getting more eyes on my pinned post. It’s for a family in need, and a simple reblog could make a huge difference. Would you mind boosting it? Thank you so much! 💛
yup!! boosted 🩷
I am reaching out on behalf of my dear friend, Mohamad S., who is facing one of the most challenging times of his life. Mohamad is 37 years old and left his homeland in 2015 in search of a safer and better future. He’s a kind, hardworking man, and his small family has always been his greatest priority.
Living abroad, Mohamad has recently endured unimaginable loss and financial strain. Amidst the ongoing conflict in his homeland, his mother passed away, leaving behind his sister and her five young children—the last remaining members of his immediate family.
As the situation worsened, Mohamad managed to help his sister and her children escape to safety in Egypt, covering their immediate needs and securing a temporary refuge for them. Since then, he has been fully responsible for providing everything they need to survive during this transition.
In his efforts to support his family and cope with this devastating loss, Mohamad has found himself deeply in debt. To make matters even more difficult, he recently underwent knee surgery, which limits his ability to return to work for the foreseeable future. This has made it even harder for him to manage his financial responsibilities and the pressing need to provide his family with a stable future.
Mohamad is now working to bring his sister and her five children to join him in Belgium, where he hopes they can find stability and opportunity after all they’ve endured. This transition, however, requires significant resources that he is currently unable to meet alone.
For privacy reasons, we are not sharing Mohamad’s full name, as he has chosen to keep his identity discreet. While he initially refused the idea of asking for help, I couldn’t stand by and watch him struggle alone. I insisted on doing this for him because he deserves a chance to overcome these challenges.
Your contribution will help Mohamad repay the debt incurred during this difficult time, cover ongoing living expenses for his family, and assist with the costs involved in bringing them safely to Belgium.
Mohamad has been a good friend of mine for years, and I’ve always admired his resilience and generosity. Any support, no matter the size, will make an incredible difference in helping Mohamad and his family rebuild their lives after these painful experiences.
Thank you for reading his story and considering helping a man who has always done everything he can for his loved ones.
Adam
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➜ New Item !!
Angry Sensitive Flag ﹏ a flag for those who are sensitive in the angry sense. can be used in any way user sees fit. RADQUEERS DO NOT USE
[PT: Angry sensitive flag : a flag for those a flag for those who are sensitive in the angry sense. can be used in any way user sees fit. Radqueers do no use. /End PT]
Notes : this was made because i see a lot of sensitive flags but most of them didnt fit me. i have mood swings so my sensitivity is more on the anger side. i wanted to see some love for those like me who are easily angered by small things
Tagging: @radiomogai , @nqvo , @smilepilled